I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

"You're not bad, Chitose-sister! You're the perfect...you..."

Reluctantly taking the drink, Lenai pursed his lips without bothering to wipe away the tears rolling down his eyes:

"If I can only see you when I'm drunk, then let the alcohol drown me..."

How could I forget you?

How can I possibly break free from you?

It was you who transformed me from a wild cat into a human being, and it was you who perfected me.

How could I be who I am today without you?

【You will eventually become yourself, Lenai.】

"I do not want it!"

【It’s time to grow up, Lenai.】

"I

don't want! "

Lenai choked as he swallowed a bottle of wine, but he managed to hold back his cough.

"I won't accept the fact that you're not here! I don't want to—"

"I don't want to be Kaname Lenai!"

……

"It's one o'clock now. It's finally over."

Kaname Rakuna, who stood outside the door and waited until she came into the room, passed out from drinking completely. Chitose Noshiro was leisurely strumming the strings of her guitar.

She touched not only the strings of the piano, but also someone's heartstrings.

The door handle was pressed from the inside, and I knew it was the system without looking back.

"Fell asleep?"

"Ah."

“Thank you for your hard work, but there is no overtime pay.”

"fine."

The system lady, who had become accustomed to being Noshiro Chitose's tool, shook her long hair and slowly walked down the stairs. When she reached the middle of the stairs, she turned her head:

"Year-old, are you going to take a long vacation after this simulation?"

"Well, I'm very tired. Let's go back to reality and rest for a while before simulating again." He poked his head into the bedroom again with concern, and after making sure that Lenai was sleeping quietly on the chair, he closed the door.

The smell of alcohol in the room is really strong. A drunken kitten is a bad cat.

"However, my dear Miss Tong, I still have one thing I need you to do."

"Varied."

Letting Lenai's subtle snoring serve as background music for the conversation, Chitose pinched the system's chin, his mind full of how to put some effort into putting Lenai back on the bed.

"Please bring me a cup of coffee. It's time to get to work."

"What job?" The system nodded and asked subconsciously.

"Write lyrics."

It's time to finish "Escape Plan".

This simulation story won't last long.

……

There was the sound of bicycle bells outside the house. The sun took a long time to move before it barely shone through the gap in the curtains onto Lenai's face.

"Well."

After her eyelashes trembled twice, there was no response until Lenai began to breathe heavily in discomfort.

call--

Suck--

call--

Suck--

"Sui... Chitose sister... Xiao Sui."

He was not as hoarse as imagined, perhaps because he had lost all his strength. He asked Lenai to move his upper body and barely lean on the bed.

【Be me, surpass me, and never be trapped by me. 】

【Kaname, go be yourself. 】

Her mind was filled with the words that Chitose Noshiro said in her dream yesterday. The powerlessness and numbness in her heart were beyond words. Le Na could only accept the reality with sighs one after another.

If you want to escape reality, you have to face it. I thought drinking could help me forget everything temporarily, but I found that it had the opposite effect.

"I still want to be taught by you in my dreams... Sister Chitose, you are such a bad woman."

Why were you so perfect yet you left so carelessly? You were only 20 years old... Xiao Sui must have been led astray by you!

"Xiao Sui was just fourteen when he left. He didn't consider my feelings at all."

Her neck was hurt by the hard bed board, so Lenai relaxed and fell back onto the bed.

I'm so tired. It feels so tiring to be hit hard by reality.

I was clearly prepared to escape for the rest of my life, but I was dragged back to accept reality.

What exactly is the so-called reality?

It was the death of Chitose Noshiro after her musical dream was shattered, and it was the departure of Chitose Haizuka who could not accept reality.

The reality also includes myself, including the fact that I dare not accept their departure and can only bury my head and sprint forward.

The reality is that she wants Lenai to adopt a little girl and treat her as her new emotional support.

These are the realities, the bloody and ugly realities.

Lenai closed her eyes and accepted it all.

"Become myself?... You made me human, but you haven't told me how to do it yet."

Thinking about the new problem, but unable to find an answer, Lenai turned over and tried to take a nap but couldn't fall asleep.

Forget it, get up.

Go make breakfast for my daughter.

Live another day.

"Years old? Are you awake?"

The sun is already high in the sky, so it's too late to make breakfast now.

Maybe it's time to walk downstairs and cook lunch.

"Years old? Where's the person?"

Lenai was worried because he didn't find the quiet little cat in the bedroom on the second floor, so he went to explore the first floor.

"age?"

"Ah...good morning, Mom."

On the first floor, the little girl was holding the pen cap in her mouth and writing and drawing on a piece of white paper.

"Mom, are you awake? Why is Mom sleeping in like Piglet every day?"

"Because I'm very tired. I won't drink anymore."

"Is it really that delicious? I saw my mom drinking it every day before."

Chitose was writing and drawing with her feet up, and didn't even look back at Kaname Rakuna.

This made Yao Lenai curious about what this little girl was doing.

"I just drink occasionally when I'm in a bad mood... What are you doing?"

"Hoohoo, mommy, look!"

"「君とjuたいよ」,"

("I want to be with you")

"Faded せない日々と,"

(With the days that will never fade,)

"抜け出す街を行こう,"

(Runs off toward the street.)

"Mom! This is the lyrics I wrote by imitating yours."

"How's my writing...?"

Ch410. Because, that is my mother’s music!

"Writing lyrics? Yes..."

Write lyrics?

Surprise flashed in his eyes, and Le Nai opened his mouth: "Is it "Escape Plan"?

"right."

"..."

For a moment, Lenai was speechless and his language function malfunctioned.

The little daughter in front of me actually wanted to fill it out.

“That’s amazing…”

Half-kneeling, she leaned over to Chitose's side, and while wrapping her arms around Chitose, Lena gently picked up the draft paper.

My daughter is so petite that I always feel like I might accidentally crush her if I use too much force.

"What time did you get up this morning? Did you get enough sleep? Go back and rest for a while."

"No, no, Mom, please look at the lyrics! See how it looks like."

"okay."

She rubbed her cheek against Chitose's little face, and Lenai felt comfortable with her daughter's tenderness.

This is my daughter.

"I copied the previous format! Even though I don't know a lot of vocabulary, I managed to write it."

Chitose broke free from Kaname's embrace without any effort.

She stood up and hugged Lenai's arm, whispering coquettishly:

"Is Xiaosui really that great? Why doesn't mom praise Xiaosui?"

“…Great word.”

Great, really great.

Gently letting Chitose fool around beside her, Lena blinked and memorized the words written by Chitose in crooked handwriting.

"Very impressive, year-old."

This is not an evaluation based on other factors. If we were to discuss professionalism, we could bring up a lot of things.

This is just an interaction between family members...don't worry about the professionalism, Lenai really likes these lyrics.

"tasty."

Chewing on the words, the emotions contained in them leap into my heart, and my thoughts extend back to bring the memories of the past to the present.

Lenai hugged her daughter, still a little sleepy, and the empty emotion in her heart was filled with the warmth of the little girl.