Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

It is bound to have flaws that are difficult to rewrite.

No one can keep his nerves tense all the time, leaving no room for control over all his emotions and behaviors.

Even if the bowstring is pulled too tight, it needs to be relaxed, not to mention the more abstract and fragile spirit.

Even individuals will exhibit many inappropriate behaviors over a long period of time, let alone a group that brings together countless individuals.

You may be able to build a Tower of Babel with sand, but there will be nothing left except that majestic appearance, and it may be blown to ashes by a gust of wind.

It is impossible to create something harder than steel by stacking straw together. If it can be compressed to the extreme, perhaps a qualitative change can occur. The prerequisite is that human beings can really be inseparably united.

Don’t think too much. Today is another happy day with Jiang Cheng. He is still so shining. He can chat happily with anyone. Except for the garbage like me following him around, he has no shortcomings.

……

I had nothing to do today, so I stole a pair of Jiang Cheng's panties and four pairs of socks, all of which were just taken off and were full of the unique smell of youth.

Although it has been filled in time, if it is discovered, the only thing he can do is to continue to sit down and hand over the whip with apologetic eyes.

As a specially created product, it will not cause any serious harm, but only cause pain that lasts for a long time. In this case, Jiang Cheng should be able to accept some necessary lessons inflicted on himself.

As long as it is given by Jiang Cheng and inflicted by Jiang Cheng, even if it is pain, it is an important reward and something worth cherishing. It would be even better if it could leave a mark and prove my relationship with him.

Unfortunately, for the sake of my health, he has always refused to do anything that would cause permanent harm.

Obviously not as delicate as he imagined.

Even serious injuries can be repaired with medical technology.

what……

I am such a bad person!

It's so rotten that even the soul stinks.

Even his apology was tinged with his greed.

He must have a hard life every day. Not only does he have to deal with people outside, but he also has to deal with perverted rats, garbage, and waste like me.

Guys like me will give respect and will do everything they can to protect the dignity and so-called face that actually never existed in the first place.

……

Today is the third month since I came to the Fire Moth. I have thoroughly investigated this organization from top to bottom, including the financial backers and all the secrets of the financial backers. I never thought that it was hidden so deeply.

Although it is an easy thing for me, if I can spend a few minutes every day and most of the time I have to find ways to please Jiang Cheng, it can actually be solved in just one day.

At least in this case, even a rat-waste like me can do it.

This organization did exactly what was said in the contract. The resources and funding provided to me were sufficient, and the required working hours were almost the same as if there were no work at all.

Taking all factors into consideration, it shouldn't be that bad. The only problem is... they don't seem to like Jiangcheng very much.

I am just a waste, a foil, a caterpillar that will die if I leave Jiang Cheng, but those old guys with gray beards prefer to chat with me instead of going to Jiang Cheng, the owner of the Spiral Workshop, to communicate with him.

The things they talked about were all boring. When I was almost three years old, I had already solved the things they had been thinking about and studying for their entire lives.

I would rather use this time to think about how to make Jiang Cheng happier and make him accept rough and painful behavior towards me.

Jiang Cheng is hated...

This must be resolved, right?

The looks in those old men’s eyes were like the fox demons and monsters recorded in the history of Shenzhou, the Daji Meixi who was wreaking havoc on the country.

Are they self-righteous and think that they are being dragged down by Jiang Cheng because most of their time is spent on how to please Jiang Cheng?

If I were not a teenager, I should be "dead" by now. Compared with trash like me who are everywhere, people like him are truly extraordinary, truly worthy of praise and worth being pursued.

Although strictly speaking this is not a problem, I do have some experience in how to deal with other people's troubles.

but……

Because of this incident, Jiang Cheng seemed to be protecting me.

Spend more time with me every day.

I am such a damn ungrateful bastard. I deserve to be trampled on, stomped in the mud, beaten to a pulp, and only deserve to be in a doghouse.

If such a thing were discovered, even Jiang Cheng would never forgive it easily.

……

Today is the fourth month since I came to Fire Moth.

I have been ignoring the annoyance on Jiang Cheng for a month.

He has obviously helped me so much.

This is clearly what I should do, but I still spent my time disturbing him.

Looking at those people disturbing me with sugar-coated bullets, I, I, I...I was choosing the doghouse instead, continuing to torture and harass his mood.

In the end, it still failed.

In the end it still didn't work.

Jiang Cheng always cared about my dignity and wanted to treat me, a small fry, as an equal. He even sternly refused to give me a collar.

I want to be taught a lesson. He is in a bad mood because he is being annoyed by others. Why can't we make each other better?

Just take out your anger on me.

Whatever it is, I am willing to take it.

This was my fault, as I did the same or even worse thing as that stupid and annoying Alicia.

what……

I actually had the thought of insulting him like this.

The fact that I can come up with such thoughts can only prove that I am a bad person.

A waste who only relies on luck and is essentially even worse than Alicia.

-

Jiang Cheng gently turned over a page of the diary, and his dark blue starry eyes took in all the handwriting, which now had a bit of inappropriate messiness.

It should have been beautiful and exquisite, with every detail highlighting the creator's talent that would make even the gods jealous, but now it is in chaos.

——It’s a dead end.

I used to be a very gentle person. At least in most cases, I hoped to solve the problem with words first.

This is not surprising, as a person who has lived in a simple and beautiful town since childhood and has an exquisite childhood has a fairy as his childhood sweetheart.

Even if a person is born a villain and is determined by genes, his edges and corners will inevitably be smoothed out by this gentleness in all aspects.

In most cases, evil people do evil because they had a bad childhood and because they were not loved in a healthy way by others.

It is precisely because one does not know what normal love is and has not experienced normal love that it is naturally impossible for one to have the normal ability to love others.

Human beings are experience-based animals, and they tend to be influenced by the people around them. If the people around him are gentle, willing to communicate with words, and willing to help strangers, then that person will naturally not grow up to be a bad person.

If the environment you live in is full of barbaric bad people who only know how to use force and violence, then explaining things with words is meaningless.

It is fundamentally impossible to cultivate a person who does not regard the use of force as a magic weapon for all victory and does not regard pure violence as a pass for all.

Apart from the limitations of natural environmental factors, the rest of the so-called social Darwinism is more of a manifestation of self-righteousness and hypocrisy.

The diary did not mention whether I was gentle in all aspects. Even if I had written it, it would be impossible for me to obey it completely.

Perhaps it was because lover’s eyes see beauty in everything, in that girl’s writing I was as noble as a saint and as dazzling as the sun.

But the only thing that is certain is that at least towards lovers, the people who accompany each other for life, they are very respectful and will not choose to take shortcuts because of other people's characteristics. They will treat her equally as a unique partner.

If he really wanted to take a shortcut, he only needed to accept the collar given by the girl, and he could knead and play with this genius at will.

Even if it is treated as a disposable toy, a sandbag, or transformed into a blood-sucking worm, constantly sucking blood and stealing all talents, it can be done.

--impossible.

Even though he has lost a lot of emotions now, he is completely incapable of doing such a thing, crushing other people's sincere love and trampling it in the mud.

If he had to do such a thing, Jiang Cheng would rather die than challenge the existence that forced him to do such a thing.

Only pure love must never be desecrated and must not be trampled upon wantonly. He and the girl must be completely equal. Even if they are not equal, it can only be that the girl is at a higher level than him.

Because an ordinary mortal, a mediocre and incompetent mortal, no matter how you look at it, can never compare to a stunning genius in terms of importance.

The problem is that the genius doesn't know how to fall in love normally, and all he can do is give everything he has.

Since she doesn't know how to love and has low self-esteem, the best way for the girl might be to just let him do what he wants.

Because even if he grabbed the other person's collar fiercely, begging the girl to pay attention to him, pointing out all of her contributions word by word, making her realize how valuable her talent is.

The girl would only think that she was too perfect for the mouse to be so respectful to her, which only increased her sense of unworthiness and inferiority.

No matter how bad the behavior and performance is, no matter how shameless and disgusting it appears, it is much better than being overwhelmed by guilt and crushed by inferiority.

……

Chapter of Stars and Moon: Taking a day off.

Today's big drop in temperature has completely arrived, and the temperature even soared to below zero at one point. For people who don't like to check the weather and are too lazy to check the temperature, this sudden and drastic change can be considered a very hellish thing.

At least now we have to check the temperature and weather before going out. If the temperature is too low, we may not even dare to go out and have to order takeout.

I'm really sorry about my recent condition. I will make up for the plot and updates as soon as I recover.

Ciallo～(∠?ω

Chapter of Stars and Moon: 122. Wei Wei: Is it too late to conquer Jiangcheng now? [Free]

He and that girl were totally incompatible.

It's not just about personality anymore.

Even their values, preferences and needs.

Giving love yourself and the girl needing love, this seems to be a very complementary thing, and the final result should be a perfect fit like gears.

If what the girl wanted wasn’t so heavy, so twisted, and so depressing to the point of causing an ordinary person to collapse.

What she needs is the enthusiasm of a moth to a candle flame. Under such excessive inferiority and loneliness, any tenderness and help would be as dazzling as the sun.

In a sense, genius also represents psychological sensitivity. Psychologically sensitive people can feel emotions in all aspects of life better than ordinary people.

Being a person who is more talented than others is not a good thing in many cases.

Because the world of ordinary people can hardly accommodate geniuses.

It is not even about jealousy, disgust, the human instinct to stick together for warmth, or the instinctive denial of those who are different from oneself.

It's just that the world constructed by ordinary people is completely based on the standards of ordinary people's lives, not for the sake of being a unique genius.

To explain it in the simplest way, a person who is naturally stronger than others and needs to eat two bowls of rice is forced to have only one bowl of rice a day. He cannot even feel full and may even perform worse than others.

This does not mean that the person who is naturally physically fit is inferior.

It's just that I can't adapt and can't accept the life of ordinary people.

Perhaps he can change this outcome and through his own efforts get the treatment he deserves as a genius and a unique person.

Before that, he also needs to endure hardships and grow up in an environment where he can only be weak every day and cannot even feel full.

In this situation, people who could have lived a life of luxury with their own abilities would be grateful even if they were given a rotten steamed bun.

The girl who should have been praised by everyone, because of this reason, became a genius who thought she was unworthy of a little bit of tenderness, but was unwilling to give up this warmth and ultimately wanted to become a pet.

The filth and loneliness accumulated from the past life can only be burned away by the hottest flame. It is impossible to step into a completely new life before it is destroyed, and it will be as thorough as burning oneself to ashes.

Jiang Cheng took a deep breath, and his fingertips skillfully opened a corner of the birthday party among the complicated and heavy pages of the book. A sad voice, as if coming from the depths of his soul, echoed in his heart.

What I received was never just a simple invitation, but the life of an absolute genius.

-

Something is wrong. Something is very wrong today.

Jiang Cheng probably really couldn't stand me being disturbed by those people all day long, so he went to find a physicist named Mobius to solve the problem.