I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

Mother has always been great, but Su Shi is more interested in the things that her mother hides... Her mother should be the same as herself, just showing her best side as much as possible.

So mother, can you let me get to know you a little better?

Now that I have become a mother, I finally have the opportunity... to understand you.

The door creaked, and a faint smell of dust blew in my face.

The house has indeed been uninhabited for a long time.

It seems that this place has been vacant since I bought a new house for my mother five years ago.

Nagasaki Suyo pressed the light switch, and the house was illuminated by light for the first time in a long time.

This is my mother's room, a place without too much decoration.

Even when he lived here as a child, Su Shi rarely came here except to clean.

But there was no doubt that he could make up for many of his mother's memories here. This was also the reason why Su Shi returned home.

It was only after more than a decade of adulthood that Su Shi began to want to understand his mother.

There is actually nothing much to say about the interior decoration of the house, it is just a simple and elegant combination.

One wall is lake green, and the rest is pure white. Next to the big bed in the middle of the bedroom is my mother's desk.

Brushing off the thin layer of dust on the gray-brown table, Su Shi found a family photo.

Although... the part about the father was cut.

What about the rest of the stuff? The desk is so big, it's impossible for it to have just one photo.

Looking up along the bookshelf, there were many files and old books. Well... Su Shi even saw her elementary and junior high school textbooks neatly collected by her mother and placed inside the glass cabinet door.

Many fragmented memories began to emerge, and Su Shi remembered that one time her mother came home and lay on her lap and acted coquettishly with her.

"Pfft..."

At that time, the mother was more like a daughter.

Really, maybe mom...she's not ready to be a mother either.

And she is a single mother just like me.

Ms. Nagasaki's ability to carve out her own territory in a city that is changing with each passing day is undoubtedly powerful... Su Shi remembers that during a sports meet in fifth grade, she was accompanied by her mother alone.

Although her mother was not rich at the time, she still chose to use all her remaining money to buy Su Shi a plate of takoyaki.

Ok…

Su Shi sighed in a trance. Her vision was blurry, but she still saw the silver needle and...a ball of yarn in the corner?

Realizing something was wrong, Nagasaki Suyo opened the drawer and saw a small bag of cotton in it.

"this…"

Is this the prop my mother used to sew my teddy bear?

So when I was a child, I would hide in my room every time my mother came back. So these are the things she was doing?

what…

Ch147. When life starts to rise

When her daughter left the house, Chitose, as her daughter's daughter, opened her eyes.

Outside the house was a quiet sea view, and inside the house only her clear and bright red eyes were shining.

"Meow..." She stretched lazily and jumped up from the bed, walked to the bed with bare feet, leaving a trail of hot footprints behind her.

"Oh? Chitose Nagasaki, the great advocate of not staying up late, why aren't you sleeping yet?"

A lazy voice from the system came from behind, but Chitose ignored it. She quietly watched Nagasaki Suyo drive away, without any waves in her heart.

"Why are you ignoring me? Am I not your dearest system?"

The adult system is 1.65 meters tall. Even now, when it is hunched over and sticking its head next to Qiansui, it looks like a bad sister who is seducing a little loli.

"System, I have a question... no, two questions."

"What's the problem? As long as you don't ask me anything too profound, my system brain should be able to handle it."

"Hmm...how should I put it."

The little hands pinching the little chin, this action may look very handsome on an older teenager, but it will look very cute on a little loli.

"I wonder if the real Su Shi, if left alone, would follow the same path as the current Su Shi?"

"The answer is it's possible, and all possibilities exist."

"Hmm? Could it be that fate doesn't have a general direction, like there's a rough script behind it, and our lives are written in it?"

"Interesting rhetoric, but as a system, my answer is still anything."

Although there is still not much humanity, Miss System is really trying hard to imitate Chitose's tone of voice!

"In other words, without anyone's help, Su Shi would have ended up in his current situation, right?"

If I hadn't appeared now, would Su Shi have become even more closed off? What a pitiful child.

"Yes, there is such a possibility. Nagasaki Suyo is probably in need of redemption. There are many people who can offer her redemption, but how many opportunities can she seize on her own? It is unknown."

It is possible that many times she will personally abandon the love and home she has received.

"is that so."

"That's right."

Su Shi, you idiot! Seriously! Why can't you save him yourself?

Why is this world so malicious towards you? You were given such a family and such an experience. There are few normal people among your friends, and your parents are also relatively rare...

It’s not that they are bad...it’s just that they are good but also a little sinister.

"If I can find Su Shi when I return to reality, I will definitely become good friends with her!"

As if he had made some kind of decision, Chitose excitedly raised his fist.

Sushi must have a lot of pocket money! I'll ask her to treat me to some ginseng chicken soup!

"So, host, what's the second question?"

The system felt that her voice was full of temptation, and she thought it was really interesting.

The moonlight was cold, making the smile on Qiansui's cute little face look a little sinister.

"Haha, I'd forgotten if you hadn't mentioned it... Well, the second question is..."

"What is it?"

The system deliberately moved its face closer, anticipating Chitose's questions, because she pretended to be so smart just to satisfy her own vanity as a system.

"Yes... Why are you teasing me with the last name Huizuka again! Secretary Huizuka, right? Secretary Huizuka Jing, right? You big bastard!"

She reached out and pinched the system's pretty face without any hesitation. Qiansui increased her strength but she didn't know whether it was because the child's body was too weak or the system was too thick-skinned, she felt that she could not pinch it hard enough.

But it’s good to just let out some steam!

"How many times have I told you this! How many times have I told you this!"

"Even if you're called Toyokawa Shoko, it's better than Haizuka Kyomoto or Haizuka Kyo!"

"Tong-chan! I'm sure now! You're definitely looking for trouble on purpose!"

The system blinked innocently, without stopping the little brat in front of it from yelling and trampling.

After all, she just wanted to make Qiansui feel uncomfortable... and now it seems to be very successful.

"Who asked you to pull me to work..."

"You're still talking back! You big bastard!"

While playing with the system, Qiansui's eyes inadvertently looked into the distance outside the window.

【Su Shi. 】

I bet you've seen the little gadgets I had the system place in each of your homes.

[I don't know which school you're attending now, but I hope you have fun.]

[Huhu...Which lost memory will you be drawn into?]

……

Some people are laughing and joking, while others are feeling miserable alone.

"Mom has a surprise for you."

Su Shi remembered that this was what his mother said to him one day fifteen years ago when she came home to rest after a busy day at work.

As soon as she got home, she hid in her room, as if she was protecting some little secret.

But the mother is a person who cannot hide her thoughts, and sometimes her personality is more like that of a little daughter than Chitose.

That day, she couldn't hold back her laughter and walked out of the house, jumping in front of Su Shi like a child seeking credit.

She said: "Mom is going to give you a surprise, just wait and see!"

I just smiled and didn't respond. After all, the surprise my mother mentioned was either a small gift or some delicious snacks.

Su Shi remembered that her mother put her hands behind her back, and she only discovered the needle marks when she was eating.

I asked my mother what that was.

Mom just said that she accidentally poked a cactus on the roadside...but how could there be a cactus on the roadside?

Now that I think about it, it must have been accidentally torn while sewing the teddy bear.

Memories... that's all.

Su Shi sat on her mother's bed. The lights in the room were dim. She remembered that when she was a child, she was in her mother's arms and her mother sang lullabies to her.

That song "Big Dumpling Family" was originally sung by my mother to me.

"I remember now...I remember everything..."

Why is mother’s love so secretive that we can only savor it when we become a mother ourselves?

"No... Mom's love has always been open, but I've changed since then and can no longer open my heart to feel Mom's love."

I really want to act coquettishly in my mother’s arms like when I was a child!

But mother...she...

When Su Shi was about to burst into tears due to the various complex emotions, the ringing of her cell phone successfully saved her.

"Hello?" I hope my voice isn't shaky... Look at me straining my throat!

"Ms. Nagasaki! Your mother is about to wake up! She is now..."

"what!"

Ch148. Can I become a mother?

Those who don’t stay up late are not big failures, those who don’t stay up late are complete and utter failures.

Su Shi didn't close his eyes the whole night.

She first sat in the old house for a long time, and then drove around.

The level of inner activity increased with each passing day... From the time she met Chitose to the time she began to recall her mother, Su Shi felt as if she had started over again.

That dead heart was beating so vigorously...it was incredible.

After buying breakfast for Chitose, Su Shi drove back to the beach villa.

She planned to go upstairs and take a short nap. Maybe she would wake up in a while, or maybe she wouldn't get up until noon, but it didn't matter anymore.

She really needed to hold Chitose to replenish her energy... After waking up, she would take the child for a walk, and then go to the hospital to visit her mother.

Cell phones, car keys, and bags—they don’t matter anymore.

Su Shi casually threw them at the entrance. She was too tired, a kind of fatigue after experiencing huge emotional fluctuations.

Touched, self-loathing, reflection, regret, longing—who knows how many emotions raced through her mind? Too many, too… complicated.