Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Alicia once thought that if she wanted to do something wrong or dirty, the hardest thing to overcome would be her own psychological defenses.

From the very beginning, she lived in a simple and beautiful small town, was saved by a gentle boy, and grew up in healthy, normal and selfless love.

The gifts received are fairy tales of paradise, and the flowers seen are flowers in full bloom. The orphans in the church are working hard to face life every day, the nuns who use all their time and energy to care for others, and the parents who are willing to give all their love to take care of the children they picked up.

The moral values ​​held by people who live in the world with the wishes of others in mind fundamentally deny doing wrong things.

If I hadn't been so stupid that I couldn't imagine why I made that choice at the time, my future life would probably have been very normal, joining hands with Jiang Cheng, falling in love, and finally getting married.

Regardless of whether or not there will be offspring, regardless of whether the subsequent life can be called happy in the collapse, this is an absolutely healthy life.

It is a life that not many people in the whole world are qualified to have.

It has nothing to do with status or wealth.

It is very rare for someone to be blessed from the first moment they are born into this world and to grow up gently in this world.

The girl just grew up with her preference, and she arrogantly thought that she was flawless and pure. She arrogantly believed that the most difficult hurdle to doing bad things with pleasure was her own psychology. She could not accept her mistakes, and could not accept that she had become dirty and morbidly evil.

This stupid and arrogant idea has finally been broken until now.

The one from me is not a sad trap at all.

Alicia is essentially just a Herrscher who brings disaster.

Truly insurmountable...

——It is clearly a matter of deceiving Jiang Cheng itself!

Deceiving someone who is willing to believe unconditionally, deceiving someone who is willing to give all his trust to an evil person even if he denies himself.

Deceiving a person who, even if ignored, abandoned, and not noticed before death, will still leave weapons for himself, survive in this cruel world, and hope to find a beautiful paradise.

What kind of scum, trash, waste, bastard, villain, and devil would do such disgusting and trashy things?

……

what……

Already deceived.

It has already succeeded.

Jiang Cheng believed my lies without hesitation, and was even willing to tolerate my subsequent mistakes. He was willing to tolerate it as a lover, simply because as lovers we should be honest with each other.

Why should a dirty, incompetent, disgusting person like me live in this world?

Is it just to hurt a wonderful person like Jiang Cheng?

The Collapse is indeed the most evil disaster that mankind has ever faced.

All the beauty will be destroyed by it, all the happiness will be wiped out by it, and any tenderness in the world will fade away in this cruelty.

The one who caused the destruction and disaster will shamelessly continue to greedily stay by the side of the hero whom he destroyed and deceived with his own hands.

Flying around like a mosquito, chirping like a despicable trash who steals the fruits of others' victory and tramples on the real Ikaros.

Collapse...

Collapse.

Collapse!

I can no longer suppress the feelings in my heart, and I can no longer easily ignore the overflowing emotions in my heart.

Just like a dam that has been filled to capacity, even the sturdy design has cracks all over it, and traces of water can be seen seeping through the gaps.

It was as if someone had pierced through my chest directly and was squeezing my heart, but not crushing it directly. Instead, it was kneading it casually as if playing with it. I could even feel the person's cold fingertips rubbing against my heart.

It was not a clear, immediate pain, but rather like a sharp knife cutting directly into the skin, tearing the delicate skin into distinct layers of roses.

It is a dull pain coming from the bottom of my heart, like a blunt knife cutting my heart bit by bit.

I'm numb and broken.

The girl had experienced so much that even her emotions were not as sharp as before. She could not feel any details of her emotions as clearly as before, nor could she feel the unforgettable pain.

This does not mean that you can accept this pain calmly or easily bear the pain in your heart.

——Quite the opposite.

Compared to a direct ending, everyone is more afraid and unable to bear the slowness, wearing away bit by bit, cutting bit by bit, as if the words are separated by a layer of gauze, blurred and yet extremely clear.

I can feel the pain coming, but it's like the continuous and uninterrupted pain of a saw, not even giving me time to adjust, wearing away at my heart.

"what……"

"No matter how much time has passed."

"——I must defeat the Honkai!"

"You must defeat the Houkai that hurt you."

……

Just like the hero who saved the world in the future, those who had not yet succeeded in saving the world eventually witnessed the coming of the end of mankind with their own lives.

Alicia made a vow to Jiang Cheng, to Wei Erwei, and to the two people who were forced to separate and even forced to forget each other because of her.

No matter how long this battle lasts, she will definitely fight against Honkai as much as possible.

To fight against...

That shameless 'collapse'.

If it hadn't been 'collapsed', this beautiful world and the beautiful people in this beautiful world should have been able to continue living a beautiful life.

We shouldn't have to suffer so much. We shouldn't have to go through disasters that we absolutely don't want to experience, whether in life or death, as we do now.

……

——The joys and sorrows of each person are not the same.

The girl's inner world was filled with turmoil, but the boy looking down from across the cliff could only see the ripples on the sea surface. No matter what whirlpool arose from the seabed, he could not know anything about it.

At most, when the rising waves after countless rolls hit the cliffs, the splashed sea water touched the soles of my feet, showing a bit of coolness, and then I belatedly realized that there seemed to be small waves just now.

Out of trust, out of emotion.

Out of this belief that will never be denied.

Out of this one thousand percent belief.

I am willing to believe that the flawless girl in front of me is still the same as I remember, and I am willing to trust that Alicia will never lie to me.

No.

It's no longer just a matter of being willing to believe.

There is no possibility that Alicia would lie.

He simply didn't agree that the girl in front of him would lie.

Even if someone pointed this out, even if someone pointed out the falsehood in the words, the boy would immediately think that someone was deliberately provoking him.

Just like the words used to question the girl.

'actually……'

'You never gave me a chance to get to know you.'

He really didn't understand the girl in front of him. Now that he had lost his emotional state, he could only trust his inner feelings and the state in his memory.

I never had the chance to understand it before.

Now there is no chance to understand.

The boy only thought that the girl's anger towards the collapse was due to her own distorted memories and her emotions being played with like a rag doll.

"So didn't I say it before? This love in our hearts is the reason why we tolerate each other."

"This problem has never been yours. Don't always take the blame for other people's mistakes. You're not some masochistic pervert."

"Honkai has distorted my emotions and my memories, making it impossible for me to even accurately feel love. This is the damage caused by Honkai."

Jiang Cheng gently pressed on the back of the girl's hand, and after a brief pause, his smile turned into the same seriousness and solemnity as the oath.

"No matter what, the man named Jiang Cheng will follow you."

"We were never apart, were we?"

……

【You don’t know the truth about your lost relationship. 】

[You don't know the truth about your memory loss. ]

[You don't even have much memory left. The words you said at the beginning to rebuke Alicia have already exhausted all your anger.]

[You don't even know that Alicia's anger and disgust towards Honkai are essentially just because she hates herself and dislikes herself. She just doesn't dare to mention it directly in front of you, and can't suppress her inner feelings, so she chooses to change her name to the big framework called Honkai. ]

[As a dirty Herrscher, I can destroy your happiness again and again and still shamelessly speak lies. ]

[Even abolishing everything that girl did, even burying all the wrong things she had done in the past into the dust, turning them into false nonsense. ]

[You don't know any of this. Even though the girl is right next to you, you can no longer empathize with her after your emotions are restrained and completely blocked.]

[You simply felt the depth of Alysia's feelings. After she said this, you could easily sense the realization from it. So you arrogantly thought that the girl was so angry and unwilling because of your experience and your loss.]

[You still feel dreamy until now. ]

[The girl who was supposed to be lively and searching for paradise in the memory turned out to be like this in this lost memory. ]

[You who have received such a heavy love, who have been treated with such wholehearted love by a girl, what else can you say? ]

【Hug...】

【Hug. 】

【Hug! 】

[You just need to hug this girl well, because your situation has gone through many huge changes in emotions, feeling guilty, inferior, and wanting to atone for your sins, and also angry about the collapse. ]

[You don't know whether Alicia will experience such a huge psychological ups and downs because of your own affairs, but at least you can see that his delicate heart will continue to hang on the tightrope because of your affairs. ]

[As a lover, you should be tolerant and let the girl realize that all of this is not something that needs to be faced alone. ]

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PS: There will be a big round after this part is over, and Wei Liwei’s role is not completely over.

Chapter of Stars and Moon: 90. Jiang Cheng: Were we lovers who accompanied each other?

[Even Honkai can only use false and ingenious methods to implant fabricated memories to make you hate the world and make you dissatisfied with the world. ]

[What else do you have to say to this girl who is perfect but has heavy emotions like a mountain? ]

[The man named Jiang Cheng always follows her. You are no longer the ordinary person with ordinary talents.]

[At least at this point, the girl successfully moved the time bomb to the back. ]

"Don't you really have anything else to ask?"

Jiang Cheng tilted his head instead. His fine short hair almost covered his eyes, and a look of doubt clearly emerged in his dark pupils.

"Why do you ask?"

"Anything you want to ask?"

"Aren't we lovers who have been together for decades?"

"I can indeed find a girl who had such deep feelings for me in my memory, but it is extremely vague and I can only vaguely see a few shadows of her."

"Originally I was still wondering who to associate this name with, such as Vivi, Mebius, or something else. Now it seems that I have been forced to forget the original you."

"Even though this is not my fault, even though this can be considered your fault, I still need to say sorry, sorry...I left you without permission~?"

……

--Apologize.

The boy is apologizing.

It was as if the two people had made an agreement, one was asking for forgiveness and the other was apologizing.