Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Tragedy is called tragedy mostly because it always suddenly takes away everything people cherish in an unexpected way.

Now back to the ruins of the Fire Moth...

It can be considered as exploring the truth.

Explore everything that I had not explored before because of a sentence. When did the girl realize all this, when did she leave a backup plan, and when did she decide to make the same decision as before.

Although the act of knowing the truth is essentially to heal the wound, even if it is due to a lie, it is no longer exposed to the air like before, and the wound that was always hurting will be torn open again.

The poor sewing skills and rough needlework can at least turn the severe pain that occurs at any time into a dull pain that is only triggered at rare times.

As long as the lies are well-intentioned and relatively well-intentioned, it is never completely unacceptable to listen to some of them occasionally.

There is no one who is immune to hearing any lies, even Vivi lies.

——All this has made me very satisfied.

——Please forget me.

Now the wound was torn open again, and it was even heavier than the previous damage, and it was torn even harder, tearing some places that were originally intact, revealing bloody wounds without any cover.

Vervi's diary.

Everything recorded in that delicate brushstroke.

……

what……

Abnormal people always write diaries to record everything about themselves. In a sense, this is also a way to show that they are not lonely, to deceive their own hearts and share their stories with themselves.

But no one expected that they would be sealed there. Even the Spiral Workshop's defense measures were changed to temporary emergency measures for storing items.

He wanted to keep his diary forever, along with everything that happened in the Spiral Workshop.

Weiwei...should I say that this is indeed the case?

It seems that not letting me dig deeper is not only because they don't want me to see the ugly side of myself, but more because they want to bury the past.

that's true……

I should have thought of it earlier.

It is normal not to want your lover to see your bad side. But in Wei Liwei's case, with her personality, it is impossible for her to say it out loud without struggling with it for a very long time.

Even if she has prepared a will, she will definitely have wild thoughts and worry that such words will make her think that she is hiding some unknown secret?

She said this and left such last words after her death. Was it because she had something to hide that she didn't want me to see her for the last time?

Weiwei would definitely think so. Even if she could say "please don't explore this further" in the end, she would definitely hesitate and add something like "if - it's actually okay if you really want to" at the end.

That's just the kind of person she is. No matter how much time has passed, no matter how much she tries to give herself a sense of security, in the end she still hesitates and struggles like a silly dog.

Just like the previous civilization in which I had no participation, because I cannot find my personality for the time being, I cry and vent the fear caused by loneliness.

They have all become powerful heroes, but their natures have never changed, and they have never made any progress due to the maturity of their talents.

But in the end, no matter how stupid a person is, he will give up everything for something called love.

Even life.

Even love itself.

……

Jiang Cheng exhaled deeply, and his dark blue eyes closed gently. After seven or eight heartbeats, he opened them again, with a pair of deep eyes that were awakened by sadness and pulled into moisture by the sudden wind and rain.

I had clearly already acquiesced to all of this in my heart, but because I didn't want to cause any more trauma, I pretended that it didn't exist and hid it from myself.

Obviously, he already knew everything about Weiwei. After so much time had passed, he should have realized what the girl would do long ago.

It was clearly a heavy rainstorm that had already gone away, and even the little bit of moisture on my body had long since dried up with the strong wind.

It turns out that things that are expected will also make you sad for a long time.

Why not cherish someone who behaves well easily?

……

[My fingers flipped through the pages of my diary. At first, I only used a few dozen pages to record the past, but after I met you, I wrote down everything almost every day, using delicate strokes to outline the excitement in my heart.]

[Even if you just said hello to her in the morning, something as ordinary as it could be, the girl would still write a long paragraph to express her emotions. ]

[Simple daily life is given a more dramatic description than the most brilliant heroic epic in this brilliant text description.]

[At least you can already imagine how the girl will roll around on her bed like a maggot after your casual greeting and compliment.]

[That face whose exact appearance is unknown must be filled with a smile of joy and affirmation from others, in stark contrast to the gloomy and inferiority complex.]

[Perhaps she is really too lonely, so lonely that even if she sends you a message asking "Are you there?" and you don't reply for a few minutes, the girl will doubt herself, worry whether she has done something wrong, and start to question herself.]

[I wonder if I responded a little late yesterday, or if my response was not good enough. I read all the details of our conversation word by word.]

[Although this kind of research behavior is not uncommon for the girl, she would hold the communicator almost every night, watching the chat between you and her over and over again until she fell asleep.]

[Using the description of the unknown girl, it is necessary to provide material for one's dreams. As long as one keeps watching these before going to bed, then when one falls asleep, one will definitely dream about something related to them.]

[Even if that doesn’t work, you can still give yourself some space in your random thoughts before falling asleep, and imagine how wonderful it would be to be praised in person.]

[This kind of behavior should generally be called "steamed goose heart in a private restaurant."]

[You don’t know what the girl’s diary would have written before. Maybe she would have described her inferiority, hesitation, and how bad things she had experienced that day.]

[All you know is that since the day she met you at the birthday party, the girl's diary has almost only descriptions of you.]

[The only thing that can gain a little room in this text that focuses on you is probably dissatisfaction with Alicia.]

[Being angry about what happened to you, and even becoming more and more unbearable as time goes by, and unable to tolerate everything you have experienced. ]

[The person who can't accept a single word of good morning and can make her roll around in bed happily, the person who is almost the only light and sunshine, in Alicia's eyes, is a weed that is not even as good as the passers-by on the roadside. 】

[Even a cowardly and self-abased girl can no longer accept all this. ]

……

Chapter of Stars and Moon: 117. I don’t deserve it, but does Alicia deserve it?

Today is the third month that I have been spying on Jiang Cheng. I already know everything about the relationship between Alicia and Jiang Cheng. This should be a wonderful life that is completely different from the dreamlike fantasy of a shady guy like me.

For some unknown reason, I feel as if there is nothing to envy. The lives of kind people... are not that good.

It doesn't seem like a fantasy, like what is written in fairy tales, that the prince and princess will live happily together, with eternal beauty and warmth.

Even if there is a lovely and kind princess and a sunny and gentle prince, they may not necessarily be together, and they may not necessarily have a perfect ending.

This obviously shouldn't be the case.

Shouldn't good people hold hands?

Why is it that among all gentle people, there is always one person who is not gentle enough to show it to the people around him?

Alicia is obviously a kind person to everyone, so why can't she be kinder to her friends and relatives?

Such a lovely fairy-like girl, no matter how you look at it, should not be the kind of person who would coldly ignore and neglect her companions.

Does someone who can do such despicable and dirty things really deserve to be called cute and flawless, and really deserve the title of princess?

Rather than putting everything into practice, doesn't it feel weird to treat everyone nicely but ignore the people around you?

As a mere peeper, I have no right to say these words. A rat like me should just continue to pick up the scraps.

How can a person who has to work so hard to catch even a little bit of yang residue be qualified to face the sun directly?

what……

I really don't deserve it.

Is Alicia worthy of it?

Does her behavior make her worthy of Jiang Cheng?

……

Today is the sixth month of spying on Jiangcheng, and it is also more than 180 days since I witnessed the true situation of Alicia and the boy under that beauty.

All my patience has reached its limit. There is no room for further tolerance. I can no longer accept a life like this in Jiangcheng.

Only people like him...

You absolutely should not be treated like this.

Even if the world is cruel, at least throw suffering on those worthless people who deserve it.

Why hurt such a gentle person?

Why hurt such a beautiful person?

I am obviously terrified even when chatting with him every day or even stealing a little scent. I worry whether saying a word will affect Jiang Cheng's mood.

However, Alicia could speak cold and arrogant words one after another without any care, and could ignore Jiang Cheng as if he were a stranger.

The mouse, which carefully hoards even the residue, sees an individual who can trample on and harm the sunlight itself without a care.

I can no longer admit that Alicia is qualified to continue staying with Jiang Cheng.

Even though I'm not qualified, I can't stand it anymore.

——I have to do something.

-

Jiang Cheng quietly looked at the end of this page. It was the first time that he formally wrote down his dissatisfaction, which was completely different from any previous article.

It does not just remain at the level of words, but has risen to the level of actions, which is a completely different expression from humility and autism.

If an ordinary girl can be called a piece of tofu, then now she has become a piece of hard stone, completely violating the laws of physics.

Tofu is soft. Perhaps as time goes by, it may become a little harder on the surface and not as chewy and soft as it was at the beginning. But it is only limited to the surface and the inside is still extremely fragile.

Even if you punch the tofu mercilessly and smash it into pieces, the tofu itself will absorb some of the damage with its soft body, so that the attacker's hand will not hurt so much.

A girl as soft as tofu who is unable to fight back or resist even when she is treated unfairly, encounters tragedy and setbacks.

But the diary in front of me records things that are like what the greatest magician in the world does, turning the absolutely impossible into possible things.

Could it be that she doesn't know what kind of enemy she is facing?

Do not……

The new page blown by the wind has revealed all the truth to the young man, and his dark blue eyes are reflecting emotions as heavy as a mountain.

-

It was the eleventh month of spying on Jiangcheng, and also the eve of this birthday party. All necessary measures had been prepared, and the spiral workshop had been completely designed, ready to be moved in at any time and anywhere.

It is time to end tomorrow all the injustices that Jiang Cheng has experienced, all the treatment that should not happen to a perfect boy like this.

Although if you do that, you may not even be able to be friends.

Even though even the only friend may disappear like bubbles.

Although this is not a choice that a bystander, or someone who spends less than a dozen hours in close contact with teenagers throughout the year, should make without any room for regret.

I simply couldn't stand the fact that the only friend in my life, the savior who pulled me out of inferiority and internal friction, was treated with such contempt, and even stayed by her side like a boiling sheep.

Gentleness or something like that should never be a reason to be trampled upon by others from the very beginning.

what……

I might really fall into the abyss.

It's really unimaginable.

How come I have lost even the last bit of my sanity?

How could he do such a stupid and incomprehensible thing? He was unwilling to lose even the little bit he had, but instead wanted to send everything to hell.

——This seems to be a good idea.

If the end point of this love is an endless abyss, then stepping into hell with great fanfare is always better than continuing to rot in the darkness.

If this meaningless, worthless life could be used for something more meaningful, then this mud wouldn't be so rotten.

Saying this kind of thing out loud will cause trouble to Jiang Cheng. People like this shouldn't be dragged down by me, nor should they be tied up in my life.