Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

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Chapter of Stars and Moon: 108. Just like the first choice

[If you happened to see them at another time, you would say hello and maybe ask if they need any help, to find some excuse to avoid Alicia's exploitation.]

[If there is anything in this world that can scare you, then it is probably only being exploited by Alicia.]

【Collapse or something.】

[Perhaps ordinary people would be afraid, perhaps any normal person would instinctively feel disgust and fear, and anger is more of a cover-up.]

[But for the Herrscher, who is now feared by everyone and symbolizes the greatest disaster and the most terrifying threat from the Collapse. ]

[The collapse itself may just be a feeling that makes you feel uncomfortable when you think about it, and there is an uneasy feeling as if everything is being taken away. 】

[When you first came back to life, you were indeed afraid of the collapse, afraid of the great collapse that could come at any time, even though you had just unconsciously released a great collapse, and it seemed that something had really been taken away from you.]

[Now that I am with Alicia, who is obviously a Herrscher and may have been one since the first day you met, I am more aware of my true nature in the matter of instant noodles.]

[The feeling of pure fear...is no longer that much.]

[But right now you are not in the mood for this. You bite your lower lip unconsciously and can’t even keep your eyes on them for even a second.]

[It's not even possible to say hello politely, and pulling out your hand and shaking it seems to be too much. 】

[Inexplicable irritability entangles your thoughts, and you can't find the source at all. It's like the flies buzzing around your ears in the summer, piling up dissatisfaction, and the emotions are increasing every minute, every second, every moment.]

[It was originally just a trivial matter that could have been resolved with a simple comfort, but it seems to have become a big deal as time goes by.]

[A seed buried deep in the soil has to try its best to sprout. If it is removed before it is born, it will die no matter how deep its roots are.]

[——What if there is no answer? ]

[If you allow the seeds to grow and the green leaves to sprout, the tender new shoots will become hardened with the wind and covered with a light layer of green.]

[Then as a seed that has already exerted all its strength just to break through the soil, its roots have no idea how long they have been exploring the surroundings and digging deep.]

[Its growth speed is unimaginable to ordinary people. It is like a miracle of the gods. It grows to a towering height in just the blink of an eye.]

[Life is so incredible. After extreme repression, it will inevitably lead to extreme growth and unbridled venting.]

[If possible, you would like to see Alicia right now and ask her what is wrong with your memory. ]

Why can’t I tell you everything?

[Why do you always have to change the subject? 】

[The memory of the past is like a library that has sprung up from the ground. Although we are just strolling on the street, it feels like we are already walking in the library.]

[There is no intention to read the book, and there is no meaning to read it. Just seeing the table of contents and the cover of the book is enough to stir up emotions. ]

[Because every book on that bookshelf, every communication recorded, every past that you and Alicia had, are essentially exactly the same, with no difference at all, severely homogenized.]

[It seems that every time you talk to Alysia about your lost memories, you talk about your past journeys, which should at least have been wonderful.]

[The girl could only give one response. ]

【——Change the subject. 】

[Alicea knows without a doubt that you can clearly see from those cherry pink eyes that she knows everything about the girl's heart.]

[As a person who has personally experienced all of your past, you are qualified, have the right, and have the need to understand all of the actions you have ever taken.]

[No matter what your past was like.]

[You are willing to love Lishia, and you have always been willing to believe in Lishia. This trust has been achieved. If the girl says something is wrong, and this mistake is correct in your memory and common sense, then the first thing you may think of is not to refute, but to doubt yourself.]

[Because you did doubt yourself, the reason why the girl didn't want to mention it is that maybe the more mature you have become a bad person. ]

[Perhaps there is a very low possibility that a girl will become a bad person in your eyes, or it is possible that she has done something wrong due to her unintentional behavior. ]

[Those things may or may not be serious. ]

【Maybe you did it on purpose, maybe you didn’t. 】

[The final result is something you shouldn’t know or explore, and it may cause you to bear a heavy psychological burden.]

[If it was Alicia, assuming that she wanted you to not feel guilty and to allow you to live a normal life, she might really hide all of this and let the girl bear all the heaviness of the past alone.]

[There is no such thing as a bootlicker, Feiyangyang, Tom is just responding to the blessing he has felt and the wonderful experience he has received. ]

[The girl who knelt on the ground after her resurrection burst into tears just by looking into your eyes, and she is willing to give everything she has to you. ]

[Bai Ri Xuan○, all○ people get off their seats. This kind of thing should never happen to a cute fairy like Alicia in theory. 】

[But when you first entered the town, even less than two days ago, you had already received all of it and witnessed all of it.]

[Full of guilt, full of asking you to punish me, willing to give you everything, that heavy feeling is really as firm as the mountains. 】

[Alicea has treated you like this, this heavy feeling, this heavy love that makes me want to put everything I have on the line.]

[The girl has done this, she is already the world's top licker, if you still doubt her words, it would make you look too heartless, cold-blooded, heartless, and unfaithful. ]

[If this love can be acted out and can exist in a fake way, then there should be no truth in this world. ]

[You don’t believe you could be deceived like this. It’s not a confirmation of your own ability, but a trust in everything and all your memories.]

[Now in your memory, the only clear, complete, and unambiguous thing is that short period of time in your childhood.]

[Playing with Alicia, playing by the pond, reading books, shaking legs, including the first time under the woods, accompanied by a breeze, revealing a lovely girl under the fallen leaves and petals. ]

[The dreamy light just passes through the gaps between the interlaced branches, forming rays after rays, evenly spread on the delicate face.]

[The first time I opened my eyes, I was responding to your invitation. That little bit of pink was like a petal of cherry blossom blown into my eyes by the wind.]

[This memory is by no means a false existence. No matter what you experience later, your childhood with the girl is by no means fake. ]

[You believe that as long as you can find Alicia and explain things to the girl, this problem can be solved just like before. ]

[I don’t even need to tell you everything about the past. I just need to give you a reason that you can accept, understand, and deceive.]

[No matter what your past is, it should never become a stumbling block in the present. ]

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hope……

Is that true?

Hopefully this is just a stumbling block.

Hope can really keep this rotten life going, even if it has become a corpse that keeps moving forward simply out of inertia.

Order is not necessarily good and chaos is not necessarily bad, but no matter what, it is much better than despair.

That's ridiculous.

When we are peaceful and happy, we long for collapse, but at the moment of collapse we pray desperately and fantasize that all this can continue to exist.

He clearly hated all of this, but when it was all revealed, he was unwilling to bear the disaster and outcome that would inevitably follow.

The contradictory and complex human nature and the incomprehensible human heart constitute almost all of the boy’s thoughts and ideas deep in his heart at this moment.

The life called human being is difficult to describe with any words from the very beginning. No matter how exquisite the words are, no matter how delicate the psychological description ability is, it is impossible to fully analyze everything about a person.

Every impulse of every minute and every second is just one aspect of the long life, one that may be replaced and rewritten at any time.

Many people are paranoid that the world is gray.

The paranoid belief that there is absolutely no justice or evil.

The paranoid belief that everything can be described by stance.

This essence is also due to the complexity and contradiction in the heart, because of the affirmation and negation of anything and everything that may appear at any moment.

Pure people do exist.

People who are consistent do exist.

But that kind of purity is so rare, it is just like looking for the light of stars in the endless brilliance where the sun shines.

That kind of firmness and decisiveness never belongs to normal ordinary people. Most people will spend their lives in a state of contradiction and uncertainty.

At least Jiang Cheng only thinks of himself as an ordinary person, an ordinary mortal who can't even make up his mind to hurt any girl.

Whether it is Velvet or Alicia.

No matter how much the words and emotions have been brewing.

When facing it for real, the moment you really face it, you want to welcome this genuine love, erase all your emotions and act absolutely coldly.

——I can’t do it.

For many people in the world, once they are cared for or loved by others, no matter how indestructible their armor is, it will be shattered in an instant.

As long as others are expecting you and looking at you with trusting eyes, you won't be able to detect the slightest hesitation in those eyes that may already be filled with mist.

To deny this care and concern is fundamentally impossible.

This is the most fundamental difference between mortals and ordinary people.

This is also the fundamental reason why Ying Jie is not a hero.

Only the most heartless, ruthless and tearless lunatics can truly be called heroes, and this is something that only unheroic people can easily do.

Only when the choice comes, can he easily make the cruelest and most beneficial choice for himself, killing countless lives without hesitation.

No matter how cruel or how bad he is, he can do it. To him, kindness is just pure negativity, a tool used merely to act.

Even his friends and brothers around him could be killed out of suspicion or at the mere possibility of hurting or threatening him, making him fall into complete hell.

At least compared to such a ruthless "hero" who can step onto the stage of the times, Jiang Cheng would rather be an ordinary person, an unsuccessful hero.

There is nothing left to think about now.

The only thing to do now is to find Ellie as soon as possible.

If it continues to drag on, if the situation is allowed to continue to ferment, perhaps there will really be some endings that no one wants to see.

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[——You still can’t find it. ]

[It was as if Alicia had completely disappeared from this town. She no longer existed on the streets, in the parks, in the vendors, in the fountains, or in any of the alleys.]

[No matter where you go, no matter where you are, you can't see the trace or shadow of the girl, and you can't find that pink figure. ]

[Only at this moment, only on this day, the girl disappeared, without notifying you at all, disappearing in your world. ]

[For some reason, even when faced with something that you have never found in your past life, you actually don’t feel that it’s strange from the bottom of your heart.]

[It seems that in times of crisis, it is normal for Alicia not to be by your side. If she were to appear, it would be strange.]

【Something is incomprehensible.】

【Why do you think so? 】

[Since it's not in a small town, then the only possible places are probably those few. ]

[Option 1: This is not an urgent matter. You can wait for Alicia's return at home.]

[Option 2: Maybe the girl is now staying in a place in the town that she doesn't normally go to. There is no rule in this world that the owner of the paradise can't go to any place in his own world.]

[Option 3: You can no longer endure it, and you can no longer allow this doubt caused by someone else to continue to echo and sprout. Since the girl cannot be found in the town, the back mountain may be where Alicia is staying. The ash forest there is where you and Alicia first met.]

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I can understand it very well. .jpg

Chapter of Stars and Moon: Happy New Year, repeat the group name: 940764470

Today is the last day of the year. I wonder who you are spending it with?

I always feel that since the year of the epidemic, my concept of time has become much more blurred. I always feel that five years have been stolen away in just a few days, but in my memory, it seems like only a few months have passed.

By the way, let me repeat the name of the group. I always feel like a lot of people are asking about it, and it seems a little unclear when I put it in the previous remarks on the launch.

There are two groups in total, one is Wei Er Wei No. 940764470 in the World: .

The other one is Ai Lixia, the best in the world: 317202547.