What's wrong with me?

He left Yue Ran's circle of friends, but suddenly, the friend request he just sent to Yue Ran was approved. He wrote in the note that it was an old friend of hers, and Yue Ran also sent a message quickly.

"who are you?"

She asked.

To be honest, Qi Xia really didn't expect that his friend request would be approved.

Yue Ran is always surrounded by a lot of annoying pursuers, so except for those close to her, she almost never accepts friend requests from any other unknown people.

Apparently, he had encountered an exception now, probably because Yue Ran was still in the third year of high school like him, and did not have as many exaggerated suitors as she did in college.

"I am a secret admirer of yours, you don't need to know who I am."

Qi Xia pursed his lips and replied. Anyway, he was using a small account now, so he didn't have to worry about being killed even if he was a bit extravagant. Besides, Yue Ran didn't know him now, so he didn't have to worry about being recognized by her even if he said something to her.

"I'm asking you who you are. If you don't tell me, I'll delete you."

Looking at her reply, Qi Xia could almost imagine in his mind the cute puffy look of his girlfriend when she was angry.

However, in the past, when she got angry, she would stare at him with her beautiful eyes wide open, until he was so cute that he couldn't stand it and apologized and begged for mercy. Then she would immediately calm down and let him hold her in his arms and act coquettishly.

And now, he obviously could no longer see that expression on her face.

"Well, actually I'm your future boyfriend. I traveled back from the future to send you a message."

"You know what, Yue Ran, I love you very much. I like counting the stars under the night sky with you, and listening to the sound of waves hitting the rocks at the beach with you... We have been there together... Those are all very beautiful memories."

"I like you very much. That afternoon, at that destined place, I met you. Just at that glance, I knew you were the girl destined for me. It's not that I fell in love with you at first sight, but after that one glance, I never forgot you."

"But I'm sorry. I thought I would be with you forever, until the seas run dry and the rocks crumble, until the end of time. But I broke my promise. You are so dazzling and beautiful. You could have climbed higher, but I stopped you."

"I became a deserter, a shameful and humble escape from you, causing you to fall with me, but God gave me another chance to change everything, so you don't need to know who I am, you just need to know that I will always be by your side to protect you."

Perhaps because he didn't have to worry about being guessed who it was, Qi Xia went crazy towards his ex-girlfriend.

Although it might seem incomprehensible to others and Yue Ran now, and they might think he was a mentally retarded psychopath, these words were almost all what was in Qi Xia's heart, and they were also what Qi Xia was destined not to dare to say out loud.

"You are crazy. If you are sick, I suggest you see a doctor as soon as possible."

Just as expected, Qi Xia hadn't sent out his message for long when he received Yue Ran's ruthless reply, followed by a series of skilled curses, deletions, and blocking...

Chapter 39 Distance

Looking at the message in his hand that he couldn't send out even before he finished writing it, Qi Xia smiled at himself.

Does this count as another broken heart?

Even though he knew that Yue Ran now was not the obedient and lovely girlfriend she would be in the future, and that they were still strangers who didn't know each other, he still sent these words out.

He did not expect any response from Yue Ran, but just thinking about how she, who had once been so gentle and considerate, was now a stranger to him, he felt a sense of emptiness in his heart for some reason.

He put down his phone and let out a long sigh. Although he knew there was nothing he could do about it, he still couldn't help feeling a little sad after being called a lunatic by Yue Ran.

Touching his nose, Qi Xia lay back on his bed. He stared at the ceiling in a daze until his eyes began to become dry in the darkness.

Yes, after all, his ex-girlfriend was just a past one. Continuing to think about her would not only make him sad, but would also make Yue Ran feel troubled. He should not disturb her life anymore.

"Huh... I've decided. I'll go to college in Nanshan. I don't want to go far away from my aunt anymore."

He let out a long sigh and made up his mind. He didn't want to see his aunt's sad and reluctant face when he left, nor did he want to repeat the same mistakes, because he was afraid that as long as he saw Yue Ran again, he would still be attracted to her and get close to her.

Although being far away in Nanshan City prevented him from keeping an eye on her all the time, it was enough for him to know that she was doing well. It also saved him from the possibility of having bad emotions when he saw her starting a new life and meeting other people.

He decided to keep his distance from her.

In the darkness, he smiled at himself, it turned out that he was still a deserter. He promised to protect her, but she didn't even dare to get close to him.

He shook his head, throwing away all the messy thoughts from his mind. He still had classes tomorrow. If he didn't sleep, it would definitely affect his condition tomorrow. He didn't want to make his aunt worry about him anymore.

He played some white noise to help him sleep on his mobile phone, and gradually, his breathing slowed down. Qi Xia felt as if he had fallen asleep, and he dreamed of the past after he fell in love with Yue Ran.

The night grew darker, but Qi Xia's bedroom door creaked open a tiny crack.

Her bright eyes peeked through the crack in the door and confirmed that the boy on the bed was asleep. Tang Wanxia, ​​still wearing the beautiful nightgown, walked in quietly from outside the door.

She slowly sat down on the chair beside Qi Xia's bed, staring at Xiao Xia's defenseless sleeping face beside her, her bright eyes revealing a hint of smile and obsession.

She was not worried that Xiao Xia was not asleep or would wake up suddenly. Besides the fact that she knew Xiao Xia very well, she was also not worried because of the bracelet that Xiao Xia always wore on his wrist.

She gave that electronic bracelet to Xiao Xia last year, but she made some minor modifications to the bracelet, which can monitor heart rate, sleep and positioning functions in real time.

As long as Xiaoxia carries her mobile phone with her, no matter how far away she is, the bracelet will continuously synchronize this information to Tang Wanxia's mobile phone.

"Xiaoxia..."

In the dim night, looking at Xiaoxia's face that was sleeping soundly and sweetly, she licked her dry lips. Every night, this time was Tang Wanxia's favorite and most nostalgic time.

She could stare at Xiao Xia as much as she wanted while she was sleeping, without having to worry as she did during the day that her burning and impatient gaze would scare Xiao Xia and make her alert.

Even though she couldn't do anything to Xiao Xia to dye him into her own color, just staying by his side, gazing at his cute face, and smelling his pleasant scent like that of sunflowers, could make her forget all her fatigue and unhappiness, and could continuously replenish her with what she called the element called Xiao Xia, on which she depended for survival.

However, doing so has a side effect that cannot be considered a good one.

As long as she stayed too long next to Xiao Xia, she would feel a little hot and uncomfortable between her legs. After returning to her room, there was a high probability that she would have to change into underwear, and she would have to spend some time to solve these side effects that she loved and hated.

She clearly loved Xiaoxia's soul and everything about her, and it was not just her desire for her body.

But every time this happens, her body will jump out forcefully to show its presence, telling her that you are not that noble, you just long for him, stop pretending, which makes her angry.

But this also brought her some indescribable comfort. She called Xiaoxia's name, fantasized in a hazy state about being close to her own Xiaoxia, and finally fell asleep in exhaustion. When she woke up the next day, she always felt a lot more relaxed.

She gently stroked the soft hair on Xiao Xia's head and squeezed her plump thighs together. Sure enough, just as expected, the annoying side effect came as expected.

Even though Xiao Xia had fallen asleep, she definitely didn't want to appear indecent in front of Xiao Xia, so she decided to finish today's routine check as soon as possible and then hurry back to her room.

She skillfully took out the fruit phone she had given to Xiaoxia from under the pillow without waking him up. She tried to unlock it with the password she memorized as usual, but it didn't work after entering it several times. This made Tang Wanxia frown.

Xiao Xia seemed to have changed her password, she thought.

She was a little worried that Xiao Xia might have discovered that she had been secretly looking at his phone and therefore changed the password, but after thinking about it, she felt relieved. With Xiao Xia's trust in her, it was impossible for him to be on guard against her.

Although she could no longer log in with the password, this was not difficult for her. She was the one who gave the phone to Xiao Xia, so of course she knew it very well.

When she was in college, she had a classmate who was very good at electronics. When she bought this phone, she sent it to her to be modified and left with a backdoor, which allowed her to access Xiaoxia's phone even without a password and find out who Xiaoxia communicated with every day.

No, this is not surveillance. I am just worried about Xiaoxia. I am afraid that Xiaoxia will be cheated by some woman of unknown origin.

She turned on her phone, but as soon as she entered the desktop, she couldn't help holding her breath.

Because, Xiao Xia had changed her desktop wallpaper from the original simple-style wallpaper to a photo of her at some point in time. It seemed that the photo was secretly taken of her while she was cooking at noon.

She pursed her lips and looked at Xiao Xia who was still sleeping soundly. Her gentle eyes seemed so soft that they could drip water. Her eyelashes trembled slightly. Finally, she couldn't help it, she bent down and kissed Xiao Xia on the forehead.

Tang Wanxia struggled to suppress the urge that had long been unsatisfied, and then checked Xiaoxia's WeChat records while rubbing her thighs against his.

What comforted her was that Xiao Xia was still her Xiao Xia, and no one tried to snatch Xiao Xia away from her.

However, when she saw the two text messages in her inbox that had appeared just a few hours ago, the smile on her brows suddenly turned into a cold look.

The sender's information was marked as Xinyao.

She bit her teeth, her nails unconsciously dug deep into her skin, leaving a little blood...

Chapter 40 Dream

The weather in September did not become much cooler with the coming of autumn. Even in the early morning, when the sun had just risen, there was a hint of heat in the air.

The time in senior year of high school is tiring, but also the most meaningful. It is like burying a precious seed in fertile soil. After being watered with countless sweat, this seed will eventually grow into a beautiful flower.

Although there is still some time before the class starts, the classroom is already filled with people, and many students have even begun to recite the knowledge they need to memorize today.

The classroom was filled with noise, making it impossible for students who wanted to catch up on some sleep before morning reading to concentrate.

However, in such a classroom filled with the atmosphere of senior high school, there is a figure that seems out of place in this small world.

She just sat there, quietly, reading a book silently in the dim morning light. If you look closely, you will find that it is a novel, a novel written entirely in English, titled "The Thorn Birds".

The girl was very beautiful. Even though she was wearing the same light-colored school uniform as the other students, it could not conceal her beauty at all. She was like a lotus emerging from the water, or a red plum blossom blooming proudly in the snow, shining like a spring flower.

Her fingertips gently stroked the paper pages of the book, and she seemed to be immersed in the world described in the novel. However, if you look closely, your beautiful brows were slightly frowned, showing that the girl's mood was obviously not as calm as she appeared.

Early morning is the girl's favorite time, because the cold morning is the only time that allows her to read peacefully for a while, forget all the trivial matters for a short time, and forget the unforgettable longing. She always cherishes it very much.

But this morning she lost her usual tranquility.

It wasn't because some blind guy came to disturb her, but last night, some bastard sent her a message in the middle of the night, causing her to not have enough time to enter that dream again last night.

Although she decisively blocked him, she was still affected after all. What's more, he said some inexplicable words, which made her particularly irritated since she woke up this morning.

The beautiful girl put down the book in her hand in annoyance and put it in her desk. Then, she took out a booklet from her pocket. Looking at the densely written beautiful handwriting on it, the girl's slightly frowned brows gradually relaxed and finally turned into a gentle and loving expression.

Those were the bits and pieces that the girl had recorded from her dream over the past few days. They were the few things that could arouse her interest in her boring life.

"Xiaoxia..."

The girl whispered softly. That was his name that she learned in her dream. Although she only called out this name which was still somewhat unfamiliar to her, an undercurrent seemed to surge in the girl's heart. A warm feeling instantly flowed from her heart to every part of her body.

She had a dream these days, a dream that repeated the same situation for several days in a row, a dream that might seem bizarre to everyone if she told it out loud.

In her dream, she dreamed of her life after entering college, and also dreamed of meeting him again as she had imagined countless times, on that bright afternoon, in that destined little pavilion.

She fell in love with him, graduated from college with him, and lived with him in that warm home.

He and she were so in love that they were even engaged in the end, and she was ready to give birth to one or several lovely little lives for him.

The dream was so beautiful, so beautiful that it made her feel a little bit unreal.

But that dream was so real, so real that when the dream ended, the anger and hatred that remained in her heart still lingered in her heart for a long time.

Although it was just a dream, the girl did not feel that way, because the dream was so real, so clear that she could even recite his favorite recipes, as well as his favorite movements and favorite stockings when they had sex together at night.

But this dream was so vague. Every time she tried to find a glimmer of reality in the dream, to find his home, or his personal information, when she woke up the next day, she would definitely forget many things that she should and must remember.

It's like a drowning person, paddling with his arms in vain, but still unable to save himself.

But it must be said that this dream also brought a glimmer of hope, or a life-saving straw, to the girl who had waited too long, missed too long, and suffered too long.

She believed that she would not have the same dream for several days in a row for no reason, just as she firmly believed that her meeting him was destined and her union with him was also decided by God.

Even though she didn't even know where he was in this vast crowd, she would meet him one day, because it was destined, and she believed that this day would not be too late.

She firmly believed that this was a prophetic dream given to her by God out of pity for a girl suffering in love, telling her when her dream would come true. She also firmly believed that with this dream, she would always be able to find him among the vast crowds of people.

The girl touched the information she had carefully written down in the booklet, and a sly and lovely smile appeared at the corners of her moon-like mouth. Those were some little habits and hobbies in her daily life.

She was thinking, if the day came when she and he met, and he discovered that she knew him so well, and even knew some of his unspeakable little hobbies, would he be frightened by her and his jaw drop with surprise?

Thinking of this, she couldn't help but chuckle, and the smile in the corners of her eyes was as sweet as honey.

She was not worried that she would not be able to be with him when she met him, because that was how it was in her dream. She met him and soon fell in love with him. He even took the initiative to find her when he confessed his love to her.

She still clearly remembered the helpless expression on his face when he confessed to her. It was so adorable that she almost couldn't help but hug him in her arms, wishing she could melt him into her body.

But unfortunately, she did not give him a clear answer to his confession that time. Of course, it was not because she was unwilling to do so. She could also understand her mood in the dream at that time. Her heart was so excited that it seemed to jump out of her chest.

It was just because she wanted to punish him, punish him for forgetting their past. She recognized him at first sight, but he never recognized her from beginning to end.

Of course, she couldn't bear to refuse. Let alone refuse, even if she just said no, she would probably feel heartbroken. She loved him so much.

Her so-called punishment was just a small test. She wanted him to join the literature club where she was also, so that she could spend more time together, so she tested whether he could pass the club's entrance examination.

It's funny, it was clearly a test set by her, but as the vice president of the literature club, she took the initiative to help him cheat. He hadn't even taken the entrance exam yet, but she was already helping him prepare for joining the club, and even greeted the members in charge of the assessment.

So this test is not really a test at all, because the result has already been determined.

The girl pursed her cherry-colored lips and pulled out a sketch from the booklet. It was a drawing of his appearance after college. Looking at the figure on the sketch paper, the girl's clear and ethereal eyes gradually became blurred.

Chapter 41 Betrayal

Her fingertips were caressing the thin sandpaper, but it felt like she was gently caressing his cheek.

She really wanted to see him right now. Although this beautiful dream eased her longing for him and allowed her broken soul to continue to survive due to not being able to see him, the growing longing never stopped tormenting her.

She tried every possible way to get his information, and even thought about giving up everything to look for him among the vast human population, but too much time had passed, and she no longer knew where to start looking, nor did she know where he would be.

The girl's eyes were dazed, and she once again recalled the night when she and he had sex for the first time in her dream.

He was silly and clumsy at that time. Although he was a boy, he was more nervous than me. In the end, I was so confused that I had to guide him step by step.

But looking at him like that, her chest felt so soft that honey seemed to flow out. She liked him like this, liked him who depended on her and couldn't leave her.

When the pain came and she finally became one with him, she felt that she was the happiest woman in the world.