Longmen Memoirs

"I thought about it for a long time before making the decision."

Chapter 38 Chen Ta [-]/[-]: There is still a long way to go in the future

【What is justice?

If you ask me, I will tell you that justice is nothing but an illusory word.

Justice, right or wrong, cannot save you. The only thing that can save you is yourself and the weapon in your hand.

Justice can neither give you hope when you are in trouble, nor can it help you fill your stomach. Justice is something only children believe in, and it is something from fairy tales.

I don't believe this.

All I think about is success or failure, and what I should do is to let those with justice and integrity win. Someone has to do these things. 】

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1093/1/15

one week later

Tallulah's injuries have improved a lot. Although she has not fully recovered mentally, she is much better than when she came back.

She started showing up at the camp.

In fact, compared to the injuries sustained on the body, the fatigue of continuous battles, the high pressure of mental stress and the scarcity of supplies are the main reasons that really bring down the infected warriors. Even the battle-hardened shield guards are no exception to this.

The camp stopped.

Staying near the Ural Mountains, we left the snowy land after crossing the Ural Ridge.

Days like this are rare. They have a place to breathe again for the time being. Before recovery, there will be no more new actions in the infected camp.

It won't be like this for long.

Because while she was trying to contact infected people in other areas in the snowy plains, she was also using the directory left in the past and the infected communication network established to try to get in touch with the infected people she had known in the south.

She couldn't take any time off, Chen Mo could tell.

Although she has not raised the idea of ​​going south again for the time being, it is only for the time being.

Alina's infected person education group has achieved good results. It should not be called a group now. At least most of the warriors, including some shield guards, have become her students. However, Alina herself does not think so. She He would only say that they were learning from each other, Elafia had always been so humble.

Although they are children, they are infected after all. They know this very well. They don't have to fight, but they have to learn this and learn how to protect themselves.

"Tallulah."

In the camp, an infected warrior found Tallulah.

It was obvious that he had something to say, and it probably wouldn't be too good, otherwise he wouldn't show a slightly nervous and hesitant expression.

"...Well, you rarely show this expression, my friend, what's wrong?"

Tallulah knew him and this infected warrior. Among the infected people who joined the camp with him, there was one named Djogov, who was once an excellent hunter.

They haven't been in the camp for a long time.

"We have decided." The infected person said: "We will stay here, ah, no...in other words, some of us are willing to stay here, and some of us will find a way to leave Ursus. territory."

The infected person said this, and then explained: "We heard that the group of businessmen who came to the camp said that the war in Kazdaele is over, and the infected people are not rejected there, and they are even willing to give infected people work and life. Right in the city, we wanted to go check it out.”

"But no matter what, we will not continue south with you, sorry."

He looked away apologetically, not even daring to look at Tallulah's expression.

Is this a betrayal?Maybe not, but they had fought side by side, and Tallulah taught them this, but they were unwilling to continue on with her.

Surprisingly, Tallulah was calm.

"okay, I get it."

She wasn't angry, nor was she too surprised. Her response was as if a friend had decided to travel far away, and she just nodded to show that she already knew.

Didn't even try to stay or ask why.

"You didn't even ask why?" The infected person couldn't help but ask: "It was you who taught us how to fight, and it was you who led us to where we are today..."

"So you must obey me, keep your lives on the tip of the knife, and fight Ursus to the death?" Tallulah asked, she shook her head gently: "There has never been such a thing, never, my friend, then It’s simply putting the cart before the horse.”

You chose to follow me in order to survive, and now that you have survived, you can choose what to do. This is the purpose of our battle, isn't it?

The infected person was stunned for a moment. He looked at Tallulah and suddenly laughed.

"Haha... yes, you are indeed such a person."

There is no doubt that the person in front of him is admirable for his integrity. If it were him, he probably wouldn't be able to accept it so calmly. But Tallulah is different. It is better to say that it is precisely because of her difference that she is admirable.

"I am not your ruler, and this was once the land you deserved. Even if it is covered with corpses and entangled with unfortunate memories, the tundra is still your homeland."

Tallulah looked at the warrior.

"You are strong and I believe you can find a way to overcome everything. I can see you off if needed."

"No, definitely don't!" The soldier seemed to be frightened and hurriedly waved his hand to refuse: "You have to know that making this decision is not a firm decision..."

He put his hands down and breathed a sigh of relief.

"Think about it this way, I was once one of you, and I can talk about your story with my new partners in the future."

Tallulah smiled.

"Then please be merciful."

She replied half-jokingly.

At this moment, shouts were heard in the distance.

"Tallulah, the campfire is up!"

"Okay, I'll be here in a minute!" She responded loudly, then looked at the infected warrior in front of her: "Friend, will tonight be the last time we have dinner together?"

The infected person did not answer her question. He looked in the direction of the campfire, feeling suddenly reluctant to leave this new camp.

He looked at Tallulah.

"Wait a while...someone else will come to you to talk about this matter. Everyone will talk about it."

"Ah."

"... Tallulah." He suddenly asked: "How can you guarantee that everyone will work together to stand with you? How do you know that betrayal will not happen again?"

Maybe it was because of the reluctance in his heart that he couldn't calm down, or maybe it was just that these problems had been hidden in his heart for a long time.

He asked these questions without waiting for Tallulah to answer, as if he already knew the answer.

"Sigh... Actually, of course you have a way. You are so smart, so strong, and know so many things. Even if you get injured and bleed a little, you won't slow down, right?"

"...Just think you are praising me, but can you not make me sound so scary?"

Tallulah replied.

"Haha, don't get me wrong, we are not cowards who are frightened by one or two setbacks..." The infected person said with a smile, and his smile calmed down: "I just suddenly thought that maybe not everyone is like... It’s all the same as you said, yes.”

He seemed to have finally found a direction, and the last word was very certain.

"For example, I will die anyway, but I choose to follow you just to have food to eat and live longer. After I have eaten enough, I find that there are actually many people like me, as if they can also eat As long as you're full...we've all said these things before."

"Strength and kindness are actually rare."

"Yes, it's rare, so not everyone thinks so." The infected person sighed: "Who can guarantee that if we continue on, there won't be a more cruel result? Those nobles will drive us all out, and then Implicate those innocent poor people and children?”

"Tallulah, I... I don't care myself, but I'm scared when I think about the possibility, not to mention that some people just want to feed themselves, and feeding themselves, even I can think about it. There are many ways to come up with, such as... uh."

He paused and finally said the not-so-good word.

"sell."

"Selling out what we value, there are many people eager to destroy us, let alone an insignificant infected person and deal with all the remaining traitors, this business couldn't be more cost-effective."

Tallulah didn't answer.

The infected warrior said: "Tallulah, I can't guarantee you that one day when those people threaten me with my life and the people I care about, I will betray you and betray our camp. Well, I can’t guarantee it, I just don’t dare to think about it.”

"So I think... in this case, we shouldn't stay here anymore, but... we can't take everyone with us, right?"

"I have to... admit it."

"In this case, before we go all the way south and win that wonderful thing you mentioned, what will happen to the tundra? What will happen to the remaining infected people in the tundra?" He asked: "Whether it's the tundra... this land It’s so vast, and some people are thinking of simply taking this opportunity to leave here and go find the suffering compatriots in other places, to see if other places... will also have a place for infected people.”

He paused and slowly added: "...There will always be people who think so."

"you……"

Tallulah was surprised, extremely surprised, to hear so many questions from a soldier. Even though there were no answers to these questions, these questions proved that he was thinking, thinking about the infected, and thinking about their future.

This is enough to prove that they also have their own will and thoughts, and are not animals at the mercy of others, even if his thoughts will separate them from themselves.

"If you think so, I'm actually very... happy."

The infected person was stunned and shook his head slightly.

"It sounds like something I can't understand, so I won't ask why..." He said, maybe it was just because she was afraid that Tallulah's answer would make her more hesitant and guilty.

"Speaking of which...if you leave the team at this juncture, will you be regarded as a deserter? I don't know much about this kind of thing, so I came to tell you."

"Oh, of course not." Tallulah smiled: "Whether it's Tallulah or the guerrillas, it's just a name, with the things under the name, ideas, spirit, and noble resistance. Fire is spreading all over the earth, why should you blame yourself for this?"

"Huh, that's good. To be honest, I still don't understand it, but Tallulah said so, so I'm relieved."

"You can rest assured." Tallulah said, "Okay... We can't let the hunters' efforts go in vain. Your knack for laying traps is really eye-opening."

"I will cherish the days when I can have food, Tallulah, and we will go back to every corner of this land."

"Then I wish you all a [{

"...With Tallulah here, it's hard for us not to go smoothly."

Chen Mo leaned against the wooden house in the camp and heard every word of the conversation between the infected warrior and Tallulah.

Tallulah watched the warriors who finally felt relieved and walked towards the campfire.

"Did you hear it all?"

She spoke suddenly.

After walking to the wooden house, it seemed as if he already knew where Chen Mo was.

"Alina asked me to come to you. I didn't mean to hide here and eavesdrop." Chen Mo explained. Tallulah put her hands behind her back and looked at his face.

"Oh?"

"Do not believe?"

"It doesn't matter even if I heard what you said. I have no intention of hiding it from other people. I can't hide the fact that they left." Tallulah said, "I want to hear your thoughts?"

"That doesn't sound very good." Chen Mo said, "They actually haven't made any plans to leave. If you hadn't said that, to put it another way, they would probably stay."

"What's the alternative?"

"You want them to stay." Chen Mo said.

Tallulah did not refute. She hesitated for a second and looked at Chen Mo who was leaning against the wall of the wooden house.

"That's just a possibility...even if they stay because of this, they will have the same thoughts in the future. Rather, I am actually very happy that they can think about this on their own, think about why they are alive, and think about their future future."

She sighed softly.

"I can't do this alone."

"You are not alone. At least there are people who are willing to stay, and those who stay have the same ideas as you."

"Including you?"

"Don't say that, I'm on your side, no matter what happens in the future." Chen Mo said, Tallulah's eyes fell on him, as if she was considering whether she could believe what he said.

"On your side, you really don't have any other ideas in your mind."

"To be honest, I'm still quite disappointed. After doing so much, some people still choose to leave, but what they said is right. I know this very well. Not everyone among the infected has the same ideas as us. Among the infected, There are also our enemies, but only if we do nothing to make them our enemies.”

"That also includes Ursus, Tallulah, and ordinary people in Ursus. Not everyone agrees with the way the Ursus Empire treats the infected. There are also such people in other countries. Not only the infected, although they The number is small, but it can be the power you can seek." Chen Mo said: "The integration you told me before, uniting infected people in different places to fight against Ursus' cruel rule, I think, can also be Including these people.”

"What you said is a bit like Alina's tone." Tallulah looked at Chen Mo curiously and said slowly: "But those ordinary Ursus people, even if they can really stand with us, How long will it take to eliminate the barriers between people and infected people?"