I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

So, Chitose Haizuka is a god.

"April 20th, April 24th, April 26th... I miss it so much."

I really miss her. Life is not the same without her.

Le Na expected Chitose to suddenly pop out from behind her like a wild cat and scare her or snatch her diary, but it was just a fantasy.

"Uh-huh…"

Qiansui, what on earth are you carrying? Why haven't you returned yet?

The light in the basement was warm and cozy. It was a perfect time to eat matcha parfait, but no one wanted to go with her.

It would be meaningless without someone to accompany me.

Suddenly, Kaname remembered what Chitose Haizuka once said. She said:

I came to Tokyo to pursue my dreams, to find Chitose Noshiro and you... A trip from Hida to Shinjuku costs around 14,000 yen, and it takes several hours.

"Eh!"

Lenai quickly raised his head, a gleam of light flashing in his heterochromatic pupils.

or!

"I'll go find her at Chitose's hometown!"

Ch389. Now, Lenai embarks on the road of pursuit

Writing letters is a daily habit that Lenai has to develop these days. Every minute of missing someone will be condensed and written down in the lines and columns of handwriting.

If you miss someone, write it down and show it to them!

Let the other person understand your reluctance and concern, and urge the other person to return from afar as soon as possible.

Can--

“Huff…Huff…”

Le Nai couldn't sit still today. She became more and more impulsive as she wrote, and the number of misspellings kept piling up. Add to that her own cursive notes...

"Forget it, throw it away. I can't keep this one."

He crushed the letter paper in his hand into a small ball and threw it aside without paying any attention to it, leaving Lenai to walk around the room in a state of despair.

[I really want to find Chitose Haizuka! I really want to!]

"Go find Chitose Haizuka! Go now!"

When this thought came to mind, Kaname Lenai fell into hopeless excitement.

[No, we can't do this... It's too reckless and careless.]

She refuted her idea again, and after going through this process five or six times, she finally made up her mind.

【I have to go find Chitose! 】

Go find her and write the complete "Escape" together, go find her to spend the summer, and bring her to Tokyo.

The one who is hesitating and confused is the once free-spirited domestic cat who has now grown up.

Compared to everything else, the desire to see Chitose again is more important.

"I've decided, I must go!"

What does it take to travel to Chitose's hometown?

Kaname Rakuna packed the suitcase left by her sister Chitose and kept searching for her own supplies inside the Noshiro house.

"Cellphone charging cables, guitar strings, unfinished letters."

Ah, the letter I didn't finish...

Le Nai lay on the suitcase, holding the pen cap in her mouth, raised her feet and began to write:

[Big idiot, I hate you. ]

But that’s not what she actually wanted to write about.

On the reverse side of the letter, the side without the lines, she wrote again:

[I'm lying to you. I miss you so much. Long time no see.]

When the envelopes were properly taken care of, and the spare clothes and personal belongings were packed, Kaname went out without a moment's hesitation.

She didn't know how to fly, but after thinking about it, she felt that there would be someone who could help her at the airport.

Chitose Noshiro once said that you shouldn't eat too much on an airplane because the taste of the food will change and leave a strange impression.

This might make you unwilling to eat that food again! It's scary! But Lenai wants to try it.

After all, Chitose Haizuka also told her:

The most important thing in life is experience. If you die and suddenly realize that you have never experienced so many wonderful and interesting things in your life, you will definitely regret it for the rest of your life.

Be happy! Don't want to regret it for the rest of your life!

……

The airport security personnel were too harsh. The matcha parfait that Lenai brought with her was confiscated. That's terrible!

But then she thought:

"At least I managed to get on the plane. I'm lucky."

The airport staff were very nice, just like Chitose Noshiro... they were the second nicest adults after Chitose Noshiro.

It was Lenai’s first time to fly, and she didn’t contact her parents. She just called her grandmother to ask for her help.

What did grandma do? Lenai didn't know.

She only knew that she would soon be able to see the girl she had been thinking about all summer.

The air conditioning in the cabin was so cold that Lenai was shivering under the blanket provided for the plane. She didn't know how to adjust the small air conditioner next to her, and she was too embarrassed to ask for help.

Noshiro Chitose taught her not to cause trouble to others and not to eat without paying, but the stupid Chitose Haizuka said that it was okay to be a little willful.

Lenai turned over and the flight attendant told her that she would be able to arrive after a good sleep.

Just a good night's sleep would be enough. It was a simple thing that Lenai was the best at, but—

【I can’t sleep at all.】

She looked left and right, up and down, her mind occupied by the various life concepts taught to her by the two thousand-year-old instructors.

Whether they were contradictory or similar in content, Kaname always kept their words in mind.

Because of this, she could build a small model of the two of them in her mind to talk to her when she was bored.

【How happy! 】

I can stay at your house for a long time, then I will take you away! If you don’t have money, let’s go to perform and play guitar together——

All in all, I feel like everything is full of hope!

For the first time, the girl realized that she was "smiling foolishly."

It was a very silly and innocent smile, and even she noticed it.

Le Nai glanced at the newspaper advertisement beside her. Ah. Is that a tobacco ad?

【tobacco.】

Tobacco is such a distant concept, isn't it? It represents the world of adults and has nothing to do with children like Lenai...

Countless images flashed before his eyes, and Lenai's thoughts were dragged back to the night when he drank and had fun with Chitose.

That night, the touching upon "alcohol", a taboo exclusive to adults, made Lenai blush.

Once upon a time, I could only watch from afar as Chitose-sister poured the crystal-clear nectar into her lips and teeth. When I personally encountered those things I dared not imagine, Le Nai's mind was filled with one sentence:

"I've become an adult? I've become Chitose Noshiro?"

Has it changed from foam to tobacco? Time flies so fast.

Rakuna remembered that both Noshiro Chitose and Haizuka Chitose had asked or been asked this question before. What Haizuka Chitose didn't know was that Rakuna wanted to say more that day:

【She wants Le Nai, which is tobacco. 】

After getting off the plane, feeling the cold wind at the airport, I began to imagine that someone would greet me. It was already the next morning, and Lenai walked towards the station facing the dawn.

She knew Chitose's home address and after some research, she found out that she could get there in half an hour.

She fell asleep several times in the car, but the joy in her heart diluted the torment brought by the tiredness, making Lenai eager to try.

After taking a taxi and changing buses, the surrounding scenery was completely different from that in Tokyo. The light and shadow of the Japanese countryside made Le Na unable to open her eyes.

【Just keep going forward, we'll almost be there. 】

Go further ahead and you will find the town where Chitose lives. When the time comes, ask a passerby for directions and you will find Chitose's home soon!

After getting off the car, she felt a little dizzy, so she used her limited pocket money to buy some cucumbers on the roadside to relieve the dizziness. She wanted Lenai not to go to see Chitose empty-handed, as that would be too shabby.

She used her last pocket money to buy flowers from a flower shop, but for some reason the shop only sold white chrysanthemums.

What are white chrysanthemums used for?

"Auntie, auntie, excuse me," Yao Lenai squatted on the roadside for a long time before catching a passerby. She took a moment to organize her words:

"Excuse me, do you know where the family named Huizhong lives here?"

"Gray mound?"

The passerby was surprised and pointed to the distance:

"It's there, but it's empty."

"Ah, moving?"

Ch390. Noshiro Chitose's Second Death

"Have you moved yet?"

Frowning, Lenai shook his head to shake off the fallen leaves above his head.

When Chitose Noshiro was still alive, Lena often helped her to shake off the fallen petals and leaves that got on her body because of her playfulness. After Chitose passed away, Lena had to do it by herself.

Clutching the bouquet of flowers in her hand, Lenai looked distressed and touching.

What bad luck! I actually moved.

"What moving? She passed away a few months ago."

The old lady on the passerby walked towards the distance, occasionally shaking her head and sighing:

"I heard he committed suicide by taking drugs. What's so sad about that young man?"

"..."

Kaname stood there in a daze, her head turning as the other person left.

Leaves fell on her head again, but Lenai no longer had the heart to take care of them. She seemed not to understand what the other person said and did not speak again.

"Dead...?"

Chitose Haizuka, passed away?

Lenai walked forward woodenly, leaving his suitcase on the roadside with no one paying attention.

The roar in her ears exploded, and the scene in front of her eyes became shaky. For a moment, Lenai couldn't tell what her emotions were.

"is that a lie."

How could Chitose Haizuka possibly pass away?

"It must be fake!"

She began to run in disbelief, and in the end she took big steps with great speed.

The swaying chirping of summer cicadas wrapped around her neck, making it difficult for Le Na to breathe. Soon, the traffic light stopped her in her tracks.

[Let's get through. Let's break the rules a little bit today. ]

Her mind was full of what Chitose Haizuka had said to her, and Kaname's head was about to explode.