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"You know...Shichuan, my father only used me as a tool to produce Pan's offspring."

Saori curled up in the corner, pushed away the lunch box that Shichuan had given her, buried her head in her knees and spoke softly, her voice full of weakness.

"He doesn't care about me, he just wants to use me better... Why are you speaking for her?"

"But...what he said is true. The child in your belly is indeed closely related to your life now, Saori."

Shichuan sighed deeply, walked over slowly and hugged her tightly.

"I don't want you to die... Just bear with it for ten more months, please. Just ten months, and then we can go back to the way we were before."

"Impossible. Miracle Crimson has collapsed because of me. No one will listen to my singing. The audience will only treat me as a joke."

Saori lowered her head.

"And Jingmei also compromised with her family because of me. She had always insisted on fighting against her family in order to form a band with us. Now her parents will definitely make her quit the band."

"This is all my fault, Poetry Ship. It's all because of me that I'm like this... And the only one who deserves death more than me is Pan. Do you really want me to continue to endure this piece of rotten meat in my stomach? You want me to let it suck my blood, devour my nutrients, and then crawl out of my body... I would rather die."

"Don't say that, Saori... We can't live without you. Even if Miracle Crimson disbands, as long as the five of us are still together, nothing will change. We are still us."

Tsuzuki Shifune tried hard to suppress the pain and comfort her, but Saori remained silent. She slowly hugged Shifune tightly, her voice hollow.

"Poetry Ship... no matter what, you will stay with me, right?"

"Yeah, of course."

"...Then endure it for ten months. I will do this for you."

"..."

Toyokawa Shoko watched all this with a complicated feeling. Although she still didn't understand what was going on, what she saw should be the scene of that year... In other words, her grandmother was full of hatred for her mother's birth. She didn't want her mother to be born... just as she didn't want this inexplicable offspring of Yuge.

She couldn't help but sigh deeply, and the scene flashed again to the hospital. In the corridor, Saori's father sat calmly by the side, while Tsuzuki Shifune and other teammates were anxious, pacing back and forth and looking towards the operating room from time to time.

"Don't worry, the birth of Pan's offspring can't be unsuccessful. Saori will be fine. If she hadn't had a single day of rest in the past ten months, the birth would have been over long ago."

The man glanced at them and spoke softly, while Shi Chuan gritted his teeth and glared at him fiercely, trying his best to suppress the urge to hit him directly.

"Toyokawa Taichiro, can't you show even a little more concern for Saori? Her mental state has been getting worse over the past ten months, and it's also related to your indifference to her!"

"I'm preparing a spell to appease the son of Pan. I don't have time for anything else."

"Oh, that's a good enough reason. I don't even have time to comfort you..."

Tsuzuki Shifune was halfway through her words when the door suddenly opened. She reacted and rushed to meet the doctor, grabbing his shoulders.

"Doctor, how is she now?!"

"Um, mother and daughter are safe,"

The doctor almost subconsciously thought she was her husband, but when he realized it was a young girl, he swallowed his words of congratulations.

"Speaking of which, babies are quite bizarre. This is the first time we've seen one born in such good condition. I even feel like it has a strange charm... Never mind, please don't take my words seriously."

"I'm glad you're safe. Thank you so much."

Tsuzuki Shifune and the others breathed a sigh of relief, and at the same time, the weak Saori was pushed out. She looked extremely tired, but she gritted her teeth and refused to fall asleep. She looked at Shifune with a trembling voice,

"Shichuan... bring that thing... bring her here. I want to see her."

"Saori, it's better for you to rest now..."

"I want to see what that is."

Saori interrupted her resolutely, and at the same time Xiangzi saw her mother in the cradle, and then she suddenly realized that something was wrong.

"Don't do that..."

But no one could hear her words. Tsuzuki Shifune hesitated for a moment and then carefully held the child in her arms. Even though she was just born, she did not have the wrinkles or redness that a normal child should have. Her skin was fair and delicate, and she even had some hair. Her facial features had a strange charm.

When she saw Saori, she smiled without crying or making a fuss, and the latter was suddenly stunned. The charm exuded by the baby overlapped with the memory of that day in the factory, making her subconsciously recall the beautiful yet hateful face that she would never forget.

"Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah!"

Seeing her face twisted and screaming, Toyokawa Shoko raised her hand and frantically pinched the baby's fragile throat. She opened her eyes wide and subconsciously wanted to stop him, but in the blink of an eye, the scene around her suddenly changed. The bamboo stick hit the bruised white hands in her sight, causing the tender body to tremble.

"Mother……"

Xiangzi heard the owner of this body speak softly and tremblingly, while Toyokawa Saori, who looked much gloomier, just stared at her with gritted teeth, with a hatred in her eyes that frightened Xiangzi.

"I told you not to call me that. Don't you understand me?"

"..."

The girl lowered her head, and after a moment the door suddenly opened. The person who came in was Tsuzuki Shifune, who looked much more mature. She was stunned when she saw the situation in the room. After pursing her lips with a complicated expression, she walked to Saori's side, carefully pulled out the blood-stained bamboo stick, and slowly put it aside.

"Saori... don't do this. Today is even her birthday. Even though she is the offspring of Pan, she is just a child after all. She is innocent in the final analysis..."

"Look at her disgusting beauty! Poetry Ship, she's not even a child... She's a continuation of that monster, a representation of all my pain."

Saori interrupted her angrily and pointed at Kyoko who lowered her head.

"Are you going to blame me for this bastard?! Are you going to stand against me for her?"

"...I just think it's wrong to vent your anger and resentment on her, Saori, because she hasn't done anything to you."

"She's been consuming nutrients in my stomach for ten months, and now she's breathing right in front of me. Her mere existence is torture to me."

"Ah... no matter what, today is her birthday after all, Saori. Even if it's only today, give her a gift."

Tsuzuki Shifune sighed deeply, looked at Anzi with a complex and sympathetic expression, leaned over and placed many small ornaments in front of her.

"Xingzi, which one do you like?"

"..."

Kyoko just shook her head silently, while Toyokawa Saori watched all this coldly. The dead silence made Tsuzuki Shifune sigh again. Although she knew it was impossible, she still looked at Saori with the last glimmer of hope.

"Saori... did you prepare a gift?"

"No,"

"How about preparing one for her now? Even though you've been treating her like this all along, she still treats you as her mother. Last time, she took the trouble to make cookies for you..."

"So I flushed everything she made down the toilet,"

Saori sneered, and Tsuzuki Shifune didn't know what to say for a moment. She silently touched Anzu's hair. At this time, Saori also realized that she seemed to make Shifune a little sad. She hesitated for a moment, picked up a small ornament prepared by Shifune, and threw it at Anzu's feet.

"Here, your gift."

"...Really? Can I...hold it?"

Xingzi was stunned for a long time before she looked up in disbelief. The surprise in her eyes made Xiangzi feel a tightness in his chest. Saori looked at Shichuan with a pleading expression, tried her best to resist the urge to take action again, closed her eyes and nodded.

"Well, take it."

"thanks Mom……"

"Shut up,"

Saori interrupted her abruptly, fearing that she could not bear her anger and would make Shichuan sad, so she left quickly. Shichuan hesitated for a moment and did not catch up with her, but leaned over and hugged Xingzi.

"I'm sorry, Xingzi. I apologize to you on her behalf. She used to be a very kind person...it's just that the pain she's been suffering has become too much for her to bear..."

"Yeah, I know. It's all my fault."

Xingzi nodded slightly, holding the jewelry tightly and carefully, not caring about the scars on her body.

"My mother has suffered a lot because of me, so it's normal for her to hate me. I won't hate her. I will wait until the day when she has vented all her pain."

"In that case, I can be considered to be able to help her...right?"

Chapter 137 Hatred Along the Bloodline

Xiangzi just watched his mother being abused... Although Tsuzuki Shifune had tried to persuade him, every time Saori saw her face becoming more and more beautiful as she grew up, she could not suppress her pain and anger.

But despite how she treated Anzi, she still had no resentment towards Saori. Xiangzi watched her desperately swallowing the pain bit by bit, and thought that this would make Saori feel better.

This is obviously impossible.

As Xiangzi was thinking this, the scene flashed again. She saw Anzi pushing open the door, but Saori was just lying quietly on the bed. The girl hesitated for a long time, prepared to be abused again, and carefully walked forward and pushed her.

"Mother……"

"..."

However, there was only silence in response. Looking at Saori, whose chest was flat and her face was pale, Toyokawa Shoko couldn't help but realize something. She pursed her lips and sighed again at her own powerlessness.

"Mother?"

Her young mother still didn't know what was happening. She wanted to call Saori in a daze, but there was still no response. After a long time, she suddenly understood something. She tremblingly tried to feel Saori's breath, but felt nothing.

...she died,

As the surrounding scene changed into a hospital, Shoko Toyokawa felt her vision return to Anzi again. Her vision was blurred and the doctor's words echoed in her mind.

"At the moment, it seems the cause of death was heart failure caused by the accumulation of long-term negative emotions. In layman's terms, it was depression. If it had been noticed earlier, it might have been remedied, but it's too late now..."

"I understand...I am the murderer,"

Everything around him dimmed. Xiangzi heard Xingzi's hollow voice slowly rising, and then her body quickly changed from childish to mature. The comforting words of Tsuzuki Shichuan and others passed by his ears, but the surroundings were still dim.

"It's all because of me that my mother died. Just as she said, I shouldn't have been born in the first place..."

She stared at the mature and beautiful face in the mirror, and a clear hatred was conveyed to Xiangzi's mind.

"So...I shouldn't be alive."

"But you are still useful to us alive, Kyoko."

The scene changed, and the young Toyokawa Nobuo sat on a chair and looked at her. He glanced at the self-harm wounds on her body and gently spread his hands.

"I understand your guilt, but your mother's death is not your fault... Although this won't comfort you."

"Tell me, Toyokawa Nobuo, do I have any reason to live?"

"Yes, your mother left it to you

Many of the gifts are still in our hands.”

Nobuo Toyokawa nodded calmly,

"If you didn't have any attachment to this world, you wouldn't have endured the pain until now. You want to get them, right?"

"...That's the only thing my mother left me."

Xingzi nodded slightly after a moment of silence, staring straight into his eyes.

"I will cooperate with your ritual needs...what else do you need me to do?"

"Well, you're old enough now, how about having a child? I know you hate your bloodline, but we need to explore and continue it."

Toyokawa Nobuo smiled and spoke softly, but the next moment, Anzi suddenly threw him to the ground without any warning, with a dagger against his throat, his face twisted.

"Tell me again, what do you want me to do?"

"You can refuse if you don't want to, but we will destroy your mother's gifts."

Toyokawa Nobuo looked at her calmly.

"Of course, if President Tsuzuki asks us, we won't refuse. But do you want to go find her? You haven't wanted to have any contact with her because you feel that you killed Saori, so you feel guilty towards her, right?"

"..."

After a long silence, Toyokawa Anzi threw the dagger aside. She closed her eyes and sighed deeply, with a sad and self-deprecating smile on her face.

"Okay, I promise you... Now tell me, which chaebol do you want me to accompany?"

"Your husband doesn't have much of a background. After all, your secret cannot be discovered, so we specially picked a son-in-law. It just so happens that he has been obsessed with you since he met you once."

Toyokawa Nobuo calmly stood up and dusted himself off, then nodded slightly to Anzi.

"From now on, quickly learn how to disguise yourself as the kind of lady he likes. You don't have much time. After you give birth to the child, you'll have to pretend to be a normal mother who loves the child. We don't want your offspring to become mentally ill like you."

"No, I'm going to end my life after giving birth to the baby. Don't even think about torturing me."

"Really? Then you'll never get what you want."

Nobuo Toyokawa smiled and turned to leave. Anzi stared at his back tremblingly. The pain and boiling murderous intent made her unable to help but imagine the scene of cutting his throat... But in the end, the fear of losing those things forced her to give up this plan.

Shoko Toyokawa watched her mother kneel helplessly on the ground, wailing and crying like her grandmother, hating her fate... and at this moment, she was also stunned by the truth.

So... this is why my mother always refuses to hug me? Because... my existence is painful to her?

Shoko Toyokawa never thought that the reason for all this was like this. She had always been guessing the reason for her mother's suicide, and after learning the secrets of the world, she had imagined many possibilities... but she didn't expect that the murderer would be herself.

Afterwards, Toyokawa Shoko watched in a daze as her father, who knew nothing, met her mother, who endured the pain and pretended to be okay. They quickly fell in love and got married under the arrangement of the Toyokawa family. His father was immersed in happiness, but his mother hated his love for her more and more... because his love also started with this beautiful skin that she deeply hated.