Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Now that I know that Alicia is feeling guilty, I don't believe that this girl would tell any lies.

Then there is one thing to do.

"--Need not."

Jiang Cheng's fingers gently tapped his chest, as if he wanted to spread the sound of his heartbeat at the moment as evidence, just like the girl in front of him. His dark blue pupils flickered with the gentleness of the past.

"If you ask me to be rough with you, then you must be rough with me in return. If you choose to refuse or be unwilling, then your mood at that time is exactly how I feel now."

"It's really too much of a cheat to use this method every time you encounter something. Even if I am now, how could I really hurt you?"

what……

Just forgive me like that.

Shouldn't you say a few words?

I'm not……

Have so many mistakes been made?

……

Obviously, he has committed a bad act.

Obviously, there is no need to even embellish it.

He had lied to my face just like he had done countless times before, even more shamelessly.

But the first time she got a response from the boy in person after she did something wrong for the first time, she was overwhelmed by an unprecedented emotion that was difficult to express in words.

That is far superior to the feeling you get from doing things behind the scenes. The only thing you have to fight against is your own heart.

As long as you can transcend your own inner feelings and morals, there is no way the monster hiding in the darkness will be unduly harmed.

This is different from the fact that no matter how bad the situation is, the boy’s dissatisfaction and resentment can only be imagined in his mind.

Until this moment.

Until this moment.

Until this moment.

Alicia actually received a response from the boy, which was completely different from what she had imagined, not even the slightest bit of a response.

Even though I knew that Jiang Cheng would never blame me no matter what.

Even though I knew that Jiang Cheng would not hurt me even if I had done so many wrong things.

Even the blessing in the last weapon left by Jiang Cheng has clearly expressed his feelings and wishes.

Even though she hadn't witnessed the moment with her own eyes, the girl couldn't help but feel a little excited.

I hope... that I can receive the punishment I deserve.

however……

——All this is just delusion after all.

"Resurrection is like something that only exists in light novels. In reality, no one can guarantee that there won't be any special problems."

"Even with my... wisdom, which should not be so ordinary in my memory, I can't see the reason for the so-called resurrection."

"If I were to blame you in this way, it would be too shameless."

Looking at the boy's slightly raised lips and the smile with curved eyebrows, his eyes, like the night color of the starry night, met those pink eyes as gorgeous as cherry blossoms, as if to put down the heavy weight of all his trust.

"Don't worry, I will definitely trust you. Even if no one trusts you, I will still give you absolute trust."

……

"Your behavior is really cheating, right~?"

"Even if it's Jiang Cheng, you can't keep being so willful."

"I... really did something wrong. If I can avoid being punished for doing something wrong, what will I do if I make the same mistake again?"

Alicia was already a little afraid to raise her head, afraid to look directly into those eyes which, even though their color had changed, were still as burning as in her memory.

don't want……

Don't keep forgiving.

At least give me some punishment.

I have clearly deliberately mentioned some of the wrong things I have done.

The girl, who can do sinful things without a care, is unable to face the boy's forgiveness, and is unable to face this tenderness.

The beauty from Jiangcheng illuminates everything in the world like the sun, so much so that all the ugliness and filth from the girl herself have no room for any darkness to remain under the warm sunshine.

The girl who has lost her innocence can only feel inferior from the bottom of her heart when facing the boy who is still as pure as before after resurrection.

Like a sharp knife, like sunlight that is too stinging.

It hurts this ugly mentality.

Burns this dirty soul.

Even the approach itself was frightening.

The rats in the gutter have no right to touch the sun.

The tiny moth will be burned to ashes by the flame.

At this moment, Alicia's inner thoughts have in a sense reached the level of Velvi in ​​the past, the same as the girl who even committed suicide in a sense because of her inferiority and self-loathing.

The differences between people are indeed huge. Anyone can have countless thoughts in his or her mind in a moment. It is precisely that moment composed of countless thoughts, and countless moments, that makes up a real person.

……

Chapter of Stars and Moon: 89. Alicia: I must defeat Honkai!

Looking at the boy who is still the same as when they first met, looking at the boy who is still the same as when he saved me, looking at the boy who believed my stupid words without hesitation, and believed my deception without hesitation.

It was obvious that this denial of memory was fundamentally denying everything that had been in his heart until now, and all the thoughts in his mind now.

Because the only way for a teenager who has lost his emotions to maintain his self is to believe in his past self and imitate his past behavior.

This stupid idea of ​​mine is just to cover up my own wrong idea.

It is to fundamentally deny all the self in Jiang Cheng's heart now.

juvenile……

Still chose to believe.

Still chose to agree.

The rosy lower lip was bitten even harder, and even the physical fitness of the Herrscher showed some pitiful bloodshot.

Since I have lost a lot of affection, since I can no longer be as gentle as I once was, since even the ability to love has been lost, then please give me the brutality that matches the lost affection.

This is exactly what the girl desires and hopes for.

——It’s meaningless.

——Arrogant and conceited.

There was no desire to make my mood better, no desire to atone for my sins, only the gentle touch from the top of my head.

"Then of course I can only continue to forgive. People always make mistakes, and no one is an exception. If even I, as a lover, cannot tolerate it, then what is the meaning of this relationship?"

"I don't know how many times you've said this, but I've gotten so used to it in my heart that I guess you must have begged me like this many times."

"You are too cruel to let me be the executioner for such a long time. But if it were you, I would certainly choose to forgive you."

The smile on the boy's lips was the arc he had wanted to raise for a long time. After accepting the regret conveyed by this phantom from the deepest part of his heart, he also inherited the troubles of this one-sided and unequal relationship.

Since you are lovers who are committed to each other, isn’t it normal for you to tolerate each other and forgive each other’s mistakes?

Every time I make the slightest mistake, I will seek punishment for myself, even for some mistakes that may not seem like a big deal.

At least deep down in my heart, I didn't feel the slightest bit of anger towards that mistake, nor did I feel the slightest bit of dissatisfaction towards Alicia.

The only small complaint I have is that I just can't accept Alicia's behavior. Remember, the fully trained master has to get off his seat.

He does this every time, making it seem like he is a bad man who likes to abuse his lover.

Nowadays, this little bit of resentment and complaint.

Jiang Cheng can finally speak out.

Finally, I can look into those gray...those pink eyes and express all the dissatisfaction that I have accumulated in the past towards the girl's excessive inferiority complex.

No need to worry at all.

There is no need to be afraid.

No matter what mistakes you make, don't worry about getting angry.

It's nothing more than two people cleaning up the aftermath together.

Even if the whole world is angry because of the wrong things the girl has done, the boy will definitely be the only one who will not blame her.

There was no earth-shattering event, no earth-shattering, tortuous reason as in the novel, just because...

"We have been childhood sweethearts for more than ten years. Even Honkai can only make up lies to deceive me."

"Tolerate you..."

"——Isn't this a normal thing?"

……

Tolerant.

Nowadays, it can be called an extremely luxurious thing.

In contrast, kindness has been completely stigmatized. Even the slightest trace of mercy or compassion will be despised.

Having seen so many bad things, people have gradually put away their kind hearts and started to isolate themselves. This is because anything a fearful person does may cause harm to others, and even if they help others, they may be blamed, let alone be thanked by others.

All this does not mean that there is a problem with the word "tolerance". It only means that some idiots choose to lose face and dignity in order to make a profit.

People are afraid of tolerance and afraid of being a kind person. This fear comes only from the zero-sum game.

After the first ungrateful person was born, no one dared to believe that a complete stranger would not be that ungrateful person, would not imitate that ungrateful person and do the same thing, and would not choose to obtain the simple and lucrative benefits.

It is precisely because people have seen too many things like this that they believe that kindness is wrong and only coldness is right.

After the initial superstition in one aspect, people will fall into superstition in another aspect. Sometimes just a few extremely stupid words of Social Darwinism can arouse the agreement of countless people.

To the point that we even ignore the fact that some people feel cheated by this world of only fifty, and that it is not as good as what those good people say.

When they thought those good people were deceiving them, they completely forgot that it was these good people who risked their lives and tried their best to raise everything to fifty, making the world, which originally had a bottom line of zero or even a negative number, become a better place.

If there were only those people who pursued the social Darwinism they admired, there would not be fifty, or even ten, in this world.

In this world where there is not even a pyramid, everyone can only try their best to live according to other people's extremely strict rules.

It will definitely make those who think they have been deceived and who think they are admiring those social Darwinists cry and beg those good people to come back.

After all, no matter how scared or terrified one is, it is impossible for a person to escape from head to toe every minute and every second.

This fear only comes from outsiders, from strangers, not from close family members, truly close family members.

Is there really any need to be too indifferent?

……

I can't say any more words.

No sound could be uttered anymore.

Even if all the scholars got off their seats, they would never be able to express their inner emotions, and no matter how complex and tedious the description was, it would be impossible to explain all of this.

At this moment, there was only one sentence in the girl's mind.

Please...

——Kill me.

……