I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

Let's drink while we can! Not many people dare to face reality anyway, so what if she's missing?

"Mom? Drink less."

I had clearly coaxed my daughter to sleep and placed her in the master bedroom on the second floor, but now I heard her calling me... Was this an illusion caused by someone who was drunk?

It's really true.

Lenai opened another bottle of beer, and cheap joy washed over the atmosphere in the room.

Just when Lenai was about to guzzle another bottle of liquor, his face becoming very red from drunkenness, he suddenly noticed a slender figure appear within the range of the light.

"Lena? Are you drinking secretly?"

As the girl walked forward, Lenai's mouth dropped open unconsciously. She didn't even notice the beer can falling.

"You don't want Chitose...you are..."

"Haitsuka... Chitose?"

Ch408. But at least you are still alive, right?

"Are you Chitose Haizuka?"

Oh, familiar girl, you are hallucinating, right? I must be completely drunk now. I really shouldn't be drinking like this.

But I am very happy. Even if I just see you, I will be satisfied.

[I'm so scared. What if I wake up and realize I forgot I dreamed about you?]

Le Nai rolled and crawled on the bed, hating the limpness of her limbs and wishing she was awake.

[But if I wake up, I won’t be able to see my little one anymore! ]

"Xiao Sui! Come closer to me... Please let me see you, okay? I almost forgot what you look like..."

I lied to you, I can't forget you at all. And every day when I look at my daughter Kaname Chitose, I recall every little detail of you.

I can't forget it at all. Our story has long been written in the air, and every breath is a burning torture.

"Lena, it's me."

After getting drunk, the phantom in front of him spoke like this.

Just as Le Nai's lips trembled as she wanted to say something and she raised her eyes to see something clearly, the night light flashed a few times and then no more light came out.

"How could it be! At this time...are you kidding me?!"

No! I still need to see my little one clearly!

Don't treat me like this!

"What's wrong? You look... sad."

"Xiao Sui! I... I miss you so much! I..."

The words on the tip of her tongue seemed to be forced back. Le Nai felt a pair of warm and soft hands suddenly appear on her head, but she discovered a clue:

【wrong! 】

This is not Chitose Haizuka, it definitely can't be Chitose Haizuka.

She was just drunk, not stupid, and her brain was definitely still working.

"Are you... Chitose-sister?"

Yami Lenai was shocked by his own words, but he immediately realized that he might have been drunk and unconscious, so he didn't think too much about it.

"right?"

"Is it really Sister Chitose?"

"Ah."

Being drunk... feels so good.

Without hesitation, Lenai reached out from under the bed and grabbed another glass of wine that she had kicked over.

Her white hair was scattered on her yukata, and Lenai's mood was like a roller coaster.

"Noshiro Chitose... I missed you so much... but I'm so sorry for embarrassing you."

"how come."

The curtains were closed and shadows covered everything. Le Na couldn't see Chitose Noshiro clearly, but she could see it very clearly.

The appearance of Chitose Noshiro had long been deeply imprinted in her bones and was hidden in her blood at all times.

Chitose Noshiro has long since integrated into Kaname Rakuna, just like Chitose Haizuka!

[Chitose-sister…]

The voice of "Noshiro Chitose" was ethereal and soft, and the soft little hand was no longer on Lena's head.

She didn't dare to reach out and explore, for fear that it would puncture her own beautiful dream.

"How could that be? Why did you answer me like that... I'm such a jerk. Isn't the way I look now, like I'm living a life of drunkenness... terrible?"

"Then didn't I also live a life of drunkenness and dreams, little Lenai?"

Noshiro Chitose's voice faded away.

Yao Lenai panicked and fell off the bed, "No! Don't go..."

"I've always been here, little Lenai."

The charm in Chitose Noshiro's voice deeply touched Kaname Rakuna's heart. That was the voice she had been thinking about day and night after losing Chitose Noshiro in her childhood!

Chitose Haizuka's voice is immature and Chitose Yo is too young. This is the first time Yo Rana has heard Chitose's voice in more than ten years!

Even if this is just an illusion after being drunk.

"I'm sorry... I..."

"Why do you keep apologizing? And why do you drink? Aren't you very successful, Lenai?"

"Noshiro Chitose" patiently extended the topic, making Lenai feel that she was mostly awake.

"I failed... I didn't become you, I'm such a failure..."

"You've already surpassed me, so why do you still think so? Lenai, it's time to face reality."

Don't tell anyone!

Kaname Rakuna wanted to stop Noshiro Chitose from understanding her feelings, but she was too weak to even move a finger.

"Lena, you just can't accept the fact that you have completely surpassed me. After all, you have been using me to restrain yourself."

"No!"

"Admit it, the so-called Noshiro Chitose failed a long time ago, didn't you? You've already surpassed me, so what's there to regret?"

"Because I didn't save you... Because I lost you... If I surpass you... Does that mean I'll lose you completely? If I achieve my goal of surpassing you..."

Lenai sat up in confusion: "What am I going to live for next?"

"Thank you for your hard work, Lenai."

I felt my shoulder sink, as if something was pressing down on it. Something was flashing in front of my eyes in the night.

There were shadows and dim lights floating around. When I squinted my eyes, I found that they were a pair of eyes with red and golden colors.

"It must be tiring to carry around something that doesn't belong to you all these years."

"..."

very tired.

"I'm not tired, I'm fine."

But, I just don’t say I’m tired.

The wildness of his expression was obvious when he gritted his teeth, and Lenai felt that he was just fighting with an illusion.

So childish, this doesn't look like a mother at all.

"It's not up to you to decide whether I'm tired or not, Lenai-chan."

"..."

"Sister Chitose, I have always wanted to ask you a question."

"what?"

"What were you thinking when you asked me if I was ready? When I asked Chitose if she was ready, I just felt bitter... I was so miserable. I didn't want to see her follow me. I didn't want to at all."

Le Nai shouted at the corner of the wall at the top of her lungs. The world was quiet at night, with only the girl's voice echoing throughout the house.

"Lena, you think too complicated."

Chitose's voice floated around her. The hand on her shoulder had disappeared, but Lena could still feel the warmth.

"Too complicated?"

"Yeah, Lena, why are you so worried?" Chitose Haizuka's voice reached her ears. "Have you forgotten that there is a law in the world that can solve everything? Seriously."

"I…"

What is that? What law?

"You're amazing, little Lenai. I couldn't do that at your age."

It was Chitose-nee's voice.

"No...don't say anymore...I..."

"Are you asking me what I was thinking then? You might as well ask me what I was thinking when you said you wanted to be me."

Le Na felt Chitose-sister's hot breath on her earlobe: "What is it?"

"At the time, I thought that you could never be mine. Kaname Lenai."

"The only thing you can do is surpass me and become yourself."

"Kaname, it's time to wake up from your dream of becoming Noshiro Chitose."

"Don't run away anymore. Death is death. There is nothing unacceptable."

"At least you're still alive, aren't you?"

Ch409. Perfect, the last part of the lyrics

But at least you're alive, right?

Look, what vicious words.

"There's no difference between me being alive and dead... Chitose-sister, if I lose the goal of catching up with you... what's the point of me continuing to play?"

"Lena, what are you talking about?"

There was a chuckle in his voice, gentle yet sad, and Qiansui's red eyes slowly faded into the darkness.

She only left a few words for Lenai:

"Hasn't the stage belonged to you a long time ago?"

【No way! 】

"You should have continued playing for yourself a long time ago. Be yourself, Kaname."

"Catch up with me, become me, and finally surpass me. I'm a terrible person, so don't continue to learn from me."

"I'm terrible after all. Lenai."

Subconsciously understanding something, Lenai crawled forward and tried hard to reach out and hook the corner of Chitose's clothes, but to no avail.

"Sister Chitose! Don't... please don't leave..."

My perception and consciousness were falling, and the cold beer can at my feet was heartbreaking.

Lena collapsed helplessly, all she could think about was Chitose.

"What do you mean by surpassing you... I don't want that. All I want is to hide behind you for the rest of my life... I just want to shine as brightly as you. I don't have the motivation to go any further."

I have crossed countless hills but found no one waiting for me. The only thing I can do in this loneliness is to keep on dreaming.