I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

"Many years have passed in a flash, my little Lenai."

Moving a chair over and standing on it, Chitose Noshiro brought her thoughts back to the reality before her.

"I'm so happy to see you grow up... It seems like the results are good. Thank you for your hard work, my dear."

He jumped down and quickly returned to the sofa, then Chitose Noshiro pecked Kaname Rakuna hard on the side of her face.

She wanted to peck loudly and vigorously! Only in this way could Lenai miss out on more things.

Although Lenai won't find out.

"Just be patient. I'll be gone in a few days. We'll meet in real life then, my baby."

I'll treat you to a matcha parfait, a tour of various places in Tokyo, a prayer, and a visit to the Skytree.

"The kiss I gave you just now is my compensation. Now that you've received my compensation, you must behave well."

My dear Yao Lenai, you must believe that your future is full of hope, so that you will live a good life every day.

Even if hope doesn't come true in the end, you can still spend these years beautifully in anticipation.

Life is a feeling, and feelings are particularly important.

"So please keep playing."

Walking towards the basement, Chitose Noshiro's hand rested on the guitar that once belonged to her for a long time.

After eight years, Chitose felt the heartbeat of the guitar again.

"Kaname, the story isn't over yet. You can't just give up on yourself like this."

"Just let me heal you! In the next simulation!"

Ch401. Mom, don’t you really feel lonely?

Dreaming has always been a fair right that humans are born with. People can dream without restraint and can meet or experience illusions that do not exist in reality in dreams.

So, what's wrong with the dream world?

Lenai's face remained stiffly frowned for a long time, and suddenly she opened her eyes.

"Hmm... Oops, did I oversleep?"

Yao Lenai has always liked to sleep in, but since she joined a big company and signed various contracts, she has never slept in again.

She doesn't want to miss any opportunities, and doesn't want her music career to suffer an early setback... She can't even accept the assumption that her music career might not go well because of sleeping in.

Because, Lenai has too much to bear, that's how it is.

"call--"

Le Nai let out a long breath of foul air, eager to breathe in fresh air.

Her movements were staggering, her legs were weak, and although she stumbled a lot, Lenai still tried her best to hold on to the wall and walked to the bathroom on the first floor.

[Oh no, oh no, oh no, what time is it now? Am I going to miss the show? I—]

Toothpaste foam oozed out from the corners of Lenai's mouth while he was holding the toothbrush. When he was about to rinse his mouth, his brain froze.

She just stared blankly at the bathroom mirror with a few water stains on it, and in silence she thought about the fact that she would have no work for the next week.

"..."

Ugh.

The lament of working people is their unreliable biological clock. Even on weekend mornings, when they should be relaxing, they can't relax.

Both the mind, spirit and physical state are still tense and unable to relax.

"Ugh."

Just when Lenai was about to wash her face and go back to sleep, the dizziness that she had suppressed due to nervousness hit her hard.

Sniffing the turbid smell of alcohol in the room, and looking up to see the open refrigerator door, Lenai silently shifted her attention away from the wine can in the trash can. It was only at this moment that she recalled everything that happened yesterday.

Bewitched by the lovely girl, adopted her, taught her to play guitar, had a mental breakdown, became an alcoholic, and finally... stayed drunk.

This is terrible.

What kind of parent am I? I'm just a prisoner in reserve.

"Mom, are you awake?"

Lenai noticed a little head timidly poking out from the corner of the sofa, and the girl's face made her feel uneasy.

"Years old? Did you wake up and come downstairs?"

"Yeah, mom looks miserable. I'm worried about her."

"It's okay. I was in a bad mood yesterday, but since Sui showed up, I feel better now."

"Really!"

The little girl's innocent smile meant she wanted Lenai's best hangover soup.

"Oh really."

It had been a long time since Lenai had communicated properly with anyone, so she added the "oh" after thinking hard for a long time with her rigid brain.

I hope my daughter doesn’t think she is a weird person.

"Mom, hug."

Chitose Kaname, who seemed to have completely adapted to her new home, slowly walked up to Rana Kaname and hugged her thighs.

"Yeah... hug."

Her palm unconsciously fell on Chitose's head. Kaname Rana felt that the way she rubbed Chitose's head was exactly the same as the way her sister Chitose rubbed her head sixteen years ago.

It’s a pity that I will never catch up.

But she is so cute at this age.

She's so cute.

……

She's so cute.

"Why are you so happy today? It doesn't seem like you. What's up? Do you have any good news to share with me?"

The agent held the coffee and looked at Kaname Rana who was sitting opposite her with trembling lips.

This girl has been looking incredibly happy since she entered the company in the morning. Even those who won the rehearsal wouldn't be as happy as her.

"Ah."

"So, what's the good news?"

"I'm a mother now."

"Oh, that's really good news that's not often seen. It's definitely worth celebrating. Congratulations, Xiaole... Huh? Lenai, what did you say?"

The agent, who was just about to perfunctorily announce the next schedule, froze in place, forgetting even to stop pouring sugar cubes into her coffee.

Yao Lenai just watched those funny little sugar cubes rolling one by one into the agent's coffee cup.

[This is really interesting. I will tell Xiao Sui about it when I get home.]

Today is the first time I go to work after a long holiday. Lenai originally wanted to bring Chitose to work with her, but unfortunately Lenai felt that outside might not be as safe as home.

Lenai couldn't help but hum when she thought about the wonderful daily routine of the past week, which was like teasing and petting kittens every day.

She is the cutest daughter in the world. She is well-behaved, sensible and good at taking care of others.

Although Lenai always feels that she is the one being taken care of, Chitose Kaname has now learned to cook, and today's breakfast was prepared by her.

"I said, I have a daughter."

"..."

Your hands are obviously shaking, Ms. Agent.

"How could that be, you...you usually keep to yourself...so, how many months?"

"Six years old."

"?"

"Is there anything else, Ms. Agent? I want to go home and breastfeed my baby," Lenai said with an inexplicable boastful tone.

"..."

Kaname only heard a soft "tsk" from the woman sitting opposite her, followed by a roar filled with anger:

"Explain yourself to me quickly! What do you mean you already have a six-year-old child? Are you actually a single mother?"

"Hi, hi, okay."

cut.

Boring woman, not at all as interesting as my daughter.

I still like Xiaosui the most.

……

"I'm back, year old, I want a hug."

As soon as she got home, she squatted down and opened her arms. Kaname soon felt a soft and warm white fur ball rushing into her arms.

"Mom! Welcome home."

When I heard the soft welcome speech, the fatigue brought by the rehearsal all day disappeared instantly.

It turns out that kittens are the cutest creatures in the world.

Holding Chitose in her arms, she rubbed her face against each other's cheeks repeatedly, and both mother and daughter made the comfortable sound of a kitten purring.

"There's a performance tomorrow, a small commercial performance. Do you want to go, 20?"

"I have to go! I have to go! Please, please, I'm a big fan of my mom."

"Okay, I'll take you there. But, you're actually just my fan?"

"Yes, after all, mom is the best guitarist! She is a guitarist who has no rivals!" Chitose playfully broke away from Lenai's arms and helped her take off the guitar bag from her back.

"But Mom, I have a question."

"What," Kaname Rakuna tilted her head, imitating Chitose's behavior.

"You're so amazing! Don't you feel lonely?"

[I'm so awesome, won't I feel lonely? ]

The girl's careless question left Lenai unable to answer. She hesitated and thought for a long time before finally uttering a few words with difficulty:

"Maybe."

Ch402. Factors that can produce the best musicians

"That's amazing! You're not lonely at all... Mom, why are you playing the guitar?"

Why play guitar?

When the complaints subsided, Lenai still couldn't give a definite answer to this question.

She subconsciously became serious:

"To make the band better, to go further and be more outstanding."

To shine on the stage, just as you dreamed, years old.

"I feel like Mom is both amazing and terrifying," Chitose stuck out her tongue. "Even during her free time at home, she's stuck in the basement practicing guitar. It's terrifying that she's dedicating her entire life to music."

"Huh?" Lenai blinked.

[Is this a compliment to me?]

But if these words come out of a child's mouth, it should be a compliment.

"I'm going to make you some food...be good."

Kaname Lenai seemed to be afraid that Kaname Chitose would say something that would hit people's hearts again, so she quickly kicked off her shoes and fled to the kitchen like the wind.