Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

It would be better to bury it early.

At least if it ends here...

It shouldn't seem so ugly and selfish.

……

……

……

what?

Jiang Cheng's fingertips gently stroked the beautiful words. Those were notes that carried some of the emotions of the writer. It was an overly talented master, so much so that just by looking at them one could seem to empathize with the determination.

Is that so?

Did you already know the gap between yourself and Alicia?

that's true……

He was able to grow from zero to become the world's top master in just one month, and his technology had easily advanced to a level that was hundreds of years ahead of his time.

How could such a girl not be aware of the gap between herself and Alicia?

People with low self-esteem and sensitivity...

You will know the virtues of others better than anyone else.

I can only discover the advantages of others better than anyone else.

Although this clarity and discovery is accompanied by an instinctive tendency to belittle oneself, comparing the strengths of others with one's own shortcomings.

This girl really intended to face Alicia, and was really prepared to face the enemy who was impossible to match after knowing everything.

She is so self-abased that she would be flattered by even a ray of sunshine or a remnant of other people's love. She feels that she is not worthy of the person. She is determined to charge towards the sun, determined to fight against the impossible fairy, the pure and beautiful goddess.

This is even more stupid than Don Quixote charging at the windmills, at least at the moment when the self-proclaimed discriminator drew his spear, he thought that the person in front of him was a mortal giant, instead of knowing the giant itself from the beginning.

That girl really intended to face the pure and flawless fairy with an attitude that she herself did not approve of, did not even acknowledge, called herself a mouse, thought of herself as a clown, and was only fit to hide in the gutter and watch the happiness of others.

How can a person who is so cautious even when touching someone, worried about dirtying the other person's hands, watch that person being hurt by others?

Even though he can roll over and over in bed just to get a call or a greeting, others regard this behavior as rubbish and garbage.

This kind of thing cannot be easily tolerated, or in other words, no one who can be barely called normal and has self-thinking can tolerate it.

Such a cowardly and low-self-esteem person will only be able to make very limited counterattacks even if he is hurt or treated unfairly.

The most they can do is a little bit of revenge. In most cases, they will choose to actively hide and leave the place that is considered dangerous.

But no matter how cowardly a person is, he is only hiding his emotions and dissatisfaction deep down where no one can reach him.

There is no human being without emotions. People who usually do not seem to have any negative emotions may become more irritable and desperate than a irritable person at the moment of real outburst because of the accumulation of emotions.

If this were a fairy tale, when a cowardly person makes this realization, he would surely achieve the most perfect victory in the end.

At least Jiang Cheng did hope for a moment that the girl would be successful in the end, and didn't want this awareness of being close to everything to be cruelly shattered by reality.

——Unfortunately, this is not a fairy tale world.

——It’s a pity that my partner is Alicia.

If that girl really succeeded, how could he stay with Alicia?

It couldn't be that after he succeeded and was about to embark on a new journey with me, he suddenly encountered a disaster that came out of nowhere and died suddenly, right?

Even the most third-rate and incompetent author in the world would not write such an outrageous and inferior plot that is simply for the sake of stomachache.

The girl had clearly made such a great effort, if she failed, she would not even be able to muster up the courage at all.

Why……

She has to experience such a cruel ending.

Why must such an outstanding person have to face the cruelest ending?

Jiang Cheng felt inexplicably dissatisfied, as if there was a buildup of anger in his chest, and even the act of breathing felt like a blocked trachea.

Obviously I'm not as good as you think.

Obviously I am not the sun, and I don’t deserve to be called perfect. From the very beginning I have been an ordinary mortal who couldn’t be more ordinary.

It's obvious that I just couldn't get any emotional relief from Alicia, and was ignored and neglected, so I came to chat with you to kill time.

Light is not pure from the beginning, and it cannot be compared with the sun. The sun will spread its light to everything, but I just randomly spread a little light after hitting a wall somewhere else at the beginning. This insignificant point is held up as a treasure by others.

Giving up everything, risking his life, having the courage to run towards the cliff, but not having the courage to ask for more. Even if this asking is just a fantasy, he dare not imagine even a little more.

Even this little bit can only bring disappointment...

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“——I succeeded.”

Jiang Cheng agreed.

Jiang Cheng agreed to leave the arrogant and wasteful girl, agreed to join the Spiral Workshop, and agreed to become himself... the owner of the Spiral Workshop.

From now on, I can see Jiang Cheng every day. I don’t have to peek at him like I used to. Instead, I can see him openly like Alicia.

No longer just as netizens or potentially insignificant chat partners.

Now he and I are true friends and companions.

How can it be……

Am I dreaming?

He must be dreaming.

I must be daydreaming, there's no way something like this could happen in real life.

what……

If it was really just a dream.

Please dream this dream for a little longer.

Guys like me can only find a little bit of beauty in daydreams.

But even if it is this kind of dream, even if it is just a dream, the dream of being with Jiang Cheng, this is a dream I have never dared to imagine before.

……

——I’m not dreaming.

This is not a dream.

Jiang Cheng really slept in the room next to mine. As long as I walked out of the door, I could see him washing up and lifting up his long hair that was slightly stained with water.

He even said 'hello' to me...

He even said hello to me.

He even smiled at me.

what……

what……

what……

I feel like my body is melting.

It’s so so so so warm!

Such a voice full of care, blessings and comfort was truly heard clearly in my ears!

There is no negativity at all, no bad mentality, and no ridicule or jealousy... It is a blessing in the true sense, a small blessing in life, which exists every day.

Simply unimaginable.

Will I ever receive such a greeting again in the future?

How can a mouse like me, who can only stay in a dark corner and peek at other people's happy and beautiful lives, actually receive such a greeting?

It seems that my life has come to a new beginning.

She could draw a line between herself and most of the sadness and loneliness of her past, and experience unconditional love, just as Alicia once did.

To commemorate this absolutely special day, which is even more important than one's so-called birthday or the day of one's birth.

——I decided never to wear panties in front of Jiang Cheng again.

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Chapter of Stars and Moon: 118. The Birth of Tragedy, That's How It Happened [Free]

I see……

Did Weiwei stop wearing panties from that time on?

I thought he stopped wearing it on purpose after the whole incident, in order to ensure that he could apologize sincerely in this way anytime and anywhere.

I originally thought that such expectation was too much for the girl, but I really didn't expect that the idea was not extreme enough.

No wonder it felt a little too soft when I occasionally patted it, and Wei Erwei's rosy face looked so delicate that blood seemed to drip from it.

In the case of ○○○○, people's sensitivity will increase significantly, whether it is psychological shame or physical.

After all, you will feel more of the blow than if you were protected by a layer of cloth, and along with the shyness, you will feel the pain more.

Although when he saw Wei Wei's face was a little too red, he sincerely apologized and said that he would never do it again, what he experienced was that the girl denied his apology without hesitation, and bent down ○○○○○○

Wei Liwei will never reject or deny anything of her own. It is not even limited to the word "things", but everything and anything in the true sense.

Any little hobby or words that she says unintentionally will be remembered by the girl, who will put down everything she is doing to fulfill that wish.

No matter the time or the place, no matter what kind of work it is, it will never be higher than what you think is just a casual idea.

This love is extremely heavy on the scale, but it also makes itself light to the limit, lighter than even a feather or a grain of sand.

Even if you ask for something extremely excessive, Weiwei will bite her lips lightly and agree without hesitation in fear.

Even fear may simply be the worry that you will not do well enough, or be inadequate, and unable to display those extremely excessive and inappropriate behaviors.

Even if I wanted to refute something, as long as I looked directly into those soft eyes, I wouldn't have the strength to refute.

What kind of waste is this...

Even if we ignore the highest level of wisdom that transcends everything known to humans, it even transcends the highest level of wisdom that humans as a living being can theoretically produce.

This love itself is like the biggest cannon, as long as it is fired, it will inevitably bring victory.

An inferiority complex only makes it more difficult to do something.

This is also an inevitable thing.

People who do not understand love and who do not receive healthy love in a healthy environment do not have the normal and healthy ability to love others.

Abnormal people do not know what distance should be maintained in interpersonal relationships. Having never experienced it personally, they naturally have never known the impact of being too close or too distant will have on other people's moods.

Humans are experiential animals. Only by personal experience can they apply what they have learned in practice. It is impossible to know something that you don’t know.

It is impossible for anything to appear in the world without reason. Even the Herrscher who seems like a god needs Honkai energy as a source of energy.

When such people meet someone they desire to pursue, two extremes are often created.

Too distant and too close.

Either one is a pause that represents the rapid end of the relationship.

Being too close will make others think that unhealthy people have no sense of distance, don't know the limits, and seem to force everything into the relationship.

If you are too distant, others will think that you are not valued or cared about.

The relationship between people is more delicate than the most fragile flower. If it is not properly cared for in the most normal manner and a barrier is not formed with treasures called action and sense of distance, it will eventually be worn out by the wind and sand of the outside world.

For people whose emotions are not so deep, at most they will form wounds one by one, leaving indelible pain and making themselves lonely.

But what if you absolutely cannot let go, absolutely cannot give up, and absolutely cannot accept losing someone who is more precious than your own life?