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I said this to others out of anger before, but since I met him, I have always taken everyone's feelings into consideration, so can this sentence still be said out of anger?

The only words I said to her were spoken in anger.

The angry words were: "I have been doing good deeds for half my life, but now I have met an idiot."

The content of the angry words was that I had not done good deeds and accumulated virtues for half my life. I should not be considered a good person.

I wrote him a letter to scold him and wanted to forgive him. But even though I was scolding him, I didn't reveal all the things. I still held back a little, and then I changed QQ and ran away.

Even so, I did not reveal the whole story to anyone. I booked a flight ticket to Guangdong by myself. I told my family that I was going there to do some business. Indeed, I was going there to seek justice.

I just want to see what kind of pure idiot is, who kills people in a quarrel. I never wanted to quarrel with him, and we always talked nicely. I want to ask him, what have I done to let him down? He has said everything clearly, and he also said long ago that if he doesn't want to be with me, he can delete me, but he has to provoke me in the end. He doesn't care about work, doesn't care about his family, and he wants to trade one for one with me, and kill me.

I just want to ask him what I did to make him treat me as a friend and hurt me like this.

You hate me so much that you don't even care about your own family and want to kill me?

I took a flight from Shijiazhuang to Guangdong. I wanted to talk to his parents about what he had done, because I knew he might not listen to me if I talked to him face to face, and he wouldn't see me.

I don't want his parents, who I have never met, to side with me. Emotionally, they will certainly believe their son. I just want to tell them what their son has done and educate him properly.

Then, I returned to Anqing and lived in a mental hospital. I never wanted to come out for the rest of my life.

But I finally waited for him outside his house, waiting for him to get off work and ask me what I had done to offend him.

I don't really want to tell a parent, tell his child about his interests, tell him that he is a burden, tell him that he is hated by people and dogs, and tell him that he is trying his best to kill someone. His parents will be sad. I have a family myself. I remember saying that his mother's health is not very good.

I just don't know. Does he have a grudge against his family? Don't consider that I'm ungrateful for always taking care of my feelings, and then deliberately want to kill me. If someone really dies, can his family really escape? Will his family be sad? Will other people around him not look at him with strange eyes?

If you don't feel uncomfortable, why would you quit the group out of fear?

He didn't wait for me, and didn't see me. He didn't think of calling the police, or asking his family to come out. He didn't think that the place where he lives is the home ground.

I wanted him to go to the kitchen, get a knife, expose his chest, and then do what he had done to me before, just to see if he dared to do it.

Then tell him to live a good life and not cause trouble for himself, his family or others.

You deliberately wanted to kill me before, why don’t you dare to do it in real life?

How unlucky I am that he treats me as a friend and then harms me.

Until this time, I went to the hotel. The name of the hotel is Shuyi Hotel, because there is no elevator in his house.

I borrowed 10,000 yuan in Guangdong and paid off the money I owed to my friends. Then I wanted to play mahjong to find some interest, and the mahjong hall told me to bring people to play. Later I ate and drank by myself.

It was only at this point that I told others about what he had done to me and what had messed up my mentality.

From the beginning of our acquaintance, I have always said that there is not much affection at all.

I don't really want to drive him to death or anything like that. But I should take responsibility for what I did. I always thought I could swallow it. How could I expect people to swallow it when I didn't even say a dry apology?

After all, we were friends before, and I still treat him as a friend now.

Even though I don't want to see any news about him now, even seeing the word Guangdong makes me uncomfortable. I don't want to stand under the same sky, on the same continent, or breathe the same air with him. I told others that I feel sick all over when I think about living with him.

But I am not disgusted by his interests, but by the fact that he puts all the responsibility on others and runs away.

But even if it is like this, I really don't want him to die. That's why I wrote some words against my will, so that he doesn't know that it is his responsibility and try to reduce negative emotions. I thought that if I tell his parents, I would also ask them to keep an eye on him and not do anything that is out of anger. If he wants to come to see me, I will still be willing to meet him.

From the beginning, I wanted to minimize the impact on everyone.

But it is because of what he did that I have to speak out, like a hammer.

I don't want to do anything that will spread hatred. When will the cycle of revenge end?

I didn't want to tell him that I was really disappointed. Because if I was disappointed in someone, it wasn't about the relationship. It was about the person. So I wrote one letter after another, hoping to remind him of something, and also to let myself forgive and let go of some of my anger.

It can be annoying when family members care about you. But if a person doesn't even have family members' care, what else does he have? So most of the time, I won't yell at my family members. Although I'm tired, I try my best to reply to messages.

I have always disliked talking to my family and even wanted to die. When I was waiting for the plane to Shijiazhuang, I saw my father saying that he didn't care about me. My patience was exhausted, and I felt tight in my heart and very uncomfortable. I couldn't concentrate.

But in the end, he still asked me if I had money and told me to go to Anqing to get some medicine when I got back.

The next day I went to report the case. I didn't want any compensation or anything. I just wanted to tell him that this was murder. If the person was dead, no matter how much money he paid, it would be useless. I didn't need him to really pay any money. Then I went to the police station and they told me that the crime happened in Zhejiang and I should go back to Zhejiang to report the case. They wouldn't accept it here. I also thought at the time that I would call him out at night because he also needed to work during the day.

I booked the nearest and cheapest ticket back to Ningbo, and then lay in the hotel all day, hoping to have a good sleep.

Then someone else told me about looking for his personal information. I thought about it and had an idea. I wanted to tell his parents what he had done. He didn't need to pay compensation or anything. Later, he didn't get caught, and I gave up the idea of ​​going back to Ningbo to call the police. So I went back to Ningbo and sent a book I hadn't read and a pendant I was wearing to a friend. Then I went to Anqing without staying at home for a day, for fear that my family would notice something was wrong. I didn't want to vent any negative emotions on my family. But I also didn't want to hear other people's voices. No matter who their voices were, I didn't want to hear them. So when my dad called me, I couldn't say a few words. I just felt very annoyed.

I waited in Anqing until Tuesday when I went to see a doctor I knew. I asked what it was like to be hospitalized. Then he told me that I would have to live with other people and keep the lights on. I now hate people and lights. What I want most is to stay in a dark and narrow place and have a good sleep. The doctor didn't find my medical records, he didn't know me, and before he left, he asked me which doctor had seen him before. It was not until he asked me that I said, you saw me.

I remember it clearly. When I walked out of the mental hospital, the doctor told me not to come back. I always remember this sentence. I think if he really brought it up, he might feel uncomfortable. So I went back to my hometown.

Any doctor with a conscience would certainly not want to see a patient suffer.

I went back to my hometown, and when I talked to people about it, I wanted to take revenge on him. I wanted to tell him what happened to his parents. This is the cruelest thing I have ever done to a friend.

I did find his phone number later. After thinking about it, I didn't send him a message or call him, nor did I deliberately retaliate. I didn't do any phone bombing or anything like that. I was always soft-hearted towards him, just because we were friends before. Although that memory was not pleasant at all for me.

I did tell others that I had been doing good deeds for half my life, but I met an idiot. I was bitten by a dog while walking on the road. Yes, after I returned to my hometown. Before that, I had never said such words. I also refused to tell others that he was a burden, a scourge, and a burden. Because he was a friend before. Or rather, I still treat him as a friend now. So I didn't retaliate directly. Blood debt must be paid with blood or something like that.

He doesn't know at all that people are like mirrors. How he treats others is how others will treat him.

Aren’t other people human beings? Don’t other people have things they are afraid of? Don’t other people have things they hate?

Everyone is born by their parents, and they have their own likes, things they want to do, their own personalities, things they fear, and things they cannot accept. No one really popped out of a rock.

For example, the young man who was allergic to peanuts, his family thought he was pretending, but when they really fed him peanuts, he had stomach problems.

There are also deep-sea phobias, obsessive-compulsive disorder, and acrophobia.

I would think about it. But he wouldn't.

As I said, people only see and believe things that are beneficial to them.

I always think that things are not that serious, and when something really happens and I can't handle it anymore, I feel regretful. Then I push the responsibility onto others, thinking that it is not my problem, but the other person's fault. Then I feel better.

Many times, most people will just close their eyes, cover their ears, and keep talking with their mouths open.

I feel that if I can’t see or hear it, things won’t be that serious and they won’t happen.

Well, this world is realistic, and you can't just talk about it and get rid of things.

In the corners that you don't see, there are other unfortunate things happening at any time. Time will not stop in places that you can't see. In this world, people are born and die every minute and every second.

What really affects everything is reality.

Because the reality is what really happened, it is more difficult to accept using it to attack others.

Not only in reality, even if you are really playing games, others are just NPCs in the game and they will have favorability settings. If they do something wrong or make an operational error, it will be game over.

Even chatbots will remember other people’s chat records.

People are like a mirror. How you treat others is how others will treat you.

I would think that others also have unacceptable things, but he would not think about that.

Let’s get back to the original topic. How people treat others is how others will treat them.

Do you really think that if you only care about your own feelings and only care about your own happiness, you can really be happy?

impossible.

Humans are social animals. They cannot really live apart from human society. In society, there are interpersonal relationships.

If you only care about your own happiness and then say hurtful words regardless of the consequences, can you really be happy if you only care about your own happiness?

The next time he meets others, their attitude will be cold. He will throw a tantrum in front of others without hesitation, and then everyone will look at him coldly.

Are you really happy when being looked at like this?

Let's go back to the question. If you really don't care about this kind of look and are really happy, then why do messages frequently appear in the filter notifications when you add me as a friend?

As a friend, I hope that they will remember me because of good things, rather than remember me only when they receive other looks in the group.

People's emotions affect other people.

There are very few people in this world who can truly ignore the gazes of others.

Even if I am considered a mental patient and deleted, I will be very annoyed. But I would rather say in the group why I am a mental patient. I don't want him to provoke me. I would rather endure such looks. I don't want my life that I have put together to be crushed.

Many times, people only see the results and don’t think about the process or why it happens.

For example, if I am crazy, people will just say I am crazy and will not consider why people go crazy. Will people suddenly go crazy one day?

I also didn't consider that although I had mental problems, in the end, I had never physically assaulted anyone.

Can a person suddenly become ill if he/she feels bad for no reason? Even if he/she is ill, there must be some reason such as germs.

There are more things in this world than just results. There are also causes and processes.

Why is chatting so tiring? It's because he doesn't work hard.

This sounds like the inhuman words of capitalists. But it is just right when used here. However, people may think it is wrong because of their prejudice against this sentence.

For example, what was the reason why I left the group in the beginning?

I am annoyed. It is not that I quit the group once because of playing games. But I have to say something disgusting every time, whether it is playing games or asking him to do something else. Even if I am not in the group and don’t want to talk to him, he will still come out and tag me.

If his attitude could be better, if he could be more restrained, if he could apologize to me every time he lost his temper, I wouldn't feel so disappointed and disheartened. I would quit the group.

Later, no matter what we talked about, we couldn't continue.

When I talked to him about my own affairs, I felt I couldn't answer. When he talked about the cat, the cat was not at home. When he talked about work, he was tired from work and got angry at me when he was tired from work. When he talked about women's clothing, he left me alone for two days. When I asked him to go to bed after get off work, he left me alone for a few nights.

If he really said that he would try hard, find some topics to talk about, and tell me when he was going to bed after get off work, and would not say those things without thinking, would I be scared and delete him? No.

He didn't notice at all that even when he talked about something I didn't understand, I would still say a few words. Every time he came to me and said good morning or good afternoon, I would reply. Even if I slept until noon one morning, I would still explain.

I don't want him to have any misunderstandings or be unhappy.

If he wasn't like a stick, radiating pressure all over his body, would he feel the pressure himself? No.

The person who really bothered him was himself.

Just like what I said, being looked at with strange eyes was his own fault.

If you think about it, if there weren't all those disappointing things that could be listed before, would I be scared away by seeing an avatar?

Will not.

I won't even quit the group.

I also won't repeat those things over and over again. For example, every night when I get home, I will say it over and over again?

She felt that I was bothered by him chatting with her, and never thought about why I chatted with him. She felt that I was bothered by her feelings. She never thought that he was relying on me on QQ.

I feel that some of the things that are said are unacceptable, and I have never thought about it. There are many things that I say that I cannot accept either.

He thought I was too enthusiastic towards her, and never thought about saying that, in fact, I spoke to him like that in the group. He never thought that if one day, I really treated him as coldly as he did, would he feel good? If he really felt good, he wouldn't have asked me two days later to say that he could see the photos. He wouldn't have added me on QQ. Although I was just catching up on sleep those two days. Later, I still had to take care of his face and feelings and explain.

Like, if I cut everything open now, will he be comfortable?

Many times, we say things and don’t really think about them, but we still do them because we don’t know ourselves.

I don't get mad at him like that because I'm not angry. He's really cute and everything he did was right.

He had no idea that he was still as annoying as before, or rather, he was getting worse and worse.

At least when I first added him, I remembered to post some photos and asked him how I had offended him.

I can recognize it, not because I am smart or anything. It just means that I have suffered a lot. I don't want to be killed by others, so I always use my brain.

After I met him, I have been trying to stay sober. That's why I told Benzi that I was not depressed, I was very calm. I also told Benzi to maintain his social life.

No matter how many times I try to say it, it's like a water ghost, just dragging people into the water. I always think before I speak or act. He just thinks that he can speak or act without thinking, and hurt people. It's like stabbing me in the heart.

Only care about your own feelings. But there is no normal person in this world who can live happily just by caring about his own feelings.

Because oftentimes, if you are not careful, you will be entangled by debt collectors or life-seeking ghosts. Although this time, it was him who was collecting debts and lives.

I wouldn't think, if I really hated her, I'm also a public figure, I could ask my friends to tell her, can he live happily? But I didn't do that at the time.

So when others are sad, I will be sad too. When others are happy, I will feel more relaxed.

I don't want to treat him the way he did, but I will have to bear the consequences myself.

This matter is 80% his responsibility, what is the remaining 20%? Because I will care about his feelings. I care about this relationship and feelings. I don't want to treat a fool as a fool. I don't want to treat a waste as waste.

I won't yell at him like he did, because I don't consider him a friend for any matter, and I won't embarrass him in front of others. I won't leave him alone like he did.