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But she obviously has so many reasons...why doesn't she care?

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I really look like a mouse.

Hiding in the corner every day and spying on other people's lives.

Those who have friends, partners, love, care, comfort, and can enjoy life in the sun.

That’s what they call life, and only people like them need to cherish their lives. For people like me, it doesn’t matter if I die in the next second.

Anyway, I don’t feel any reality in being alive. I have no dreams, no goals. I am just living, just eating and waiting to die every day.

But before I die, I should reply to the message Jiang Cheng sent. If I make him wait unnecessarily, I would have made a big mistake.

It's obviously a charity for someone like him to be willing to chat with me, but I still made him wait. Even for a second would be acceptable.

If this situation really happens, even if I am sentenced to death immediately, it will not be enough to make up for it.

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what……

So humble...

Just this makes me feel satisfied. Just picking up the crumbs of biscuits dropped by others accidentally is enough to make me smile happily. Just one sentence can move all my self and emotions.

Have I ever been looked at like Alicia, stared at and missed all the time?

Why……

But I don’t know anything?

In comparison, even if he suddenly found out that his past was spied on by someone with very low self-esteem, it didn't seem like a big deal.

Being deceived by Alicia and still not repenting until the second birthday party were all overwhelmed by more important things.

Perhaps humans are indeed extremely hypocritical creatures.

Preconceived notions are too strong.

If what you first saw was not the detailed psychology of the girl recorded in the diary, the humbleness and desire recorded in the delicate brushstrokes, you would only know that someone had peeped at you like a thief.

I'm afraid that no matter what I see next, my first reaction will be that this was written by a voyeur, rather than the complex thoughts of a young girl.

Once you put on the voyeuristic, preconceived mask for others, you will no longer be able to accept all facts properly like a bystander.

Well……

Is the technology of peeping really so advanced?

It was just a temporary device, but it was enough to deceive Alicia's eyes and allow her to spy on herself at all times without being discovered by anyone.

That elf-like girl truly possessed authority higher than that of the Ruler from the first moment she came into the world. As the goddess of the stars and the moon, she was an elf who fell from the kingdom of the fairy moon into the cruel human world.

Even if I had not been strict enough about my own abilities before, this status, which is fundamentally different from that of ordinary people, is not something that ordinary people can achieve.

Even if Jiang Cheng does not use any of his authority.

Even if you intentionally suppress your own power.

He could still face a hundred thousand of the most elite soldiers, the entire garrison of any top-tier nation, remain unscathed by the bombardment of unlimited logistics, and knock everyone out without hurting anyone.

The gap between Herrscher and humans is so insurmountable that humans can only achieve a slight improvement by transforming themselves into fusion warriors.

He was just an ordinary, normal Herrscher who was no different from any other Herrscher who had appeared before, just like any ordinary person he had ever been.

At least the boy thought that all normal Herrschers were like this.

What about the goddess who is superior to the Herrscher?

This absolute voyeurism can be called a miracle, and it is even based on the self-restraint of the unknown girl who wrote the diary.

——Not allowed to be given as gifts.

——It is prohibited to make it into the shape of a pendant.

It was obviously just the first time that he met the unknown girl. At least the boy, who had lost a lot of memories after his resurrection, only realized that there had been someone in his life after he got the notebook.

Even her existence was only known temporarily, and our understanding of the girl's personality was limited to the delicate strokes and psychology written in the diary.

It is obvious that he had no knowledge or understanding at all, and he only read a tiny bit of the diary.

Jiang Cheng's heart inexplicably confirmed all of this.

--Yes.

That's who she is.

A person who is inferior and cowardly, who denies everything he has and controls, but always shows unattainable awareness at important moments. He likes to take the long way around, but always becomes the one who goes the farthest.

Although this so-called distance is completely based on excessive talent, because of that unattainable wisdom that is like a curse.

Even if he added a lot of elements to himself, he could still easily create a machine that could achieve complete peeping without being discovered by Ellie.

Who am I?

How many important things have you forgotten?

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do not know.

This is a completely unanswerable question.

More than thirty years have passed since the day he was born, and the man named Jiang Cheng has lived on the earth for thirty discontinuous days and moons.

There is a gap in the middle due to death.

This gap can definitely not be larger than the entire life.

No matter how huge it is, the maximum time it can occupy is probably ten years.

His close friend Mebius had just started to make his mark in the world, so it was impossible that he had developed a deep friendship with that top scholar when he was still a minor or a teenager, right?

That was too strange. Even in Alicia's words, it was as dreamy as a fairy tale, something that could never happen in reality.

My life named Jiang Cheng has lasted for at least twenty years, and there should be at least twenty days and nights of memories and actions.

Unfortunately, the clearest memory I can find is only from the year when I was five years old. After that, it becomes vague, fragmented and difficult to piece together.

No matter how monotonous and boring a person's life is, it is impossible that he or she cannot keep many things that need to be remembered in his or her heart for more than ten years.

It's not like I was hiding in a small town, leading a monotonous and boring life. Instead, I was traveling with Alicia. If not around the world, I had at least traveled across half of the globe.

In such a long journey and life, how could it be possible that there are no things that need to be remembered?

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PS: This is the plot of Wei Erwei's diary, so it is released for free. It can be regarded as Jiang Cheng reliving his original experience, although the final ending will be tragic.

Chapter of Stars and Moon: 116. Weiweiwei... Is that so? [Free]

Alicia...

Why did you become like this?

From not caring, being indifferent, and watching equally, to now this feeling that seems more like the heavy feeling of the owner of the note than any other description.

Why do you have to control my memory? Why do you have to lie to me? Why do you love me... but don't let me recall the past?

——Let’s read the book first.

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[As an important supporting character in the notebook, Alicia, who was even questioned in her heart by a weak and self-abased girl, had been ignored for the most part without her realizing it.]

[Perhaps you still want to separate the past Alicia from the present Alicia and ignore the bad things in the notes.]

[I don’t want to blame and hurt someone again because of some past mistakes that I have already repented of, and now it’s over.]

[Refuse to let the stereotype of being a villain, like the great dragon in the Demon King's Castle, be deeply engraved in your mind and memory.]

[There is still a little bit of desire left, which is as ridiculous as the desire to continue living a quiet life with Alicia after knowing all the truth. ]

[Even though you were personally involved from the beginning and had complete memories and feelings, you never felt resentful for the girl's disregard. ]

[Now you don’t want to, and you don’t want to, create a new set of ideas and shatter the attitude of the girl in your memory. ]

[You have never felt resentment towards Alicia. This is a response from the heart, not a deleted memory that caused you to forget everything. ]

[Since you have never resented anything before and have never hated anything in your personal experience, why would you allow yourself to resent that girl now? ]

[Dealing with emotions and stuff...]

[At least wait until you finish reading this diary. ]

[Don’t make a hasty conclusion on a matter without knowing complete information. ]

[You just gently turned the next page, your fingertips even used a little force, fearing that your hands might cause any harm or damage. ]

……

Jiang Cheng exhaled lightly, put his hands together, crossed them, leaned them on his thighs, and looked at everything in front of him quietly.

Having already experienced great tragedy, his dark eyes knew better than anyone else what would happen next.

Everything in the past was still revealed.

Everything was heading towards the most desperate and irreversible ending.

Is this the drama of fate?

Obviously no one did anything wrong, and obviously everyone was doing what they thought was right, but in the end, all that was left was a mess.

There is nothing wrong with Alicia's will to maintain all of this and her desire to atone for her sins, and it is not incomprehensible that she uses some despicable means.

At least it's not something completely incomprehensible.

After two long years, Jiang Cheng no longer felt the anger he had initially felt when he was deceived. That anger had been gradually drained away along with the tenderness. No matter how strong the emotions were, they would dissipate with time.

After putting aside all the strange looks and inappropriate filters, Alicia's behavior becomes something understandable.

Even if you ignore the love, ignore the possessiveness, ignore the belated sense of atonement that you only realize after everything is over.

If I were to be resurrected in a complete form, I would probably continue to fall into depression and hopeless sadness because of Weiwei's matter.

Alicia came too late, too late, and missed too much life and too much time, so that at the last moment even the emotions she poured into making the weapons became blurred, leaving only empty imagination.

Too illusory, too arrogant, to the point of treating fairies who wanted to become humans and actually became humans as if they were gods.

I have reached my limit both mentally and physically, and the void of loss is getting deeper and deeper day by day, becoming more and more obvious and expanding.

Losing a person who has accompanied you throughout your life and with whom you have never been apart will be accompanied by eternal dampness after a sudden and heavy rain.

Every day and night when I am alone, I will feel the emptiness of no girl in the bed anymore, and the sadness in my heart that will never dissipate.

The humidity would not last too long, because the rainstorm was so heavy that it was heavy enough to make people sick, to have a fever, to lead to death without any cure. Even the spirit was soaked by the rainstorm and fell into the boundless sea.

At that point in time, even if Alicia rushed over, even if the girl poured all her love into him, it would not be able to fill his already broken heart.

Time is enough to erase most feelings, and is also enough to push sadness to a climax infinitely. Just like an identification device, false and weak feelings will be gradually weathered and all falseness will fade away.

Perhaps occasionally a final bit of the core will remain as a vague outline, but all this is ultimately achieved at the cost of a clear impression.

Sincere emotions will only turn into rare minerals and indestructible metals over time, making their priceless value continue to rise.

Before his resurrection, Alicia and he were just close friends, at most relatives. He would watch her move forward with expectation and blessings, but he would not chase her with all his might and walk to her side.

This emotion will eventually become blurred over time, leaving only the deepest part, while the core still retains a vague outline.

Wei Liwei... Perhaps the relationship between him and her had already reached its limit when he was constantly hesitating, but she was able to step into the abyss for him.

At that time, because I was resurrected, I might even try to explore this ability and attempt to resurrect the dead.

Everyone seeks a life that can be repeated again because of the simulator's resurrection match, but in the end, it still ends in a painful death.

Even though it didn't seem to make much sense, everything ended up in the worst possible way.

Because of probability, because of a slight possibility.

Just as the possibility of a second collapse befalling the main base of the Fire Moth is evident, tragedy never occurs suddenly until after preparation.