Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

There was no hint of sarcasm or irony at all. The pair of dark pupils only showed seriousness even in the light that was a little cold and as distant as the starry sky.

It was not until just now, until the girl repeatedly emphasized her mistakes, that the boy suddenly realized that he had made mistakes that needed to be forgiven.

——Breaking a promise.

I broke the promise I made to the girl in my memory that we would never be apart in this life.

——Leave without permission.

He left the girl's side without permission, entered the afterlife without permission, and made Alicia bear the regret that she shouldn't have borne without permission, and even required the flawless girl to perform an act of resurrection.

Resurrecting her lover was something that Alicia was not capable of doing. It was more like throwing it to a blue-haired hydrogen man or a golden-haired priest. The fairy in paradise was forced to take on the task.

This emotion is so heavy that it can almost be called twisted. It is completely unimaginable and incomprehensible that it could appear in a young girl.

This fairy who is pursuing the paradise should embark on a happy and lively journey, experience the beauty of human nature, and see all the happiness in the world.

What those pink eyes should reflect definitely not guilt, inferiority, or self-blame, but the agility and pride of a young girl.

As the original Herrscher, the first Herrscher with humanity, she fought against the warriors of Honkai, the hero who killed Herrscher, and also the girl who saw the paradise in a fairy tale book and decided to find it on her own.

Alicia can have many identities, and can have different identities superimposed on each other, whether it is a singer, idol, model, anchor or other.

The only thing you shouldn't do is be a fool who tries to resurrect his lover, or be a self-righteous sinner who has inferiority engraved into his bones and is always seeking atonement.

There were definitely things that happened in the middle that Alicia should never have to bear, things that the fairies of Paradise should not have to face.

——His departure.

If those memories were really just false lies, and were just forged by the Honkai in order to make herself a Herrscher, then in this world, this is probably the only reason that could cause Alicia, the girl who was so lively and smart in the memory, to fall into such grief.

I regret not being able to save, I regret not being able to protect, I self-righteously accuse myself of sin, and I feel inferior about my own far from adequate abilities.

——The girl has done enough.

Because this heaviness was definitely not something I had just experienced. It was definitely not a mountain-like emotion that had only been brewing for a short time after my complete death.

This is by no means something that can be achieved in a short period of time. The impression left by this heaviness is so vivid in my memory that it is almost one of the heaviest shadows.

He must have fallen into serious problems when he was still alive, half-dead, or even worse, which is why the girl began to build up heavy emotions, regret, and grief from that time on.

The boy could still vaguely feel the pain coming from his body and lungs as he breathed, almost like the excruciating pain of being eroded and rotted bit by bit.

It must be my own fault that caused my body to be severely corroded by the Honkai energy.

As a lover, doing something like this is simply wrong.

Let one person bear all the suffering and disasters.

What kind of shameless person would do such a thing?

……

The young man lowered his eyebrows, and the corners of his eyes, which were embellished with rhythm, bent into a lost arc, and his lips and teeth also bent downward, leaving only the palms of his hands slightly pressed on his chest beating - that was the sound from his beating heart.

The pupils that were once always filled with gentleness have tried their best to show the greatest emotion that the self can show after being blocked and restrained. Even the stars in the distant sky no longer seem cold.

"In my memory, we seemed to have agreed that we would never be apart in this life, but I left without permission, and you have to follow in my footsteps again."

"The disaster called collapse blocked my emotions, but it couldn't block my heart completely. At least I can feel the emotions in your heart."

"It's very heavy, really very heavy. My leaving must have caused you a huge blow."

"I'm sorry, dear Ellie, can you forgive me?"

……

……

……

[Now there are no words to describe your emotions, no matter how detailed or ornate the writing is. ]

[I heard that there is a river called the Yellow River in Shenzhou that is always turbulent, mixed with countless silts, and crashing against the dam like a sky full of thoughts. ]

[Then your current emotions should be hundreds or thousands of times stronger than that river, carrying mud and sand, everything in your past, and all the wrong things you have done to attack your inner defenses.]

[——It is not an unbreakable dam, nor a defense that can rival it. It is just a heart that has been riddled with holes and broken for a long time, scattered and broken to the point that it can hardly be pieced together.]

[All your self-righteous delusions in the past have now been completely shattered by the boy's honesty and the gentleness in his eyes.]

[This is too much.]

[This is too much.]

[This is really too much. ]

[Jiang Cheng's behavior is really too much. ]

[He has clearly lost his emotions, and has clearly lost himself under your despicable wishes. He is like a rag doll that is kneaded and cut into the shape that others like. Why can he still be so gentle? ]

[You can no longer imagine what would have happened if the boy had not lost his emotions, if the emotions contained in his heart were still strong. ]

【Dare not. 】

[At this moment, even your thoughts will no longer be undisciplined and will go wild. Even this thought that you have never tamed and have always been free to indulge in fantasies and used to hurt yourself has been forcibly disciplined and you dare not touch it at all.]

[This fear already comes from instinct. ]

[It was not the physical harm, nor the cruel punishment, but just the gentle tone and raised corners of the lips. ]

【ah……】

[It’s really horrible.]

[It was as if even my heart was wailing, falling into an endless abyss, into an endless deep sea, not even a ray of light could be seen, I could only feel the endless descent, could only feel the pressure squeezing my tiny heart, all, everything, all of my heart and soul.]

[You are so frightened that you are trembling all over, and even want to kneel down and beg Jiang Cheng to hurt you harder and give you a punishment that matches your sins.]

[Gentleness or something...]

[It's really a killer move that no one can refuse. 】

[It is an attack that no one can resist. The more sensitive a person is, and the more hurt they have been, the more they cannot resist and cannot contend with it.]

[Even if they build a wall, it is impossible. Even if they build a city wall, it is powerless. It is like the sun, as hot as the sun, emitting light, which can melt even steel. No matter how strong the defense line is, it will be vulnerable.]

[If you allow this emotion to suppress you, allow this emotion to squeeze your heart, and allow this seemingly endless ocean to squeeze your small heart, your soul and all your selves will surely end here.]

【terribly sorry.】

[You can't accept leaving like this yet. ]

[No matter how despicable this is, you finally got all the love from the boy. ]

[You have just arrived at the paradise, just embraced the paradise that belongs to you alone, it would be too quick to leave like this. ]

[The suppressed emotions in your heart are about to burst out, and this is a good time for you to use the plans and strategies that Wei Weiwei has prepared. ]

[You once thought that Vivi transformed herself into Ikaros and became your ladder, which was more of a metaphor. The help she could provide was limited to giving you some remaining backup plans and recognizing your status. ]

[This kind of help is already very great, at least it can give a third party the courage to embrace the person he once abandoned and hurt. ]

[You never thought that the trampling would be so thorough - Jiang Cheng has already tied the vague figure in your memory to you.]

[You actually already know why the boy's memory is so fragmented, and he has almost lost all the communication and love between him and Wei Wei. ]

[Because this is your wish, your wish to monopolize Jiangcheng, so your experience with the boy can be preserved so clearly.]

【Only you can. 】

【Only you can. 】

[Whether it is Mebius or anyone else, even if they are just insignificant individuals, they cannot retain a clear image, but you can leave the clearest memories, including the beautiful memories of the past. ]

[Option 1: Now is the time to inherit Velvi's will. It is time to ask the girl who transformed into Ikaros to help you once again. I will let you trample on that girl once more.]

[Option 2: Anyway, Weiwei herself has already agreed to this. She has specially recorded a message of backup plan in the weapon prepared for you. Now it is time to use it, right now, right now.]

[Option 3: Since you have replaced the appearance of Velvet in the boy's memory, and since you have been regarded as a girl with deep feelings, why not use the strategy and backup plan together? ]

……

Kneeling on the ground, those delicate eyes were also covered by the prismatic starry sky, but they could not find the slightest light of humanity.

It's not that he has become a completely inhuman Herrscher, it's just that the intellect from the past has almost completely taken up all the space.

Being regretted, being grief-stricken, being regretted far more clearly than another self that is still unclear.

You won't feel inexplicably stupid or do inexplicably stupid things, because these choices were made by Alicia herself.

what……

did not expect……

Has it come to this?

It has reached the point where even accepting the boy's forgiveness, accepting that gentle smile, accepting a certain warmth that has never changed in decades, makes me feel as if my heart is being pierced and torn apart by thousands of knives and chainsaws.

It has reached the point where he can trample on Weiwei's love again and again without a care in the world, and burn the dignity and feelings of that genius girl to ashes.

Even after trampling Ikaros, he trampled on him again because of his own despicable and uncontrollable emotions.

It was obvious that Wei Liwei was willing to give up even those extremely precious memories and begged him to ruthlessly erase her image from the boy's memory.

It is obvious that Weiliwei could calmly give up the boy's love and refused to leave behind a puppet, a substitute. In order not to hurt the boy, she was even willing to let the person she hated the most trample on everything about her.

Obviously, Weiwei had given the most precious thing, which was enough to make a person who had lost all motivation, was in despair, and only knew how to sacrifice himself, once again raise hope for life and try once again to save the boy who had been hurt countless times by the shameless Herrscher.

Now even the memories, feelings, and even the image have been stolen by myself shamelessly.

Jiang Cheng even mistook the vague shadows of the happy and beautiful life between him and Wei Erwei as his past life with her.

Those emotions are clearly important, and they are the shadows that must be kept in mind even if the self is distorted and arbitrarily tampered with like a rag doll.

How much more of that girl's stuff do you want to steal?

How much more should he take from that girl?

……

For people who have never seen a little light, for people who live in ice and snow, even the slightest bit of warmth and light will make Wei Li feel afraid. She is afraid that she may never be able to have it again in the future, and she is afraid that if she experiences it, she may never be able to leave it in this life.

With nothing in its possession, it was drifting on the sea, barely able to catch its breath from the beating waves thanks to the natural buoyancy. Not to mention facing a violent storm, even a slight disturbance could bring everything down.

Even if everything is so smooth, one day you will fall to the bottom of the sea, and one day you will be drowned by the sea water pouring into your mouth and lungs.

The blazing sun was hanging overhead, with only a few clouds occasionally able to barely block out the extremely strong light. There were also birds flying across the endless sky, occasionally swooping down and adding more wounds to the girl's body.

Even if the passing birds and tiny waves had no intention of hurting Weiwei, they were enough to make the girl, who had nothing, fall.

Built in this situation, built in a situation where even every minute and every second of being alive can be called torture, and people can only wander in the endless drowning and waves, let alone the warm big ship.

Even if it is just a solitary sail, the slightest wave is enough to smash the boat into pieces.

Even if it is just a swimming ring, even if it is put on the body, it can only barely guarantee that the first aid equipment will not sink.

Even if it's just a piece of wood, a piece of wood that you have to hold on to tightly every moment and even if it may slip away if you let go at any moment, you will never let go.

It should be like this, I should be satisfied with this, greedily grabbing everything I have, grabbing this piece of wood that can barely give me a little stability.

I'm afraid that even with Velvi's level of genius, that great genius who transcends everything and whose ability is even more incomprehensible than the authority of the Herrscher, she would not be able to calculate or know the current development.

The worst outcome the girl could imagine was probably that Jiang Cheng would completely forget her, burying those memories in a corner, never to see the light of day.

How could she have imagined that what was taken away was not only love, not only status, not only the right to be remembered by the young man, but also the beautiful past that she had created with Jiang Cheng.

That heavy emotion, that desperate rescue, that courage to move forward despite knowing the consequences and knowing the cowardice in one's heart.

She is clearly a girl with low self-esteem, and she is clearly a girl who is afraid to chat with others online.

Not to mention being afraid of the sunlight, even the slightest light coming through the window would scare Weiwei to the point of covering her head and crouching down to defend herself.

No matter how you look at it, such a person is totally unsuitable as a lover, let alone a savior who takes the initiative.

But it was such a girl who overcame her own inferiority and timidity, and took the initiative to let go of the thing that she absolutely could not let go of, and challenged the towering ship as a person who fell into the water.

Just to save one person.

Just to save one person.

This kind of love undoubtedly needs to be blessed. Even in a fairy tale, only the most beautiful chapter will be written.

——Alishia did not give her blessing.

——The girl chose to escape.