I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

I don't know how to express my repressed emotions, but it doesn't matter anymore.

【Let the past be... past. 】

"I want to be with you, and run away to the streets with those days that will never fade..."

Kaname's chest rose and fell, and he pressed the paper against his chest.

[This is great. It’s different from the version I’ve imagined countless times, but it’s great.]

For so many years, I haven't dared to think about how to make up for the last few lines of the lyrics... but now someone has given me an answer.

The simple words did not conflict with the overall tone of the lyrics. He turned his head and kissed Qiansui hard on the head.

"Xiao Sui is great... Thank you... Thank you for giving me an answer."

Did Qiansui notice that my mood has been changeable recently?

She is so thoughtful...knowing how important this incomplete lyrics is to me, she specially completed it for me.

【but…】

Is this the answer that Chitose Noshiro didn't finish telling herself last night?

Even if it isn't, it doesn't matter, as long as you feel it is, then it can be.

Escape from reality——

Face the reality before escaping it. Only in this way can you grow.

"Mom, I want to hear the full version. It was always sung in bits and pieces before. Can I hear the whole thing today?"

"can."

Subconsciously biting Chitose's cheek with her mouth, Lenai suppressed her reluctance and left Chitose.

"I'll organize the lyrics systematically...it'll be quick, wait for me."

It only took a few seconds to get the guitar, but the time going back and forth was really unbearable. After waking up, I just wanted to stay by Chitose's side.

If I were Chitose Noshiro, how would I teach my Kaname Rakuna?

Sister Chitose said that she was terrible and a failure.

Lenai pushed open the door to the basement, and the sudden burst of sunlight made her heart skip a beat.

"So, if it were me, could I do better?"

Kaname Rakuna has now learned to accept everything. She looks at Chitose Noshiro from the same perspective as Chitose Noshiro, even though her heart is still shrouded in a faint sadness and regret.

"I am back."

After putting all the equipment in order, Lenai stared at the dark spots on the guitar.

The dark markings are the whispers that Chitose left on the guitar, and you can feel her passion every time you play the guitar.

"Then please enjoy a song that belongs to Chitose..."

"Great."

Biting her lips, Lenai sat in the rocking chair and plucked the strings without any scruples.

[In the next few minutes, let the song that the four of us wrote together be heard by the world for the first time.]

Finally, Kaname closed her eyes.

……

Now, Lenai opened her eyes.

"A huge success! That's awesome! Our band's coordination is getting better and better!"

One day, two days...

One week, two weeks...

January, February...

With music and my kitten at home as my companion, time has flown by unexpectedly quickly this year.

Winter has arrived.

The band's continued success is reassuring, as their creative industry desperately needs positive feedback.

It is precisely because of the support of positive feedback that they are able to make continuous progress and gain motivation.

"Leuna-chan! Let's go now."

"Leave me your years before you go."

"You discovered this, and I thought you were a stupid mom."

"You are the fools."

Lenai took her daughter from a group of bandmates who were trying to steal the child. At this moment, Chitose was still eating a small cup of almond tofu in her hand.

"Mom, do you want to eat?"

Chitose, who was lifted into the air, stepped forward and handed over her dessert.

"No, you eat it."

In the past two months, they often went out together during holidays.

I went to the alley to find cats to bask in the sun together. It was really nice to be surrounded by a group of kittens.

She would also visit Chitose's grave every day. The girl would ask questions and at these times, Le Nai would ask Chitose to tell her the story of the legendary figure who gave her the name "Sui" with her beautiful eyes.

Kaname Rakuna also took Chitose to the new store built on the site of the old SPACE. It was very large and had more comprehensive functions than SPACE, but unfortunately it was not it after all... just like Chitose Haizuka is not Chitose Noshiro, and Chitose Kaname is not Chitose Haizuka.

The new shop is great, not bad at all.

Along the way, short-sleeved shirts have long become the bottom of the cabinet, but if you want to talk about when you can see the happiest smile of the year-old, it must be————

At this moment.

"So cool! Mom, you played so well. Can you show me that when you get home today?"

"Which one?"

He secretly ate the small dessert in his daughter's small glass bottle in one bite, carried the somewhat heavy girl on his shoulders, and asked Lenai to let him mess up her hair.

"It's that technique in the second half of the song that makes the whole audience applaud. I want to learn that."

"Well," Lenai picked up the guitar, "but it's very difficult. Do you really want to learn it?"

"Yes! Really!"

As they left through the back door, they said goodbye to their agent and Lenai helped Chitose put on her scarf.

"I really like music."

“Because that’s Mom’s music!”

Ch411. Budokan! Discipline from my daughter

My daughter’s love for music is growing stronger and stronger. I don’t know if it’s a good thing.

The refrigerator was quietly open, and the dim orange light made Lenai's eyes dazed.

"I still feel uneasy. Even though I take her out to play often, she still seems to like guitar the most."

Besides that, Sui also likes her.

He clings to me, hugs me, and sticks to me every day, just like an unweaned kitten.

She lacks love and is lonely. She has never experienced the company of her parents, so it takes Chitose to be so clingy and cute.

Just like——

"Just like myself."

Yao Lenai sighed and ordered beer for delivery, and once again all the alcohol in the house was cleared out by her.

Sometimes she really didn't want to drink, but if the atmosphere was right, she would feel a little guilty if she didn't have a drink. She would regret it every time she finished drinking. No, it would be more accurate to say that regret would surge into her heart as soon as the beer entered her throat.

"Huh, that kid."

Lenai went to the kitchen to find some canned food to fill her stomach. Xiaosui finished playing the guitar with her and then fell asleep on the sofa wrapped in a blanket, feeling sleepy.

"It's so cruel. I just went to sleep after using it instead of spending time with my old mother."

After struggling to open the can of tomato soup, Lenai had no desire to drink it at all.

She leaned back in her chair:

"You're just as irresponsible as I was when I was little. I didn't spend much time with Chitose-nee back then."

Now that she has accepted the reality of everything, Lenai is no longer restrained and instead begins to boldly recall the past.

But unfortunately, many things that we once vowed to remember for the rest of our lives have long been forgotten.

It’s really... such a pity.

"But I can still barely catch a glimpse of my childhood. I guess... rather than saying I'm taking care of Xiao Sui, it's more like making up for my past self."

Myself back then - I had been separated from my parents since I was five or six years old. My grandmother was often busy with her career and neglected Lenai's growth, but she still accompanied her as much as possible.

In the spring when she graduated from kindergarten and entered elementary school, it was Sister Chitose who took her home.

"Gulp—it's quite tasty," Lenai sipped the soup in small sips. She couldn't remember whether Chitose and Osui also liked to switch to canned soup. "Chitose..."

Sister Qiansui transformed her from an ignorant little animal into a human being, allowing a child who lacked love to at least taste the sweetness of love.

Love, friendship, companionship and mutual dependence, at least Chitose left these behind for Lenai to savor.

"Not bad, isn't it?"

A long sigh let Lenai know that he still had a lot of resentment hidden in his heart.

But forget it… forget it.

It will come out naturally when you get drunk.

I had already lost consciousness at that time, so I don't need to worry about what weird things I said.

This is one of the wonderful things about being drunk.

The cell phone rang at an inopportune time, and Lenai, fearing that the child would be woken up, was forced to leave the kitchen.

After walking into the basement and carefully confirming that the door was closed, Yao Lenai felt confident and bold enough to answer the phone.

It's my agent, Ms. Ijichi, calling.

I really don't know why this older single woman is not going on a blind date now but calling her, a working man on his day off:

"How."

"Budokhan!"

ha?

Kaname raised an eyebrow.

"It's the Budokan! Lena! They invited us to a special performance during next year's cherry blossom season!"

"That's good."

I tried to remain calm so as not to scream. Although the admission requirements of the Budokan have declined in recent years, it still remains the most dazzling and glorious performance venue in the country.

Being able to enter the Budokan is undoubtedly a recognition and honor.

"Is this actually... true?"

Walking back and forth in the basement, Lenai's mouth was full of the taste of tomatoes.

In the past few months, they have been performing non-stop without a break... Seeing that they have strong professional abilities, the company gave them tickets to many performances.

They did not disappoint the company. The band's fame quickly grew, and the number of fans increased several levels every day compared to the previous day.

Logically speaking, Lenai already knew that she was qualified enough to step onto a bigger stage.

But when the news really reached my ears, the excitement could not be dissipated.

After taking a few minutes to calm down, I went upstairs to wait for the drinks to be delivered to my door.

I pushed the door open and closed it, but when I turned around I bumped into a small, soft object.