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He couldn't help but lose his voice.

……

[Faced with the boy whose past memories were awakened, you felt fear for the first time, the fear that you might lose him again.]

[The story of a prince saving a princess is a beautiful one. The fact that it is still popular today also means that this story structure is eye-catching enough. Men can focus their attention on the prince holding a sword and fighting monsters, and girls can also transform themselves into the princess being saved, waiting for the arrival of the prince charming.]

[Both the prince and the princess are the protagonists of fairy tales. They will be saved and will overcome all disasters and obstacles.]

[The simple structure can also make you feel relaxed and happy. When you were a child, you often held your little face in your hands, dangled your little feet, and listened to Jiang Cheng telling you stories about crossing mountains, killing demons, and saving princesses and treasures. ]

[What fascinates you most is not the one-way story of the prince that most people like, but the two-way story from both ends. ]

[One-sided rescue can only mean that the other party is superior, and only a two-way rush can prove that these two people are each other's only one. 】

[Equality in love and commonality in feelings are more important than anything else in the world. ]

【Beautiful, sweet...】

【Always makes you enjoy the paradise of their lives. 】

[They will surely live happily and happily after overcoming all obstacles together. 】

[Because this is not a one-sided rescue, it is not just one person giving orders alone, it is two people running towards each other in the true sense. ]

[A relationship where only one person is in charge is essentially slavery. Only when two people are willing to give their all can it be called love.]

【--Yes.】

【The prince and princess did live happily. 】

[Even you, a peeper, can feel the happiness that fills you up. 】

[Although the princess's love is a little too heavy, and although the responsibility behind this relationship is tougher than shackles, the prince will accept it all.]

[No matter how many times, no matter what he has to do, the prince will prove to the princess that this love is not just some bubble under the sun, but the colorful rainbow reflected is the eternal light.]

【Everything is so beautiful that anyone who sees it will feel like they are falling into a dream and sweetness like honey.】

[——Except you. ]

[——Except for you who used to be happy for this kind of ending, gave blessings to this kind of story, and hoped that they would live happily together. ]

[This is a story that anyone who knows will feel enlightened, and anyone who sees it will twist like a maggot on the bed for the happiness, mutual devotion and love between the prince and princess. But you are the only one who feels disgusted.]

[Because you are also in the story, playing the role of the devil, the villain who brings disaster to the prince and princess, causing them to suffer misery and disaster.]

[It was because of you that the gentle boy gradually fell into the sadness of being ignored and felt lonely in the noisy birthday party. ]

【He shouldn't be like this.】

【He could have found happiness earlier. 】

[This person who should have grown up in the love of others and gentleness was forced to face the disaster that should not belong to him and the loneliness that should not belong to him because of a waste, a law enforcer who brought disaster. ]

【ah……】

【It is totally inappropriate to call you a big devil. 】

[How could there be such a useless villain? ]

[If we use a more strict definition, you are the only clown in the entire story, and you are the second female lead who is stepped on in the plot.]

【We are childhood sweethearts.】

【She is clearly enjoying the boy’s love.】

[But he burned it all without caring, and only felt sad when he actually lost it, and then he hid in the toilet and cried alone. ]

[Now that the boy's memories have been somewhat awakened, the sadness of the past may come back again. ]

[Can you really accept losing a boy again? ]

[Option 1: Frankly confess your mistakes, tell him everything you have done, kneel down and beg for his forgiveness. If it were him, he would definitely choose to forgive him even for something like this.]

[Option 2: Just continue living like this, as long as you don't say it out loud, you can be like an ostrich or a turtle, and continue to enjoy the beauty of the paradise from youth. ]

[Option 3: You cannot guarantee whether something like this will happen again in the future, and you cannot guarantee that the boy will lose his memory forever. In order to make this moment of beauty last forever, perhaps you have to do something excessive.]

……

——There is no choice left.

In the empty private room with only one person left, the once flawless girl lay on the ground made of tears. She no longer had the strength to stand up and could only taste the bitter fruit of the countless mistakes she had made.

Tightly bitten lips, slightly trembling body, eyes that had never been made up until death were lined with tears, but the pink eyes that should have shone brightly reflected the completely opposite option.

This is the first option that can be chosen since the day when the Herrscher of the Sky descended.

Is there really any point?

Do these three seemingly different choices really mean anything?

No matter how many choices are given, no matter how many completely different options are given, the option that is finally chosen is inevitable and cannot be rewritten.

The most shameless one.

The dirtiest one.

The most despicable one.

Even if it is confirmed that it will not be a bubble-like beauty, even if the breath from the young man can be clearly felt no matter how long, under the hot sun, the despicable and incompetent Herrscher will eventually be exposed.

There were no problems this time because Qianjie dealt with the gathered people in time and the memories awakened did not reach an excessive level.

Really lucky, very lucky.

If time had been a little longer, if this memory had increased a little more, from the past disregard, from the past blows... I'm afraid Jiang Cheng would no longer be able to look at me with such a gentle attitude.

This time, Qianjie helped.

So……

What about next time?

When will the next awakening come from the pain deep in my heart?

When will the sadness of memory awaken me next time?

Really every time I am rescued in time to alleviate the crisis, and really every time I am lucky enough to get help and rewrite the tragedy in front of me.

It's really good to be lucky that you can even do such a demanding thing.

Really every time...

——Will sadness never accumulate?

Will this memory that cannot be recalled, this sadness that has been buried deep in my heart since the past, really not be superimposed due to new touches?

do not know?

do not know.

do not know……

The goblin doesn't know.

The lawyer does not know.

Alicia didn't know.

This fragile heart, which had already been riddled with holes and weathered by one's own stupidity, was no longer capable of thinking.

Just a little bit of fear can make an unhealthy person who grew up in an unhealthy way in an unhealthy world feel like dying.

The girl had long been abnormal, living in distorted emotions, growing up in the pain of being forced to separate from the boy and having to focus her attention on others, and maturing while watching the beauty of Wei Erwei and Jiang Cheng.

A flower watered with twisted black water, growing in a filthy swamp, can never blossom into the pure flower of humanity.

Unlike the original life trajectory, which is filled with beautiful growth, I cannot embark on a leisurely journey and look at this beautiful world seriously.

The initial symptoms were set from the day I was five years old.

The tragedies that occurred in the future were not so much the result of wrong choices as they were inevitable due to unhealthy growth from the beginning.

People who have never experienced normal love and can only be gradually worn out in endless distortion and self-consumption do not have the ability to love in a healthy way.

All these tragedies have accumulated infinitely and are irreversible, but the extremely cowardly girl simply cannot bear the pain of losing again.

sorry……

I'm really sorry.

I did something very bad, very bad.

But I am so twisted and dirty that I can no longer bear the disappointment in your eyes and the rejection from your lips.

and so……

Even though I know this is terrible, I still have to...

--sorry.

From the outset, the options were already determined.

……

[“There is indeed a kind of preference in this world. It does not pursue uniqueness or efficiency, but is only for a kind of illusory but most realistic happiness.”]

[“Does your lover’s “perfection” affect your “love” for him/her?”]

[“And you have always had this ability to love.”]

You could have rewritten all of this.

[Until you personally gave up the opportunity to rewrite it. ]

[Only partiality can be upgraded to great love. A life without partiality is unhealthy, and a person who does not partiality others is abnormal. ]

[I was not born with normal expectations, and I don’t have normal preferences for others. 】

[Then it can only be gradually worn out in the infinite internal friction. ]

[You don't want to stay alone in the world like this. ]

[You don't want to stay alone in this cold world. ]

[You can no longer accept a future without Jiang Cheng. Even if this possibility is extremely small, your fragile heart cannot accept it.]

[This is the only thing that is absolutely not allowed. ]

and so……

——Please forgive my selfishness.

The girl's starry eyes contained a determination to sacrifice almost everything. The softness, liveliness, purity and perfection of the past had all been abandoned, leaving only the sadness that seemed like water, flickering gently like tears.

The pink lips opened slightly, and what came out were characters that broke that beautiful heart and soul into pieces and mixed them together.

"I'm really sorry. As your lover, I didn't even know what you saw. I'm really irresponsible in this matter~?"

"But our life was very happy before. We traveled together and sat together in the rose bushes dyed with warm yellow light by the setting sun~?"

"At that time, the flowers were in full bloom, and the fragrant wind lifted the petals, just like the rhythm of an organ, delicate, long, soft and melodious, really beautiful~?"

"you……"

"You should still remember it, right?"

"We made a promise that we will never forget~?"

……

The sadness contained in those gorgeous pink eyes filled with deep affection, that is the self-blame for one's own powerlessness, almost turns into a physical knife, as if one can see the mist swirling.

The slender, soft, and gently fingertips were pinching his palm, guiding his hand to the position closest to the girl's heart.

——Left chest.

Even though the heartbeat in the girl's chest could not be heard through the huge white and soft flesh that was too thick to be grasped with one hand.

There was no need to even guess what thoughts would come to Alicia's mind at this moment.

She must be very sad and uncomfortable now.

As a lover, you cannot know the pain in the heart of the one you love, and can only watch as a third party and watch your lover tortured by false memories.

The boy had no doubt that if she wasn't afraid of being seen by others and making this body no longer belong to just one person, Alicia would have stepped down without hesitation and tried to earn his forgiveness with the most humble attitude.