There is something wrong with my infinite flow teammates!

I don’t know how long it was before Yukinoshita Yukino opened her eyes again. Was she sure she had opened her eyes?

In terms of sensory delivery, yes.

Because in a pitch-black environment, there is almost no difference between opening your eyes and closing your eyes, it's all black, a chaotic black.

Still no one came, even if it was just a dream, please let a person come! Or let a zombie come, as long as it can move!

I feel so bored, lonely and cold.

After being panicked, anxious, frightened, collapsed, and...desperate, Yukinoshita Yukino finally calmed down.

"One, two, three, four... one hundred and twenty-seven, one hundred and twenty-eight... three hundred and one..."

She couldn't sleep, so she started counting sheep, because in this boring environment only doing such brainless and childish things could help her pass the time. However, the more she counted, the sleepier she became. Although she was very sleepy, she just couldn't fall asleep. She began to move her body carefully, trying to change her posture without touching the wound. Maybe this would be better.

Continue counting sheep, no that’s too boring, how about counting zombies? I couldn’t bear to look at such disgusting and horrifying things at first, but now I’m used to it. Yes, it’s very easy for despicable creatures like human beings to get used to anything. Species that cannot get used to it will be eliminated.

But I just can't seem to get used to the current environment.

I feel so hungry and thirsty. Will I die of starvation here? Is this my final destination? I don’t want this. I still have a lot of things to do…

"Someone come...save me..."

Yukinoshita Yukino choked up, her hoarse voice seemed a little muffled in the dark and narrow environment. No one responded to her, no one would respond to her because she was buried deep underground.

She cried. She hadn't cried like this for a long time. When was the last time she cried? It seemed to be when she was in elementary school, but it seemed that no one came to comfort her. At that time, she was like a wounded young animal, hiding in a dark corner to lick her wounds, just like now.

Am I really that fragile? I thought I had become very strong.

Crying is just an illusion of the weak making a humble plea for mercy. They try to vent their inner distress in this boring way, comforting their wounded hearts by deceiving themselves and others in trying to get help. They try to get help from others like a homeless person. Do they still have hope?

So, don’t cry, Yukinoshita Yukino, wipe your tears and stop pretending to cry. No one can see it.

She began to be in a daze, for a long time...

After a long time, she was suddenly startled. A slight tingling sensation came from her fingers. Along with the wet touch, a small cut was made on her fingertips. But in the daze, she was overwhelmed by great joy because she touched something.

Under the rubble, Yukinoshita Yukino touched the flashlight that was lost in the chaos. Its glass had been smashed, which was why her finger was accidentally cut. It turned out that it had always been with her!

When the switch was turned on, the dazzling beam of light made Yukinoshita close her eyes tightly, but she smiled. She smiled happily and slowly opened her eyes. The environment at this moment was also taken in. It was great that she was not blind. She could see it. Although a large area of ​​the basement had collapsed, at least she could see it.

The basement was full of cement rubble. The impact of the explosion crushed the place, and all that came into view were broken bricks and suffocating chaos.

I am lucky because only my side did not collapse, leaving only this tiny bit of space. It seems like God's deliberate arrangement, as if fate saved me. I am so lucky that only one leg is broken.

With this I can save myself, Yukinoshita Yukino pointed the flashlight at her legs... It doesn't seem to work. The swelling is visible through her pants. The slightest movement will cause her pain. I'd better wait. At least I'm happy now because I can see it.

A large piece of concrete floor above my head collapsed, dividing the originally narrow basement into two. I could see it, but being in this environment I felt a vague sense of oppression. Through the gaps in the rubble, the mummy on the wooden horse was not affected. She was still tied there with her head drooping.

Yukinoshita Yukino looked at the mummy quietly, her heart slowly, slowly filled with fear. Maybe she would become like her? Starve to death here, and then become a mummy.

She began to feel fear, anxiety, and panic again, and then became indifferent.

"Hey, let's chat for a while. I know you can hear me. If you don't answer, I'll take it as your consent..."

Yukinoshita Yukino began to talk to herself, doing childish things to a mummy that she thought she would never do in her life. She began to introduce herself to her, telling her past, her dark history, and all her secrets...

"I like Mr. Pan. He is a panda doll. He doesn't look cute, but I just like him. I think he is cute because he is the first and last gift my mother gave me..."

"That's a doll that only children like. I really like it, but now I can only like it secretly because my sister will tease me when she sees it, saying that Yukino likes children's toys and that Yukino-chan is so cute. My mother will scold me and call me childish, but she won't look at me with disappointment. Why won't she be disappointed in me? I really want to see her disappointed eyes..."

Yukinoshita Yukino spoke softly, talking about all sorts of things, her expression sometimes sweet, sometimes lost, sometimes sad. She was like talking about her troubles and sorrows to an old friend with whom she could confide. She had never thought of saying these out loud because she had no one to talk to.

The mummy was still sitting there quietly. She didn't seem scary anymore. She even made Yukino feel close to her, like a good friend.

"My mother never gave me any presents again. Later, whenever I wanted something, she would give me money. Lots of pocket money, so much that I couldn't spend it all. I didn't know how to spend it all, or what to buy. So I bought a lot of Mr. Pans, but the Mr. Pans I bought didn't seem cute, but I still wanted to buy them. I hid Mr. Pans in my locker, and no one knew about it except me. But I haven't opened that locker for a long time."

As she spoke, Yukinoshita smiled bitterly. She didn't know why she was laughing. Perhaps she was really ridiculous.

Then she continued to tell her story, all the secrets that belonged only to her. In the middle of the story, she heard a slight noise and was stunned, because there was no one here except herself who could make any noise. Her heart was in her throat. Would anyone come to save her?

Her nerves were filled with great joy. She began to shout loudly again and looked around. The flashlight was spinning rapidly. Then a great sense of loss filled her heart again. It turned out to be a mouse.

In daily life, Yukinoshita Yukino is not like other girls who would scream in fear when seeing a mouse, nor would she run around in panic. Mice are just animals and they will not hurt people, so they should be the ones to be afraid of.

Although I'm not afraid of them, I definitely don't like them either. They don't look very pleasing to the eye. But I really envy this little mouse.

Then the beam of light in Yukinoshita Yukino's hand began to move as the mouse moved, and she suddenly shouted loudly, trying to scare the mouse away.

Because it climbed onto the wooden horse and began to eat the corpse.

This scene should be a very terrifying scene in a normal environment. This kind of plot usually only appears in horror thriller movies, but Yukinoshita Yukino did not feel scared because she was gnawing on her "friend", the only person who could chat with her.

She picked up a piece of gravel and threw it hard. The stone hit the corpse on the head, scaring away the rat, and the corpse fell to the ground.

"Oh, sorry, I didn't mean it, I just...just..."

Yukinoshita apologized in panic, I accidentally hit you, I was trying to help you.

But there was no response. Yes, it would not respond in the first place. It was dead!

Yukinoshita Yukino was stunned, tears overflowed again. It turns out that I have no friends. They are not my friends. I am destined to be understood by no one. No one will understand me. I am lonely after all. This is me.

Was it a mistake for me to come into this world? Why did I have to come into this world after my sister was born? Why do I have no friends? Not even one person to talk to...

"I know. I understand you, Yukino."

A hoarse voice sounded, and Yukinoshita slowly raised her head. The mummy slowly crawled up. There was no moisture on her face, as if it was a skull covered with a layer of gelatinous skin. The sparse and dull hair was scattered on the top of her head. Originally, they were all brilliant golden color.

Her face was ferocious, her teeth protruding from her lips, and she looked extremely strange, but in Yukinoshita's eyes, her smile was so kind and amiable.

She got up from the ground, smiled at Yukinoshita, and said gently: "I won't blame you. Although it hurts to be hit, you helped me. Yukinoshita, I am your friend. You won't be lonely anymore, because I will be your good friend."

Yukinoshita stared at the mummy not far away, and suddenly laughed, happily, "Can I? It's great to have friends."

But his head suddenly felt dizzy and the smile froze on his face. In his trance, everything changed. The mummy was still lying on the ground, and the rats that had been frightened away bravely returned to eat the corpse.

Everything is fake. She still has no friends and she doesn't need friends. Fortunately, it is just a mummy. There are some things that no one can say, not even to friends. She just stayed in an environment with closed senses for too long.

I started to hallucinate.

Chapter 3 Light ()

Yukinoshita had turned off the flashlight, and the small space returned to darkness again. She didn't want to keep it turned on because it needed to be charged, even if it meant returning to the original darkness, because it was her most precious treasure now.

She took out something from her waist. It was the EAA "Pavna Witness" pistol. This small pistol had been with her since she got it. Although she had not fired it many times, this little thing could help her solve the problem every time she encountered an emergency. It was a killing thing, a cruel weapon, an instrument for killing, the executioner's butcher knife, and her life-saving straw.

At first, she carefully disassembled it with the help of a flashlight, remembering every step carefully, and then carefully put it back together. She failed the first time, but she was not discouraged. Instead, she disassembled it again and reassembled it, and then succeeded. Yukinoshita Yukino looked at the small pistol she assembled and smiled happily.

Just like when she was a kid and got full marks on a test, she would smile and show off to her parents, with a face full of pride. This trivial thing gave her a great sense of accomplishment. Then she began to feel bored, and after becoming proficient, this kind of thing was too easy for her.

So she turned off the flashlight, started to disassemble it in the dark, and then tried to reassemble it, but failed again.

She turned on the flashlight again, recalled every step, turned off the light again, disassembled and assembled. She succeeded, she smiled again, and was filled with a sense of accomplishment and satisfaction. She is so easily satisfied.

Yukinoshita fumbled with the small pistol, gently stroking the gun body, the trigger, the muzzle... She loaded the gun, turned on the safety, and pointed the muzzle at her temple...

Then a gunshot rang out, and the sparks that ignited instantly illuminated the claustrophobic space. The deafening sound of the gunshot stimulated the eardrums...

"Bang, bang, bang..."

Yukinoshita cried as she frantically pulled the trigger, not stopping until all the bullets in the magazine were used up...

I still can't do it! How can I choose to end my life so easily? People always have hope, even if the hope in their hearts is ethereal and a ridiculous fantasy, but they still have hope! Suicide also requires great courage. Those who choose to leave this world are also a manifestation of courage, right?

It turns out they are not cowards. They only rush into the abyss without hesitation because the torture of life is greater than the fear of death.

But I couldn't do it. I didn't want to stay here any longer. I felt that this was a punishment more severe than death. But why didn't I have the courage to face death? Am I a coward?

So hungry, so thirsty, so cold...

Maybe I don't need to do it myself. I will die here soon and become true friends with that mummy. No one will know where I am, no one will come to save me, no one will know that I died here silently, no one will remember me, I am like a speck of dust, the earth will still turn after I die, no one will remember me, no one will care about me...

No?

"Sister loves Yukino the most..."

My sister's clear and pleasant voice echoed in my mind. How many years ago did she say that? I could still remember it clearly. Her happy smile was still vivid in my mind, as if it happened yesterday.

That was when I was a child. If my sister continued to say that when I grew up, I would get angry, because she always said that in a tone that was meant to make a child happy. I am no longer a child, so after I got angry a few times, my sister stopped joking like that.

My elder sister must still care about me, elder sister... How long has it been since I seriously called her elder sister? If I could see her again, I would never lose my temper again. Even if she teased me or made excessive jokes, I would not be angry.

If I could still see you...

I will still die. Although I can't do it myself, I will starve to death. It's really painful. So I'll just sleep for a while.

Maybe I'll be saved this time when I wake up.

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"In 1954, psychologists paid volunteers generously to conduct an experiment."

Yukinoshita Yukino turned on the flashlight again, dragged her broken leg and slowly crawled towards the corner where the food was stored. Although it was buried by rocks, it was not difficult to dig it out. It might just take some time, as she had plenty of free time.

"In a soundproof laboratory, the subjects were dressed in special clothing, gloves and eye masks, and then a monotonous 'buzzing' sound was used to block all hearing. After cutting off all the subjects' senses, they were asked to lie on the bed."

When I was lying on the ground, I had to be very careful every time I moved my body. If my legs were affected, I would suffer from severe pain. In fact, I was very afraid of pain, but I just didn't say it. When I was a child, every time I had a physical examination at school, I watched the nurse in the health room insert the needle into the arm of the classmate in the front row. I would secretly swallow my saliva and try my best to hold back my trembling body so as not to let others know that I was actually a coward.

"At the beginning, the subject was excited and confident in himself. He began to prepare to kill time. He began to sleep or think about many things. Then he began to feel bored. He started to shout and try to resist and want to terminate the experiment, but the staff ignored him. He became anxious and started to cry hysterically... Later, he began to accept the facts and calm down. Then he began to like to daydream, his concentration became distracted, his thinking was disturbed, and he began to talk nonsense to himself. His intelligence began to decline sharply, and he even had hallucinations."

Ah, I pushed another stone away. Did I really have that much strength? I already saw the biscuits. I’ll keep working hard because I’m so hungry. I don’t want to die, nor do I want to be starved to death. Human observations are right. People can never choose to starve to death. Hunger is the biggest challenge for humans. No one can overcome hunger.

"As the experiment progressed, this unhealthy mental state began to affect his body. He began to suffer from endocrine disorders. When the experiment reached its final stage, the experimenters had to terminate it because if it continued, he would completely become a madman or his life would be threatened... This is the famous sensory deprivation experiment. In the experiment, the volunteers were deprived of all their senses and began to experience abnormal psychological changes. If humans leave the society they depend on for survival, can they maintain a normal mentality?"

"But I think the subjects started going crazy because they were starved..."

With trembling hands, Yukinoshita tore open the biscuit package and ate in big mouthfuls. Her cheeks were puffy like a cute little hamster. She choked for a moment, then took a big gulp of bottled water. After trying hard to swallow the food in her mouth, she showed a satisfied expression.

Just like what she had just said to herself, her series of abnormal behaviors were just the conclusions drawn from that famous experiment. She was the subject, or should she be thankful that she hadn't gone crazy yet? While digging for the buried food, Yukinoshita Yukino kept muttering to herself, but in her heart she was seriously thinking about irrelevant things.

But it felt so good to be able to eat. I had never experienced the feeling of being hungry. It turned out that hunger was such a painful thing. But it was so good that I didn’t have to go hungry anymore.

Yukinoshita shed tears again, but it was so sad. I couldn't seem to starve myself to death.

If I'm not starving to death, then there's still hope, right? There must be hope. Look, I've been here for so long, and I haven't suffocated to death. That's because there are actually vents or gaps here for air to flow through. But I can't make any more effort. I just have to wait. Wait.

The food here is enough for me to consume for several days. At least there are still a few days to wait. Is this the comfort given to me by God? Kitahara said that there will be no unsolvable problems here. There will always be a way, because the real purpose of the "Lord God" is not to simply want to play with us. He is just testing us. We have to withstand the test before He will be satisfied.

Eat, eat your fill, and then wait. Although you don’t know what you are waiting for, something will always appear.

Yukinoshita was filled with hope again. She was full and felt satisfied. So this was the feeling of happiness. Happiness was when you were hungry and had something to eat. It was so simple.

Feeling sleepy, Yukinoshita slowly closed her eyes, fell asleep with a smile on her lips.

……

When she woke up again, the bright sunlight shone through the window and onto her cheeks. The slightly dazzling burning sensation made Yukinoshita Yukino subconsciously open her eyes, but then she couldn't help but squint them again.

After adjusting, he slowly opened his eyes. What he saw was pure white, dazzling white, white walls, white sheets, and a nurse in a white coat smiling warmly at him. He heard noisy sounds and the shouts of soldiers outside the window. He had arrived at the military base in Grizzly City.

He was rescued, his eyes turned, an IV was in his hand, his leg was tied with a plaster and hanging in the air, Kitahara Sora was guarding him by the bed, he had fallen asleep on the edge of the bed.

He saved me, right? It must be him, because only he would be so foolish as to go all out to repay others for a small favor. I just fed him once, holding back my shyness. It was not worth it. Even if he knew that I saved him once, he had already repaid me for what Ishikawa did that time. We no longer owed each other anything. What's more, he didn't know it yet. What a fool.

Is it worth it? I'm really sorry for guessing that you were in trouble, because you never came to save me. You're the only one I can rely on in this world. I know it's selfish, but I can't help it. I want to live. Can I be your friend? I don't hate you anymore. If you have any problems in the future, just tell me, Kitahara-san.

Yukinoshita Yukino slowly revealed a warm smile, her eyes filled with tears, those were tears of emotion. She reached out and gently stroked his hair. The originally refreshing hair had a hint of greasiness. It was not because he was sloppy, but because he had no conditions to wash it.

Eh?

No conditions for cleaning?

Yukinoshita Yukino looked down in panic and found that her dirty and dusty clothes had been changed and she was now wearing a clean striped hospital gown.

Suddenly, her cheeks turned red. It's not you, it's the nurse, it must be the nurse, right? Kitahara-san, you are not a pervert, right...

Seeing Yukinoshita's momentary panic and helplessness, her face flushed and she began to sulk, the nurse chuckled, covered her mouth and left the ward. The noise also startled Kitahara Sora who was lying on the bed. He slowly raised his head, opened his eyes sleepily, and when his eyes focused, he showed a look of relief.

He must have been by my side all along, idiot, how can I be angry with you? After all, you saved me again.

"woke up?"

The tone was still indifferent, the voice was still emotionless, and the male voice was still full of magnetism, but from the simple greeting, Yukinoshita Yukino could hear the sincere concern.

"Ah."

She answered softly, turning her face to the side, her ears still slightly flushed: "Kitahara-san, how did you find me?"

"There was an explosion at that time, and we were surrounded by zombies and began to evacuate. In fact, I was injured and passed out. When I woke up, I found that you were not there, so I came back to look for you."

"It must be a dangerous situation, right?"

Yukinoshita lowered her head and spoke softly. Although it was a question, her tone was gentle and full of gratitude.

"Don't worry about whether it's dangerous or not, as long as you're alive, it's good. They all said you were dead, but I still want to confirm it. It would be good to find a body."