Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

I obviously respect her, but she can do such a thing that disrespects Jiang Cheng.

Why add to meaningless things?

what……

Judging from the time, Alicia should be here soon.

Because he has no ability to suppress himself, anyone with a little understanding of the characteristics of a Herrscher can know his position.

I had never decided to run away from home completely and give up my life again. My initial departure was essentially just due to an accident.

If it weren't for Aponia, the boy might still be quietly lying in the eternal paradise, waiting for the girl to come home.

Although no one in this world would take the initiative to explore the existence of a disaster like the Herrscher, as Alicia's partner, if he disappeared in the town when she left, people would definitely rush to find him.

Judging from the way Alicia sticks to him and how much she cares about him, he would probably jump up and down in anxiety if he didn't see her even for a second.

Even if she ignored the expression of love for herself, accepting Vivi's request would not allow the girl to do anything wrong.

Come to think of it, Alicia didn't stick to me every day and every night before. She would occasionally disappear for a while every once in a while.

It won’t be too long, just a few hours. After reading the diary for such a long time, Alicia should come back no matter what.

But what if he came back?

Are we going to continue to play deaf and dumb like this?

Now I am...

I know everything.

Can we really live the same life as before?

……

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The temperature here is minus 10 degrees Celsius. I wonder what the temperature is like in your country?

Take good care of your health.

Chapter of Stars and Moon: 127. Alicia wants to kill herself

Eternal paradise.

A town that can be described as fairy tale and perfect.

There is no oppression or exploitation, no inequality of any kind, and the god-like supreme being will treat the majority of people living there fairly.

None of the few who hold unfair power have a tainted heart and would use their position to cause any harm.

Even the so-called philosopher king in the ideal country and the absolutely benevolent and wise monarch in The Prince cannot achieve the comprehensive development of the six-dimensional attributes.

Powerful strength, unreachable life, wisdom to almost never do stupid things in normal matters, and tolerance and love.

Even in a normal world, this place can still be called a paradise sought after by countless people, let alone a world where most of the planet is covered by destruction and the remaining humans can only hide in small cities.

The already beautiful flowers blooming on the ruins only make them look more dreamy and even more strange, as if they shouldn't exist in this cruel world.

Just like the one who created it.

It is absolutely not something that humans can do.

It is absolutely not something that humans can transcend.

The Master of Paradise, the Goddess of the Stars and Moon, the Fairy of Paradise, the Herrscher of Origin, the Being that Can Transcend Fate, the Strongest Individual in the World... Just the titles collected are enough to talk about for three days and three nights.

She was a girl who could only be described as perfect no matter how you looked at her, full of kindness and gentleness, her heart as flawless as her appearance.

The soul has long been close to complete. No matter how imperfect it is, it will not be harmed in any way as it is isolated from all wind and sand in the greenhouse.

Living in the paradise I have always longed for and being able to hug the first person I see when I come into this world is already the biggest dream.

Since you have already got everything you wanted.

No matter what, I should never be sad again, and I should never feel despair again.

Just at this moment, the girl who usually hums an unknown ballad and looks for her lover stands blankly on the edge of the town.

It was so pure that it seemed to reflect the beauty of the starry sky that only belonged to fairy tales. The dreamy eyes composed of pure pink were empty and dull.

The cruelty that is enough to destroy the beauty demonstrates its existence.

——Jiang Cheng is gone!

It wasn't a prank, a love game, or even going out to play with Padua Felice; it was truly gone.

The boy could not be found anywhere, not in the bed, in the closet, under the quilt, in the living room or bathroom, not even in the alley where Padre Felice would lie down to take a nap, or in the bustling street where people were coming and going.

Nothing has changed anywhere, and similarly, the girl cannot find the most important person to her anywhere.

Everything here is normal. Everyone is living their usual life. The seasons rotate as scheduled, and the flowers and leaves are swirling in the wind.

But what is missing is the boy who would greet the girl enthusiastically when she comes back.

How……

how……

what happened? !

How could Jiang Cheng suddenly disappear?

do not know.

Only at this moment, Alicia could no longer get any response from anyone, and even her own heart seemed to be completely dead and silent.

The flower petals, the crowd, and the gently gliding birds all disappeared without a trace. The slender and soft body suffered such a great impact that only a buzzing sound remained in her head, and the girl's eyes turned into a flickering blank.

He lost all control over his body, and in an instant the whole world seemed to be spinning. His plump and tender legs, which were strong enough to climb mountains, suddenly became as soft as their appearance, and he succumbed helplessly - until the moment he reacted, his upper body was curled up in despair, and his miserable posture was like a lame deer that had lost its companion.

A cry almost like that of a young animal came out of the cherry-colored lips, and the sweet and smiling voice could only convey that sadness perfectly.

It was as if someone was pinching her slender neck fiercely, the remaining air was squeezed out helplessly, and she collapsed to the ground in a funny and pitiful manner.

From the tips of her ears to her toes, everything that made up her body was violently convulsing and trembling under the violence of reality.

This is not good.

It's more than not good.

--despair.

——Desperate situation.

——Dead end.

It symbolizes the most terrifying thing, the thing that one is most reluctant to explore, the thing that one is most reluctant to face, the thing that makes one feel like dying just thinking about it... no, something that is more terrifying than death.

I have searched all places in the eternal paradise and questioned everyone, regardless of whether they might be related to Jiang Cheng's sudden disappearance.

Still no trace of her was found. Apart from what Padofelice had said about the boy having met Aponia, there was no other useful information.

The nun, who was so hateful that she didn't even want to take him in, would only kneel before the statue and confess, and wouldn't give any answer no matter what she asked.

Jiang Cheng was not someone who would wander around on his own. The farthest he had ever left the town was just to fight a Honkai beast with Qianjie.

Judgment-level monsters cannot be arrogant in front of the Herrscher for even a second, and the longest time and distance they can escape are both extremely small numbers.

That's all.

But at this moment...

what……

It seems to be pointing to only the last one.

It seems that the only one that can be explored is the last one.

——Back mountain.

That was the beginning of the second life of Alicia, hiding a truth that must never be discovered or known by anyone else.

Just a few hours...

why?

I clearly told you not to go.

Jiang Cheng wouldn't even go to explore that place!

Jiang Cheng is not the kind of person who doesn't listen to others!

The girl was like a little villain who was easily defeated after trying her best. She knelt on the ground, doubting everything and looking for explanations and excuses for herself.

Meaningless.

There's no point in deceiving yourself any more.

Now the only person I can deceive is myself.

No matter how weak her body was, no matter how much she dared not face the boy's gaze, she could only hold on with a body that would fall to its knees at the mere touch, crying and begging the boy not to leave.

The defense that is thinner than paper will break with just a slight poke. It is so tempting that makes people feel pity for it, and it has really spread its legs like a small fish.

Every time I move forward, a white light flashes in my vision as if I am crossing the gates of hell, and my uncontrollable thoughts are running at high speed every moment.

No one can resolve this shock from within oneself. Even Qianjie can only watch from afar with gritted teeth.

I should have studied psychology earlier.

damn it!

For the second time in his life, this young man, who was oppressed to the extreme by heavy responsibilities but always found joy in suffering, encountered a problem that was completely unsolvable.

All they could do was watch helplessly as the sad and miserable girl, who was already unconscious and making hoarse sounds, walked step by step into the forest behind the mountain.

……

This place is still as beautiful as ever. After the renewal and reform of authority, the dead branches, broken leaves and rotten mud have all disappeared.

There is only the dream of spring all year round, and the pond with gently ripples is connected to the sky during the day, reflecting another sun on the ground.

The gentle breeze and the green leaves play the music from nature, and the dancing flowers are as gorgeous as those in the movie of fairy tale princesses.

The story should be pushed into a dreamy melody when the climax comes, but it doesn't seem appropriate at this moment. With the girl kneeling on the ground, there is only a dim fairy who looks like she is completely dead in her gorgeous starry eyes, as if the supreme god has a bad taste in using the girl's desperate wails as accompaniment.

Because this would be a worse outcome than meeting Jiang Cheng under the tree in the back mountain, and the young man happened to open his weapon and listen to all the messages.

——There is no one under the dreamy light and shadow.

Even under a tree.

Even if your secret has been discovered.

Everything could still be salvaged, even if it meant telling more lies for that glimmer of hope.

And under the deserted tree in front of him, there was only the breath left by the young man when he left, and the awakened tune was still playing over and over again.

This can only mean that the boy is no longer limited to an unintentional exploration of the past, but has truly embarked on a journey to find everything about the past.

It was not until the feeling of suffocation that almost brought death came that I was able to take a short break from the endless mental torture in the ocean through the physical pain.

Suffocation in the true sense of the word.

The body was struggling and the chest was rising and falling violently.

Snatch a little bit of air from the throat that was almost tightened to a tiny point.

The slender hands had grasped the swan's white neck at some point, and the girl could even hear the muffled cry from her own cervical vertebrae.

The ripples formed by the accumulation of dew next to him clearly reflected his posture at this moment. His struggling body looked ridiculous because of the natural harm he suffered from himself, and he looked particularly funny because of the blood rushing up to his red face due to suffocation.

This is the remaining desire to survive.

An ability that all living things naturally possess.

A body that has experienced too much despair and sorrow will find a glimmer of hope in despair, and the method of retaining it for even just a moment is engraved into its instinct.

Just like the self-harm of patients with mental illness, it is essentially a physical way of sharing the burden, and a certain degree of relief comes from the mental pain.