There is something wrong with my infinite flow teammates!

You asked me to call you by your name, but you are too embarrassed to call me by my name? Yin Yun smiled helplessly in his heart and could only continue to say, "Where were you talking about?"

"Speaking of which you have no shame."

"..."

Well, she did it on purpose, so I just thought she was shy, so I didn't bother with her. Yin Yun shook his head and continued, "My mother beat me at that time... Forget it, I won't talk about that part."

Seeing him shaking his head helplessly, Xue Noi behind him secretly raised the corners of her mouth and showed a triumphant smile at an angle that Yin Yun couldn't see. She seldom lost in bickering, but when she met such a weirdo like him, Xue Noi, who had finally turned the game around, felt inexplicably much better.

However, the following story made Yukino feel depressed again, because life had slowly become depressing, just like her name, the sky without sunshine was filled with dark clouds.

"When I was a kid, I had poor grades, so I was often beaten. Until one day, my father said something to me. It was a passage written by a great writer to her son. So, I became busy from junior high school onwards, my time became crowded, and playing was far away from me. This was a good start, but life always has twists and turns, and perhaps even the script dare not write it this way."

"My grades gradually improved and rose steadily. Even my innocent affection for the opposite sex during adolescence began to be suppressed by me, because my father asked me, what do you want to do in the future? I said, I want to be happy forever, I want to play all the time, so he said to me..."

"Son, I ask you to study hard, not because I want you to compete with others in academic performance, but because I hope you will have the right to choose in the future. Choose a meaningful job that takes time, rather than being forced to make a living. When your work is meaningful to you, you will have a sense of accomplishment. When your work gives you time and does not deprive you of your life, you will have dignity. A sense of accomplishment and dignity will bring you happiness."

Because my father has no dignity. His job doesn't give him time. He can only serve the factory like a machine. He has to bow his head for a living. For the sake of our family, he has been facing machines and oil for half his life. All he does is work and sleep because he has no right to choose.

"I understand the meaning of this sentence. I want to be happy forever and have enough time to have fun, so I study hard. I started to climb in junior high school and survived the purgatory of high school. Even when my classmates and roommates started dating in college and began to vent the repressed life in the first half of my life, I still studied hard with self-discipline, because I knew that when I graduated, I would have enough time, I would find a good job, enjoy my life, and help my family."

"My father also quit the factory where he had worked for decades and started his own business. He was a boss for the first time but he did not fail miserably. His business gradually grew and my family became more and more wealthy. So my parents started to urge me to find a girlfriend, because even if I went to college, I would study, play games and watch anime. Everything was going in the right direction and everything seemed good."

Several more zombies discovered the prey in front of them. They staggered over and surrounded them. Yin Yun held Xue Nai with one hand and waved the bayonet in the other, letting them rest in the snow.

"I decided to find a girl to date seriously after I started working. I could choose to help my father in business or work for a good company, but all the good things ended on my graduation day."

Xue Nai tightened her arms. She felt Yin Yun's tone become sad, angry, helpless, and painful... It was the kind of helpless grief and the deep feeling of powerlessness.

"There are some things that I have been kept in the dark about. My father told me to study hard, and I did, but he also hoped that I could have a better life. I gave up his easy job to start a business, and I thought everything would be smooth sailing, but they didn't tell me anything. Because my family's financial situation improved significantly during my high school years, I always received the most living expenses from my father in our dormitory when I was in college, which led to my roommates thinking that I was a second-generation rich. In fact, I also gradually thought so. Maybe my family really became rich."

"But my family's situation was actually very serious during my senior year, but they didn't want me to be distracted. I was their pride, so they didn't tell me anything..."

My father is an honest man. To be honest, he is not suitable for starting a business, nor for the intrigues and schemes in the business world. But he did it, just to reduce his own pressure in the future and have more choices. But when the company started to lose money, he did not tell his son, just let him study and keep the family safe. He began to borrow money everywhere, hoping that the situation would improve and that his family could get through the difficulties.

He did not tell his son about the company's bankruptcy. The question he asked most often during the phone calls was "Is the living expenses enough? I will transfer some more to you."

"In fact, I have always wondered why my father suddenly asked me to change my phone number one day. He was very excited on the phone that day. I have never seen him so excited before. In my impression, he always looks slow and slow. Sometimes I feel anxious and sulky when talking to him, but he seemed to be a different person that day. I asked him why, but he refused to say, but I still did it."

There is a deformed company in the world, and in the deformed company there is a deformed profession. This profession exists all over the world. Compared with other countries, China is relatively restrained. They are debt collectors, the so-called "debt collectors."

Unscrupulous companies will buy a large amount of private information at a low price and use a wide-ranging approach to make cold calls. When they meet the 'right' person, they will use various reasons to lure young boys and girls who have not experienced the harsh realities of society, or people in need, into online lending. However, few people can pay off their debts if the interest rate exceeds the national regulations.

Then it is the debt collectors' turn. They sit in front of computers, calling the numbers of overdue borrowers one by one. They have all the borrowers' personal information and contact records. They shout sunny slogans, conduct positive corporate culture training, and the walls of their offices are covered with various inspirational slogans. They work hard to complete their monthly tasks.

But these people, who earn a basic salary of just over a thousand yuan and cannot afford a cigarette that costs more than ten yuan, and who hesitate for a long time before ordering a takeout, stand on the moral high ground and engage in violence, threats, deception, intimidation, verbal abuse, insults, and other activities that go beyond the bottom line of human morality. They go to great lengths to hurt strangers on the other end of the phone just for their own meager commissions.

"My father asked me to change my phone number because he had been subjected to violent debt collection, first by my mother, my uncles, then by his friends, his teacher who was nearly 80 years old... They took turns insulting them, insulting my father's close friends, and except for me who was completely unaware, everyone in my father's address book was destroyed by them because I changed my number."

"My father actually planned to sell the company when it ran into trouble, but was persuaded by his friend for my sake. He also decided to borrow money after being persuaded by the so-called 'friend'. The bank would not lend you money if the company was losing money, so my father could only find a loan company through its introduction. Because it has been a friend of my father for decades, it has watched me grow up since I was a child. Every time it comes to my house for dinner, I will affectionately call it uncle because its son works in that financial company..."

Yin Yun's voice was low, as if he was suppressing endless anger and violence. The deep hatred seemed to want to tear everything apart. He stopped talking and fell silent.

Yukino lowered her eyebrows. Maybe her relationship with her father was not that good. She might not have experienced such unforgettable emotions, but she could understand that the cruelest thing was not getting nothing, but having all the good things you had torn apart right before your eyes.

"From the moment he started borrowing money, our family was doomed."

Yin Yun was silent for a minute before continuing, "My grandparents cried and 'taught' him a lesson, asking him what he had done and why a 'lawyer's letter' was sent to his hometown. His friends understood him and tried to persuade him at first, but dozens or even hundreds of calls and countless insults every day changed their attitudes because they were innocent. His teacher was scolded by them and sent to the hospital. Those people asked him why he taught such a student... He was just my father's elementary school teacher, but every Spring Festival my father would visit with gifts. The teacher didn't blame my father, he was a good teacher, he was sent to the hospital because he was sad for my father... My father died, but he still tried to live for me."

He tried hard to live and hid everything from his son because his son was proud and didn't want to be distracted. He and his wife started quarreling every day. They had already sold the old house. The mother suggested selling the new house to pay off the debt, but the father slapped her. The father had never hit the mother before, but he did that time. He said, don't even think about it. The new house is for my son to get married. Even if I die, I will never let you think about taking the house!

"So, he really died. Isn't that ridiculous?"

Kitahara Sora had no expression on his face, but a sneer came out of his mouth. Yukino could not hear the sarcasm, but only felt deep sorrow. He said: "After experiencing extremely cruel mental torture, my father became mentally ill. I remember his back was very majestic when I was a child, like a mountain, which made me feel very safe. Although we communicated less as we grew up, it was like a wall between us, but as long as we encountered wind and rain, the wall would become a harbor you could rely on, but the wall has begun to become mottled."

"He was a very strong man. It was difficult and easy to break him because they destroyed the rest of his life. It took only a few months for my father to go from a hero to a clown. He began to lose concentration and his mental state became very bad. This situation lasted until the day I graduated. When he was driving from Shonan to the province where I was attending university, he had a car accident on the highway and died."

"He crashed into the guardrail at a speed of 140 miles per hour, ran off the highway and fell off the cliff... The cause of death was fatigue driving."

"hehe."

Xue Nai heard laughter from Yin Yun's mouth, but this laughter was not normal. It was a very scary and indescribable laughter.

He said: "Yes, driving while fatigued. Because my father hasn't had a good night's sleep since then."

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(PS: Two chapters in a row, 9300 words, thank you everyone.)

(PS: Thanks to 'FFF Group Leader' for his 10 thorns. Thanks to 'Original Sun' for the dog food.)

Chapter 2 Yin Yun ()

"On the day of my father's funeral, they called again. They said that even though the person was dead, the money still had to be repaid. I don't know where they got my new number from. They said a lot of things, but I forgot them all because they kept insulting me. Their main job at work was to quarrel with strangers, but I still remember their last words. It was a woman's voice. She was not very old, and her tone was very harsh. She probably hadn't read much. - She said, your father is dead, either you help your father pay the money back, or let your mother pay it back. Isn't your mother still alive?"

Yukino's palms were clenched into fists, her eyes turned cold, and she couldn't help but clench her teeth. She felt very angry. She felt that she had never experienced such anger before. Even when she was bullied, she felt pain and grievance at most, but she had never hated someone so much. Even when Junichiro Inoue did such a hateful thing to her, she did not feel such a strong hatred.

How can a person be so malicious? What kind of person can say such things on the day of someone's funeral? Is it just for a tiny bonus?

"How do you... respond to her?"

"I begged her for mercy." Yin Yun shook his head in self-mockery and said, "Surprising, right? I'm actually a coward."

Xue Nai rubbed her cheek gently against his back. She could feel Yin Yun's mood at that time, an emotion of incomparable anger but helplessness and grief that had to be suppressed by force. Because she could guess that Yin Yun was afraid. He was afraid that she would continue to call his crying mother. He was afraid that the other party would say the same thing to his mother. He was afraid that the other party would continue to call the guests at the funeral, because his father's friends had all experienced their devastation. So he could only beg for mercy and ask the other party to let them go on this special day.

She said softly: "You are not a coward, you are very brave, at least much braver than me."

Yin Yun's eyes were red, because Xue Nai understood him, she was so smart, so considerate. His voice became hoarse, and he continued as if he was holding back something: "I begged her not to call again today. I will help my father pay back the money, because I can find a good job after I graduate, and I will definitely be able to pay it back..."

"I am just an ordinary person, and I come from an ordinary family. My father died almost for me, so he deserved it. He shouldn't have touched those things, but he didn't understand. He only went to elementary school, but he dared to take out all his savings to learn how to do business. He deserved it. He chose to gamble for me. What could I do? I didn't know! I didn't know anything! At that time, I only knew to bury my head in study. I was like a bookworm..."

"I was unwilling but I had no choice but to compromise because my mother couldn't stand the torture...So after my father's funeral I started looking for a job. I found a good job. I worked hard and never complained. I had a salary of more than 10,000 yuan a month and paid them 8,000 yuan a month. My mother also started working again. She started doing her old job as an accountant. She was too old and was rejected by countless companies just for interviews. We were still living so hard. I had to work hard because I had already lost my father and I couldn't lose my mother again."

"I hid my pain and worked hard every day. I was sunny, cheerful and humorous to my colleagues and superiors in the company because I didn't want them to see my bad side. I was afraid that I would affect the company's spirit. I didn't dare to cry, show any negative emotions, vent, or yell... I was afraid that they would abandon me. My efforts were rewarded. I gradually gained recognition from my colleagues and appreciation from my superiors. I started to get salary increases and appreciation. Everything seemed to be developing in a good direction again. This 'good' life lasted for two years."

Yukino suddenly remembered an extremely sad sentence. She forgot where she had heard it. Having never experienced work pressure, she didn't understand the meaning of this sentence at first, but now she seems to understand it a little.

Because the collapse of modern people is a very quiet collapse. They look very normal, they will laugh, play, socialize... On the surface, they are very calm, but in fact, their mood has been very bad, but they will not curse, smash things, or cry. Even if there is a moment when they reach the limit of what they can bear, they just don't say anything, they won't really collapse, they just don't want to live, but they don't dare to die...

Therefore, he has been on the brink of collapse since the day his father died, but he has to try to live, live a humbly life.

"My mother had experienced countless failed interviews and finally found a job in the suburbs 30 kilometers away from home. She had to get up at 5 o'clock every day to catch the earliest bus and could not go home until after 10 o'clock every night. She was in her 50s, but she had no complaints. After a while, she smiled again and became more kind. I know that she was deliberately suppressing her emotions just like me."

"We paid back the money every month, and we lived a tight life. They never called us again. Yes, hard work will be rewarded. I knew a lot when I was in school. In fact, I no longer played around. When I was in college, I thought that I could do something for my family after graduation. Maybe I could help my father with his business and make our family better. But God didn't give me the chance, because when I was able to do something for my family, our incomplete family was completely broken."

Yukino's heart tightened, she guessed it, because only after experiencing the worst case scenario would he become like this. From the first time she saw him, although she felt that she hated him, he seemed very strange, just like his name, 'Sora', his heart was empty, as if he had no soul, it seemed that there was nothing in his heart, and he could not hold anything, living like a puppet.

"I was still working overtime that day. Because my mother came home later than me, I was the one who cooked dinner at home. Suddenly one day she called me and told me that the company had a temporary holiday and I didn't have to work in the afternoon. She would make me a delicious meal tonight."

Yin Yun's tone became gentle and beautiful. He was recalling something very precious, because he hadn't tasted his mother's cooking for a long time.

"I was very happy that day. My mother had hardly cooked since my father passed away because she had no time, so I was the one who cooked. But I could eat her cooking again, so I was very happy and looking forward to it. But the moment I opened the door..."

I found her sleeping on the sofa, with a smile on her face, as if she had dreamed of something good, so peaceful, so quiet. There was a pressure cooker on the stove in the kitchen, with a pot full of ribs, but the fire was not burning, and the whole room was filled with the pungent smell of gas. She didn't open the window because she forgot. Since her father left, she has become a little forgetful, although it's just some small things.

She forgot that they had sold the house, and the old-fashioned gas stove in the rental house had poor contact and needed to be ignited several times. She didn't notice that she had not successfully ignited the gas. She felt tired and wanted to sleep for a while, so... she would lie on the sofa and take a nap, wait for her son to come home, and set the alarm for half an hour so that the ribs would not be stewed.

So the alarm kept ringing intermittently for several hours, and she was never woken up again.

"She didn't commit suicide. She was strong. They didn't kill my father or my mother, but they killed our whole family."

Xueno's face was already in tears, she finally understood why he didn't want to return to his own world, she finally understood what Yin Yun meant by "it's meaningless to continue living", she also finally understood the meaning of "the tree wants to be still but the wind does not stop, the son wants to support his parents but they are no longer there".

Do you know why he didn't find a girl to have a passionate love affair like the male protagonist in the anime after he was reborn? Because there is no point in doing so, and because he doesn't want to vent. He is principled, he will not impose his own selfish interests on the suffering of others, and he will not deceive others because of desire.

Because no matter which world he is in, he no longer has any reason to continue holding on. The chance to be reborn given to him by God is not a reward, but a punishment.

So his pursuit of death was not a cowardly act. He or his family had never chosen to escape. No matter how difficult it was, they gritted their teeth and crawled hard on the muddy and bumpy road, even if they were covered in scars.

But why did they do this to him? He was not some unforgivable sinner, he was just an ordinary person. What was his expression at that time? Xueno didn't dare to imagine, because it must be the most miserable scene in the world.

A great Chinese writer once said, "The so-called tragedy is to destroy beautiful things, tear them into pieces, and then show them to people."

"Later, my grandparents passed away, and I held six funerals in a row in just a few years... Yes, I was so happy, but everything I had was destroyed by my father's love for me, by the 'professionalism' of those strangers, and by my cheap 'uncle' who was selfish for his son. In fact, my father had already made enough money. Even if his career started to fail, he made enough money in a few years that he could not spend in several lifetimes. He induced my father to continue, induced my father to take out loans, and took advantage of human greed to push me up, pushed my father off the cliff, and pushed our family into the abyss."

Yin Yun suddenly paused, and said in an extremely calm tone: "So, I killed them all."

"I worked harder, I laughed happier every day, I stopped working so hard, I started playing games and watching anime again, I wanted to numb myself, I started learning archery because it was originally a killing skill, I stopped paying back the loan, my life became easier, I could spend my high salary lavishly, I wanted to enjoy life. They started calling again, I spent a lot of energy to find the collection company, I spent a lot of money to collect the information of the three collection officers in charge of my father, and then I was shocked to find that my 'uncle's' son worked in the same building as them... So, we killed them all!"

"My father is an honest man. He didn't leave any recordings or collect evidence. I didn't want to collect evidence because my father's death had nothing to do with them. But they killed my father. I don't want to sue them because even if I win the case, it's not a capital crime for insulting someone to death. Besides, my father didn't commit suicide. I believe they will get what they deserve. I believe justice will come, but it seems to be too late. I've been preparing for three years and I did it myself."

“Justice delayed is justice denied.”

Yukino spoke softly, and a sentence of fluent English came out of her mouth: "It is a legal proverb in the UK."

"Yeah, justice delayed is justice denied, so I have to take matters into my own hands, because I have nothing to lose..."

"Do you hate her?" Yukino asked this question with deep sadness and hesitation for a long time.

"No, I love her very much."

Yin Yun knew what Xue Nai was asking. He was a rational person, so he answered decisively: "No country in the world has 100% perfect laws, only laws that are constantly being improved. Every country will have scumbags who will find ways to exploit loopholes in the law to achieve their own selfish interests. I am proud that I was born in that country because it gave me a good life, even if it was only half a lifetime. It saved me from hunger and war, allowed me to enjoy a happy childhood, let me play many interesting games, and let me sigh that it is great to live in a 'flower-growing country' when I see the tragic situation of war in foreign countries in the 21st century. It allows me to feel the love of my parents, so I love her, but I have brought shame to her."

"I hate those selfish and greedy people, those scum who are not worthy of being human. They have lost their qualifications as living beings, so I send them on their way."

"Really?" Xue No smiled, but her voice was a little choked up. "Actually, when you told me you were a death row inmate at first, I didn't want to believe it. Then you lied to me again and said you were lying to me. I actually felt relieved, but now I think I thought too simply... Have you ever... thought about escaping?"

Because Yukino has guessed his thoughts and actions, he is actually a person with an overflowing sense of justice and responsibility. You can also say that he is stupid, but a cute stupidity. Because he just said that he loves his country, he will definitely turn himself in. The laws of any country will not allow the occurrence of lynching. No matter what the reason is, it is an act of challenging the authority of the law, so he will definitely turn himself in.

He said: "I have never thought about running away, nor have I ever thought about committing suicide. I just did it. If I ran away, it would be a provocation to the law and an insult to the country I love. The law is majestic, so I didn't run away. I know what I did, but when the words right and justice are opposites, I can't choose."

It hits the heart. Yes, when right and justice stand on opposite sides, how should we choose?

He killed all the people who indirectly killed his father and destroyed his family. It was the right thing for him, but it was definitely not a just thing from a legal perspective, so he felt that he still did something wrong, but he had to do it. He did not escape, nor did he choose to die. He gladly accepted the trial.

But from his words, we can hear that he loves his country so deeply. Being judged by the country he loves so much is more cruel than death. He even thinks that suicide is a blasphemy against the country, so he chose the consequence of justice.

What kind of determination is that? Although fate is so unfair to him, just like the old Chinese saying, "Knowing there are tigers in the mountain, you still go to the mountain", the courage is to face a heavier judgment than death, because he has an extremely strong self-esteem, and perhaps being judged as an "evil man" is more unbearable and painful for him than death.

Why didn't I know this all along? You are such a person. Why do you carry such a heavy past behind your calm face? I said you are a coward, but you have never escaped, it was the same in the past and it is the same now.

It turns out that you are also a lonely person. Lonely people always live the most affectionately. How did you get through these years alone?

So, that's why you lost your smile.

You are a strong person, so strong that it makes people feel... distressed.

Suddenly I feel you are so strange. Why aren't you that heartless kid? No wonder you seem so calm when you kill people. It turns out you have done it before.

You hate killing people, right? Because I saw you vomit so badly, but if someone hurts something you cherish, you will raise the butcher knife without hesitation!

Am I? Is it just that I fed you once? Why do I suddenly feel so lucky...

Yukino reached out and gently wiped away her own tears, then gently placed her hand on his cheek. He was no longer crying, perhaps his tears had dried up.

Yukino whispered in his ear: "You did nothing wrong, and the country you love did nothing wrong either. You are both right."

She said: "Revenge for love would actually be considered a very romantic thing in medieval Europe."

She said: "You did nothing wrong, you were just born in the wrong era..."

She whispered softly in Chinese: "Yun..."

Chapter 51: Dependence

The wind and snow intensified. Kitahara Sora carried Yukino on her back and walked forward in the snow with difficulty. The cloak and windbreaker she was wearing was found in a residential building. Only half of her face was exposed under the tightly wrapped hood. A thin layer of white frost had already covered her face in the cold wind mixed with snowflakes. Her injured leg was simply fixed with a wooden board and ropes.

It's already the third day, and the journey is still so long. At this speed, it is conservatively estimated that it will take about four days to reach the destination. Although the journey is difficult and the weather is dangerous, Yukino is not afraid at all. She doesn't think about what difficulties she will encounter, because being with him makes her feel at ease. She doesn't have to worry about anything, because he will handle it. He will help her solve everything.

Although this thought is very selfish, this is a situation of force majeure. I was injured and he saved me again. It was all his own fault. I no longer want to thank him, and I didn't even say thank you again, because a pale thanks could not repay him for everything he had done for me. He also didn't need my thanks, because there was still a long time to come, and I would always be able to help him.

"Are we still going to the military base?"

Yukino whispered in Kitahara Sora's ear, "Why don't we find a new place to spend the remaining two months? Isn't it better than staying in that place?"

"Your leg needs treatment. There may not be the necessary medical equipment at the base, but there are doctors there. Even if they can't perform surgery, it would be good to let them observe it."

"Can I regard this as Kitahara-san's concern for me?"

Yukino seemed to be in a good mood, and seemed a lot more cheerful since she figured it out. Although the environment was bad, at least she started to tease Kitahara Sora again. This was a good sign. If she could return to her original personality, that would be great. After all, that was the real her.

But Kitahara Sora didn't seem to buy her trick and replied coldly: "Yukino-san, I just think it would bother me if you died on my back. You know, I actually hate death."

"is it?"

Yukino pursed her lips and began to apply force with her fingers.

"It hurts, Miss. Although I can't make facial expressions showing pain, if you have the energy to spare, why don't you come down and walk a few steps?"

"Don't you really like arguing with me?"

"Pinching my waist is considered part of a quarrel?" This girl seemed to have realized that she couldn't beat me, or that I wouldn't care no matter what she said, so she started to fight against me in other ways. She really has a stubborn temper.

Many people have had this experience, where a little bit of flesh is accidentally pinched by a chair or other object. The feeling is very sour, just like the feeling of Yukino pinching a little bit of flesh on her waist now, so Kitahara Sora frowned and had to admit defeat: "Sorry, Yukino, I don't really want to go back to the base. Even if you are not injured, I have to do this for safety reasons. After all, there is still so much time, I still hope you can live with me, and besides, you actually have the idea that your legs can recover."