I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

That's the way it is.

……

The little girl was hiding in the closet and trembling, and Su Shi saw it clearly.

Qiansui's eyes became even redder, and her skin was as white as an angel's wings against the beige cabinet door.

The little girl is holding a big teddy bear, and she looks cute and funny.

"Are you ok?"

Su Shi felt that his heart, which had been silent for a long time, showed signs of beating, but it was only fleeting.

"I want my grandma... wuwu... will I never see her again?"

"..."

At such a young age, he has to face the serious illness of a loved one?

It's so unfortunate that the responsibility of telling a child about birth, old age, sickness and death falls on her... Although, it seems that this is her responsibility in the first place.

"She can't take care of you anymore. You'll have to follow me from now on."

"Can I still go home then? I want to go back to my room..."

The little girl's voice sounded very aggrieved, and Su Shi even felt that she had kidnapped her.

Don’t cry, how can I tell you the cruel truth if you keep crying like this?

He clumsily carried Qiansui out of the cabinet. The child was so soft and small that he didn't even weigh as much as half a bag of rice in his arms.

[Is this... my daughter? ]

Quite cute.

Well... she even looks more delicate and pretty than when I was a child.

Don't be fooled by her small size, but her heat is astonishing. Just holding her in your arms feels like she's as hot as a hot water bottle.

"Don't cry, don't cry... Mommy is here."

She has been calling the word "Mom" since she was a child, but when she uses this term to refer to herself, it is so difficult to pronounce.

"Mom...I want to go home...Wuwu..."

The little girl suddenly left her closest relatives and had to live with her own mother who was away from home...

Su Shi thought about it from Qiansui's perspective and suddenly felt quite sad.

"This will be your home from now on, don't cry, don't cry."

At this moment, Nagasaki Suyo finally gave up the idea of ​​sending the other person away... After all, this child was picked up by her and she had raised him for so many years, so how could she suddenly and irresponsibly throw him away?

Besides, Chitose can be considered a gift given to me by my mother.

Su Shi comforted herself with this thought. The little one in her arms was not making any noise at all. She cried quietly and hugged her teddy bear quietly.

Nagasaki Suyo felt that this teddy bear looked familiar, but she couldn't remember where she had seen it.

"Mother…"

His daughter's weight, warmth and soft calls all made Su Shi's hands tremble.

She carried the cute little doll-like creature into the living room and placed her on a chair.

"Chitose, can you wait here for a while...Mom? Mommy will cook for you, okay."

"Ok!"

The tone of my voice...something's wrong, it's become closer to the gentleness of my high school or even junior high school days.

As usual, Su Shi opened the refrigerator door and found the vegetarian food and macaroni she usually ate. She decided to cook a bowl of vegetable macaroni soup in the shortest time possible.

The cooking process is quiet, and Su Shi often takes time during this time to relax his usually tense nerves.

"Hmm~" She was even humming a little tune while cutting vegetables. Su Shi felt that her mood was better.

The mother’s coma, the father’s disappearance, and the extra little daughter… There are so many worries and pains, I might as well just fly away!

Pain! Pain! Fly away!

Her waist twisted as she cut vegetables, and suddenly Su Shi felt her butt hit something.

She glanced down and saw Chitose Nagasaki standing beside her holding a teddy bear.

The child blinked his big eyes and stared at her while she cooked without taking his eyes off for a moment.

"Huh? Why are you here? Didn't I tell you to sit and wait for me?"

"mom!"

"I'm here, what's wrong?"

"It's dirty!" Chitose lifted up the teddy bear, on which a few drops of vegetable juice splashed.

"That's why I told you not to get so close to me. Here's a napkin. Wipe it yourself."

"Oh…"

Chitose, her teddy bear and napkins were pushed out of the kitchen door together. Before Nagasaki Suyo closed the transparent sliding door, she made sure that the child would not sneak in again.

"Really? The cooking space is obviously my personal space, ah."

I'm not used to having someone else at home. Why don't we find a relative to foster the child?

At worst, I can just pay more money. Money is the last thing I lack anyway.

As her thoughts flowed, the dish at hand was finished, and Nagasaki Suyo walked out of the kitchen with the bowl.

The first thing she observed was the child.

Chitose Nagasaki sat obediently at the dining table, using a napkin as a face towel to wipe her teddy bear's face.

"Stop playing and eat."

Such a young child shouldn't need to be fed by yourself, right?

Su Shi sat opposite Qian Sui, praying in his heart that Qian Sui would not be so troublesome.

After all, I don’t have much time for dinner, and I have a lot of things to do later. If I feed the child, I will have even less time when I come back.

"Okay... I'm starting!"

Qiansui's voice was soft and there was a feeling of lack of breath.

"It's good that I can eat by myself. I'm also... starting to eat."

This was the first time in all these years that Su Shi said, "I'm starting."

I have basically been eating alone since I was a child, so it doesn’t matter whether I say it or not. It is precisely because of this indifferent mentality that Su Shi has not developed many special habits that many compatriots have.

She doesn’t say “I’m back” when she comes home, and she doesn’t say “I’m eating” when she eats... Well, it seems that Chitose is taken care of very well by her mother, and she has developed this habit.

Thinking of this, Su Shi actually felt a little ironic.

I am obviously my mother's daughter, but I have never received the care that my adopted daughter has received... I feel a little dissatisfied when I think about it.

Little Chitose had no idea that Su Shi had thought of so many things. She was very well-mannered when eating, and the toys were placed on the stool on the right.

She raised the spoon, blew on the food in it and put it into her mouth.

Then she stopped moving.

"Huh? Why don't you eat anymore?"

Su Shi had already swallowed a few spoonfuls, but found that Qiansui was still biting the spoon absent-mindedly.

"It tastes terrible."

"How come? Vegetarian food is delicious."

"Long-term solitude is terrible..."

Was it an illusion? Su Shi felt the other person's voice getting smaller and smaller.

But she was too lazy to deal with it.

"If you don't want to eat, you'll have to starve. There's nothing else at home."

Ch135. She fell asleep in the cupboard

If you don’t want to eat, just starve.

What kind of parent would say this?

Su Shi felt a little regretful after saying this. After all, there was no need to say it so harshly.

But now that I've said it, it's hard to take it back...

Nagasaki Suyo tried hard not to pay attention to the child sitting opposite her and focused on eating.

The child seemed to be frightened by his tone, and Su Shi could feel him trembling.

Huh? Trembling?

When Nagasaki Suyo raised her head, she saw Chitose with red eyes.

She is really so well behaved.

Even when crying, no sound is made.

"Really? What's there to cry about? Didn't grandma teach you not to be picky about food?"

"Yes...I'm sorry..."

"Don't keep saying sorry. It makes it seem like I'm abusing you."

It’s so troublesome. Really, I’m totally unsuitable to take care of children.

"Sorry…"

"Oh, forget it, eat quickly, I'm going to get busy."

With the idea of ​​"out of sight, out of mind"... Su Shi chose to escape.

This reminded her of someone she once knew, but she didn't want to recall who it was.

She walked lightly and fled from the first floor to the study on the second floor in a few steps.

The door is locked, and now the house is her safe space——

"No! How could I do this..."

Su Shi didn't dare to imagine what Qiansui looked like on the first floor...

Because she felt that as soon as she thought about it, she would recall Ichinose Suyo who was sitting at the dining table doing homework and waiting for her mother to come back.

After much hesitation, Su Shi finally decided to go downstairs. She knew that she was not Toyokawa Shoko and she could not escape from everything...

The lighting in the room was not very good. Living alone did not require such a strong light source. Su Shi's palm touched the armrest and felt its coldness, while his mind was thinking about a keyboard player who had escaped.

Shoko Toyokawa, the runaway girl, suddenly ran in and out of her life when she was fifteen years old.

She is avoiding herself and she is so irresponsible.

Xiangzi is just like his mother... just as irresponsible.

The most suffocating thing is the repeated feeling of being moved and disgusted with her mother. While Su Shi is grateful to her mother, she also feels a little dissatisfied.

But his mother has been hospitalized, and Xiangzi has disappeared long ago. These two irresponsible people will never appear in his world again.

"Ok?"

After going upstairs for a few minutes and coming down again, Su Shi did not see Qiansui in the living room again.

The bowl of barely touched vegetable macaroni still lay quietly on the table, staring at Su Shi.

"Chitose? Chitose! Where have you been again?"

Why is this kid running around all the time?

Su Shi tried to walk towards the cloakroom again, and sure enough, she heard the crying sound again.

"Chitose? It's Mommy, please stop crying."

The other person is a child who lost her grandmother who had always taken care of her. After returning home, she was subjected to... cold violence... It is normal for her to cry.