Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

[All of this is so perfect, so dreamy, it is just like a story created in reality that only belongs to the fairy tale world. ]

[The prince and princess will live happily together. They just need to stop here. There won’t be any problems or worries.]

[No matter what kind of hardships you go through, all the difficulties, big or small, will eventually be overcome step by step. After overcoming the disasters, the feelings you have will be as bright as steel that has been hammered and polished.]

[In the final analysis, no matter how far you imagine this distance to be, the distance between you and Wei Wei is only heavy.]

……

Chapter of Stars and Moon: 125. The last chapter, Weiwei's Wail [Free]

[This heavy feeling, along with the responsibility it requires, is enough to scare anyone with a conscience in the world.]

[You absolutely do not want to treat Wei Wei as a plaything, so you can only bear this responsibility that is opposite to love and is enough to crush anyone. ]

[The word "give up" has never occurred to you. The only thing that confuses you is how to fulfill and take on this responsibility.]

[The moment Weiwei invited you, it was impossible for you to leave her.]

[——Isn’t this a good thing? ]

[You only need to shoulder a little responsibility to get Wei Wei's love, stay beside the world's top genius, and enjoy free help. Isn't this something that others can't even dream of? ]

[Even if I know that the ending is likely to be my own death, this fulfilling journey is enough to make me feel happy. ]

[You don’t feel that there is anything in your past that is worth hiding, nor do you think that a self-consistent and complete story needs to be continued with a new chapter. ]

[The only flaw seems to be that you still don't know when you died, and how many years you spent together? ]

[If it's too early, there will be no way to save the girl and change her inferiority complex to the point of being a bootlicker, or even a bootlicker is not enough to describe her feelings. ]

[You don’t hate others giving you things to prove your love. The exchange of gifts is essential to human nature.]

[I just don’t want a girl’s love to be expressed in such a flattering way, completely ignoring myself, just for your happiness. ]

[You have heard that for good people, doing bad things is a punishment in itself. ]

[You are not a good person, but you are not a bad guy either. ]

[Since the world is so peaceful, at least humans and Honkai can maintain a relative balance, there are no large-scale killings, and there are no reports of a top genius turning into a mad scientist, obsessed with exploring the mystery between life and death. Perhaps you have successfully achieved your goal.]

[If you fail to change her emotions, when you die, under the feelings and love of Bai Yueguang, the girl will probably turn into a mad scientist without hesitation and want to resurrect you.]

[After gaining light, one falls back into darkness. It seems that there is nothing left to do in life except to seek light again.]

[There is no point in continuing to speculate, and you probably don’t need to worry about it. Right now, it is more important to learn more about the truth as soon as possible.]

[Although this diary is not realistic and too exaggerated in its description of you, it can still give you a lot of information through its detailed description.]

[Although most of it is just crazy, including but not limited to studying your XP, stealing your clothes when you are not around and taking them. ]

[If others saw this diary, they would probably think that the person who wrote it was a complete idiot rather than a genius.]

[You continue to embrace the third person perspective, watching these sweet daily lives, as a love story that might make you twist like a maggot in bed if there were nothing to pursue at another time.]

[The description of you above has reached the point where you, a person who theoretically has no extra emotions and even the little bit of emotions that you have now because of Alicia, feel ashamed.]

[I really wrote you as a god, savior, and master. I hope you can change this later.]

[At least now she rarely says I am unworthy. ]

[At least she is not so inferior now. ]

[Unconsciously, you are immersed in this beauty, and while reading the diary as a third-person spectator and gradually as a first-person protagonist, you even think that separation is so far away.]

[The numerous plans made by the girl have become little secrets of fun between the two of you, and the unfolding of the crisis has been subconsciously ignored by you.]

[Until the day when the disaster approached, your dysfunctional nose had never smelled even a trace of the smoke coming from the depths of hell.]

[That was the first time the girl wrote down her worries, her uneasiness, and the new diary that was interrupted and incomplete.]

……

As expected, I still can’t open my mouth.

There is no way to ask this question like before.

Is it because I have been with the boy and tasted the feeling of love, so I no longer dare to jump off the cliff alone like I used to?

Once people have something to protect, there are indeed many things they cannot do, and they will add some love called constraints to themselves.

Asking a young man who is the most important person to him is like inviting him to a birthday party or confessing your feelings after making a mistake. Once you open your mouth, it's a straight ball that leaves no room for any buffer.

Rather, when I looked directly into the boy's eyes, wasn't the final truth already very clear?

Everything reflected in those dark pupils, the colorful neon lights flashing at night, a cherry petal blown slightly by the wind, the bird resting on the shelf, its wings flashing stars, and a little bit of stuffiness in the night, watching the birth of a light novel-like scene, chirping non-stop.

None of these can replace the absolute protagonist in the pupils, and can only become the foil of the only dominant person in the boy's eyes.

--I.

——Virvi.

No matter how self-deprecating and inferior I am, I do possess talents that are different from ordinary people, talents that are superior to most people.

Beneath the extremely distorted inferiority complex, perhaps there is also a pride that, if not restrained, will be enough to create a horrific destructive rain disaster.

The disappearance of that person would make the young man feel very sad, very sad, a sadness that he would probably never be able to recover from in his entire life, but now he was right in front of him.

If you can't even see such a simple thing clearly, then aren't you more incompetent than ordinary people?

Alicia...

Perhaps they were just ordinary relatives from the beginning.

To regard her as an enemy is more foolish than stupid.

But if something unexpected happens one day, I am forced to separate from the boy, and he is forced to bear the pain of the disappearance of the most important person.

Perhaps by that time, even the relatives of the successor should be able to serve as a necessary means to fill the emptiness in the boy's heart.

Well……

It's so hard to accept.

Like that guy who accompanies Jiang Cheng or something.

It's simply unacceptable!

It is too early to think about these things now. The threat of collapse should not be so terrible. It will not cause the Fire Moth to cause a major collapse.

The importance of the backup plan is second only to the resistance to Honkai. Maybe we can explore the nature of Honkai and find a way to fight against it.

……

The new page seems to have no problems, but Weiwei is still full of self-pity, and the new plans that are constantly unfolding have become part of daily life.

Jiang Cheng felt inexplicably strange, and his eyes wandered uncontrollably to his plan with Alicia, as if an alarm bell had been sounded in his heart, foreshadowing that what was to follow was no longer a heartwarming story, but a desperate hell.

Everything is normal.

Normal development, normal daily routine, normal date.

Even the little thoughts in their hearts are no different. The only difference is perhaps that this time Wei Liwei can realize love without feeling inferior.

This is a good thing and a necessity.

The wounds will always be repaired.

No matter what you have been through, as long as you can be properly comforted, the inner trauma is destined to be filled and buried gradually with the passage of time.

Apart from……

——Aliceia.

Usually, the fairy-like girl's appearance is basically in the format of "If I do this, what's the difference between me and the original Alicia?"

This was the first time since the birthday party that Alicia was mentioned in a normal way, rather than as an example to warn himself.

'But if something unexpected happens one day, I am forced to separate from the boy, and he is forced to bear the pain of the disappearance of the most important person.'

'Perhaps by that time, even if they are the relatives of the successor, it should be a necessary means to fill the emptiness in the boy's heart.'

Velvet...

What do you want to do?

Jiang Cheng tried his best to suppress the strange emotions, and gently turned the next page with his fingertips - it was different from the previous complete ones. Even with the high-tech craftsmanship of this notebook, it still looked rough and covered with dust that shouldn't be there.

The notebook is very tightly closed when it is closed normally, and it is almost impossible for too much dust to appear in the gap between pages.

Unless dust is sprinkled on the diary while it is open, it is possible that it will remain intact after the diary is closed.

This is just a corner, and in more places one can even feel a sense of stickiness, as if it was stuck by something sticky.

Is there something inside that cannot be seen by others, or even needs to be glued down with something?

Why should you hide things in a private diary?

Jiang Cheng took a deep breath and used the energy of collapse to carefully tear open the stuck pages of the book, using the power of gravity to separate the stuck parts bit by bit.

The connection is not tight, it is only because of time and the characteristics of the diary that the two pages almost overlap and become one.

If it is something secret, this method of preservation is too rough even for ordinary people. There is no smell of glue, only a slight fishy smell.

His teeth were tightly clenched, as if he had anticipated the change in emotions. The creaking sound of the unconscious friction was particularly obvious in the silent ruins, and even his dark pupils became solemn unconsciously.

Until the moment it was completely torn apart, solemnity turned into dullness, and then suddenly contracted, reflecting chaotic handwriting that was different from the beautiful past.

There was no glue, nor any other adhesive, and Weiwei hadn't written anything shameful that needed to be hidden secretly.

This is what provides adhesion, not just glue in the universal sense.

--is blood.

——It was blood that was dark purple, almost black.

……

It may seem cowardly to say this.

You will definitely be disappointed.

But I really can't imagine my life after losing you. Just thinking about it makes me feel a pain starting from the bottom of my heart and spreading throughout my body.

It was as if all the nerves in my body were gradually pulled out, and my heart was punched hard. The feeling was sad and indescribable.

I know it's not good to escape, I know I have to face difficulties, and I know you have been trying to boost my confidence so that I can face these things.

sorry……

I'm really sorry.

No matter how hard I tried, no matter how I forced myself not to think, I was completely unable to face these emotions, unable to face that possibility.

You definitely won't care about these things. Even if I've always been so incompetent, you will definitely touch my head and continue to encourage me and help me. But anything is fine, anything is fine, I'm willing to do it, and I'll try my best to do it, except for that one thing, the possibility of losing you...

——I really can’t face it.

The feeling of having my heart squeezed, the weakness and pain in my limbs, I can't help crying whenever I think about the possibility of losing you.

Dear Jiangcheng.

It seems that I still disappoint you.

I'm sorry...I failed to live up to your kindness.

Living alone is really hard, and I don’t want to experience it a second time.

This plan I prepared just for this purpose, something I haven't even told you about, is probably the saddest backup plan I've ever devised.

Even when I was designing it, I never thought that this would really be used one day, and the disaster brought by the collapse would really be so fierce and terrifying.

The bow contains some things I prepared for Alicia. When I die completely, she will replace everything I have and trample me completely.

I believe she will do this. Although there is no movement, I can actually vaguely feel that Alicia is by our side.

That girl actually cares about you very much, but her mind may be more twisted than mine, and her schizophrenia may be much more serious than mine.

If Alicia was here.

Even I can definitely be replaced.

You will never have the chance to see this diary, because I believe that as long as I say the words "give me the last bit of dignity", you will never trample on me, and no matter how painful it is, you will suppress the sadness in your heart.