I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

When she actually faced the cute little creature named "Daughter", she felt only horror.

[Is this... the child I picked up that day?]

After working independently, Su Shi no longer cared about the child.

No... no matter what time it was, she never cared about the other person.

She lived her life in a daze, just thinking about becoming a successful businesswoman like her mother.

Coupled with the various mental injuries that he suffered since childhood and had no one to treat him, such as the lack of love from his parents and the betrayal of his peers, Su Shi actually no longer knows how to love others.

If her mother had not been suddenly hospitalized, she would probably not meet Chitose again until a long time in the future.

But what should I do with this child?

Su Shi squatted down, wondering whether to touch the other person's head.

But after thinking about it, I decided to give up.

"How about sending her to an orphanage... Oh, what a hassle."

"Are you okay, Chitose?"

Su Shi tried to communicate with the little girl, but she was so at a loss in front of Qiansui that she couldn't act like she would treat outsiders.

"I...I'm fine," Chitose Nagasaki whispered softly, looking so cute.

This child...

With tears still on her face, Su Shi sighed again.

Ch133. The little girl crying in the closet

The fifth simulation, with the same body, but I want to be better than the first time.

To surpass completely, to surpass... crushingly!

Chitose Noshiro! No, Chitose Nagasaki! Will she win?

will win.

……

"Just stay here with me for now."

This wording should be fine, Nagasaki Suyo thought.

After all, there is a high probability that he will be sent to an orphanage. Hmm... It seems inappropriate. After all, it has been the mother who has been taking care of him for so long. It seems very sinister to send him away without saying a word.

But will the mother really be able to take care of this child in the future? Probably not.

It depends on my mood... If all else fails, I can send it to a subordinate or friend I know to take care of.

After all, Nagasaki Suyo couldn't even take care of herself, so how could she possibly take care of a child.

"Well?"

Qiansui stood at the entrance with a small schoolbag on his back, not saying a word.

"What's wrong?"

Nagasaki Suyo, who had already changed into slippers, looked back and found Chitose standing at the door motionless.

"grandmother…"

"Your grandmother is in the hospital. Her condition is relatively stable now, but she won't be able to take care of you in the future," Su Shi's heart skipped a beat, but he felt that his condition was still good.

"grandmother."

Chitose Nagasaki kept repeating the word, her head lowered and she didn't dare to look at Su Shi.

"I told you... well, I can't handle kids after all."

Today's socializing content has really exceeded the limit, well, I mean the content of communicating with people outside of work.

After all, ever since she felt that she had lost the ability to love, Su Shi has been resistant to ineffective social interactions.

Even when going out for drinks with old friends, we only exchange a few words occasionally.

Really, how did she become the kind of person I hated the most when I was a child?

"I want grandma..."

"Okay, okay, you want grandma. But you should stop thinking about it and think about something else."

"I want to go home."

"Huh? Ah... aren't you already home?"

Su Shi looked down at the child in front of her, then looked around the villa where she currently lived.

Because she likes to rest quietly alone, Nagasaki Suyo chose to live in such a quiet area, which is neither far nor near from her company. The main advantage is that the surrounding residents are famous for being quiet.

"It's not home. I want to go back to grandma's house."

Qiansui blinked her big watery eyes and pointed in the direction of the door.

"Alas... I've already told you that your grandma can no longer take care of you. You will have to live with me from now on."

Isn’t it a bit cruel to tell a child the truth so bluntly?

Su Shi recalled the day when her parents divorced. That was the first time she knew that parents could separate.

She hadn't seen her father much since then.

The light in the room dimmed as the sun shifted, and Su Shi's inner annoyance grew.

"Come on. Take off your shoes. Let's go inside."

"But, but grandma..."

Qiansui was still shaking her head, her eyes were red, like a crumbling sunset.

"I've told you so many times! Your grandma is in the hospital now! She can't take care of you anymore! She won't come back! She won't come back to take care of you! Can you please stop making noise?" Su Shi, who was already unhappy, really couldn't stand this child anymore.

She was also very sad because her mother was in the hospital. Well, it’s not like this little girl is the only one who has the right to cry.

Why is she so noisy?

"Ugh...I'm sorry..."

After being yelled at by Su Shi, Qiansui stopped talking.

She obediently took off her shoes and hid at Su Shi's feet, not daring to look up.

"You...sigh..."

Feeling that she had lost her composure, Su Shi chose to keep quiet, but her mood was still in a mess.

She was actually left to raise such a troublesome little thing alone? What a joke.

I'll contact the welfare home... or someone I know soon. It would be best if I could get rid of her tomorrow.

"Chitose, come in."

My temper wasn't this bad when I was in high school...

Su Shi left without looking back. She was going to the study to work on her own things. There were still a lot of things piled up there waiting for her to deal with.

If it weren't for her mother...she wouldn't have needed to waste time on the child.

I shouldn't have been so soft-hearted as to let my mother adopt her in the first place.

As the mature figure of Nagasaki Suyo gradually disappeared from her sight, the petite Chitose stopped sobbing.

"Ugh…"

Xiao Sushi, you are really an unqualified mother. You are so fierce.

Obviously I was very gentle when I was your mother.

……

Su Shi is always busy until very late.

It was a quarter past seven. When the sun set over the mountains and the noisy blue sky and white clouds outside the house were dyed with the colors of the night, Nagasaki Suyo stretched lazily and walked out of the study on the second floor.

"I don't know what happened to that little thing. I hope it didn't tear down my house."

My head hurts. So annoying...

She no longer even knows how to love her friends, let alone a child?

Now that I think about it, if my parents had spent more time with me when I was little, and if my friends had been more honest with me, I would definitely not be living like this now...

If only someone could have saved me in high school...sigh.

Social energy is completely lost.

"Come to think of it, I completely missed that child's kindergarten entrance ceremony, not to mention all the small events and festivals I missed."

Although she knew that she had to take responsibility for the child since she brought him home, she really didn't have the ability to take care of the child.

Su Shi even made a mess of his own life, so where does he get the energy to take care of others?

There was no light downstairs, and the house was filled with darkness.

[That child didn't even turn on the light? ]

I've already said that you treat this place as your home, so why are you being so reserved?

"Chitose? Chitose? Where are you? I'll make you dinner."

As the lights suddenly came on, Nagasaki Suyo still couldn't find her strange daughter.

"This child..."

Su Shi started looking from the door, the villa was actually not very big.

She deliberately bought a townhouse instead of a single-family home because the space she had lived in before was too large and made her feel cold and scary.

This kind of townhouse space is smaller and will be much more comfortable.

Walking along the wall to the cloakroom on the first floor, Su Shi could faintly hear sobbing, just like when she was at her mother's house.

"Chitose, please stay here."

I put my ear to the closet door and could definitely hear the crying of a little girl from inside.

[Is this child so fond of crying? ]

Another annoying point.

But it was also her fault... leaving the child downstairs and going about her business by herself seemed a bit... derelict of duty...

Negligence…negligence!

Suddenly, a scene flashed through my mind: when I was still Ichinose Suyo, I was also alone, hiding in a corner, crying quietly, waiting for my negligent father and mother to come home...

"!!!"

Wait!

How did I become such an adult!

Nagasaki Suyo carefully opened the cabinet door, and sure enough, Chitose was curled up inside.

Chitose Nagasaki was holding a teddy bear doll that was half the size of her body and looked at Suyo Nagasaki with tears in her eyes.

She... looks so pitiful, and her expression is exactly the same as mine when I was a child.

At this moment, the bullet he shot many years ago returned and hit Nagasaki Suyo right in the middle of her eyebrows.

Ch134. Don’t want to eat? Then just starve.

This kid…

At first, I took her home because I was afraid she would freeze to death in the snow.

Later, he refused to accept the existence of such a "daughter" for various excuses.

But at this moment, the mother who had been the only one taking care of the child for more than six years fell ill.

Just like that, she was back in my hands again and became mine.