Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

This is not a good thing. Just like a person who has completely decided to commit suicide will feel fear at the moment he decides to jump off a cliff, the emotion at this moment conflicts with the inner sadness and will make it even more painful.

perhaps……

Dying here would be a better option.

That way you don't have to face the facts that follow.

It would be nice if the Herrscher could be strangled to death.

When he regained consciousness, the slender, white and soft fingertips not only did not leave the slender neck, but instead increased their strength.

Red marks that would make anyone feel pity appeared on the jade-like skin, the overlapping fingerprints symbolized the master's brutality, and the pair of eyes that were gently raised with only sadness in them ignored the torture on himself without a trace of ripples.

It's ultimately meaningless.

It only took three seconds for me to naturally adapt to the feeling of suffocation. There was no pain at all, only a slight feeling of oppression.

It's like having your wrist tightly pinched, it's not the excessive force of others, but your wrist being tightly grasped by your own hand.

The pain caused by this action is so miserable that it can't even relieve the pain in my heart a little bit, let alone make me cry out in pain.

Its physical characteristics far surpass those of humans, and it can almost be called a god from the perspective of ordinary people. Even if it is strangled to death, it is at most just a violation of some common sense of human beings.

Moreover, even among the Herrschers, the authority held by the Herrscher named Origin is only second to the highest crystallization of the Cocoon - the End.

For Alicia now, this is the saddest thing. Even if she wants to commit suicide, she can't choose to escape.

If you can't do it when you are extremely excited and under the greatest shock, then you will be even less likely to choose to escape from reality when you have calmed down a little.

I even...

Have I lost even this method of escape?

……

death.

A noun that doesn't sound nice.

It is a word that has been constantly stigmatized and deified over a long period of time, and exists as the greatest fear of individuals in human history.

No matter how many changes it has gone through, whether it is feared as evil or regarded as the inevitable operation of the universe and a change that complies with common sense, the essence of the existence called death will never change because of man.

There is complete silence, and there is no connection with the world anymore. The sound of the wind cannot be heard, and the flowers cannot be seen blooming. All acts of commemoration from others are just to comfort the sad self inside.

Similarly, death is the most complete escape from this world, as it is equivalent to this complete disappearance and the inability to feel all the beauty.

This is the most courageous and cowardly choice a person can make when he is most desperate and sees no hope at all.

Capable of facing the greatest despair and fear known to mankind, but incapable of facing a life that no longer has any meaning and has no possibilities at all.

The moment you decide to muster up the courage to rush towards death, all the disasters you have experienced in life and all the destruction you have to face will be eclipsed.

——This seems to sound contradictory.

——This world is inherently contradictory.

The greatest fear on the material level does not necessarily mean it is also the greatest fear on the psychological level. Sometimes, for some people who are extremely exhausted and even living itself is torture, silence is actually a good thing.

Staying alive can be a blessing, a wish to look forward to embarking on a wonderful journey, or it can be a curse, to continue to survive in this cruel world.

This is so confusing that it cannot be described simply in words. It is necessary to combine everything that the individual has experienced, everything that he has felt, and what is in his heart to truly analyze the unique meaning of death to that person.

But for the girl, this greatest resistance and the most cowardly escape that everyone should have is a complete luxury.

Unable to die.

Can't die.

It is completely impossible to die.

……

I feel that it is a bit too cruel and desperate for Alicia. This simulated regret... is enough to reach the point of death. Am I writing it a bit too much?

Chapter of the Moon and the Stars: 128. Alicia: It's over, it's over.

Even if he took advantage of the most emotional moment to commit an act of self-harm, the body of the god-like Herrscher could not be harmed by such a physical blow, not even the slightest bit of weakness.

There is almost no way in this world to hurt the girl, and her already expanding power has reached an astronomical figure with the development of technology.

When this power even exceeds imagination, and goes against the original trend, how can a girl who is not a warrior, has not experienced so many battles, and focuses more on emotions, love, and struggle do it...

——Kill the gods?

The instinctive struggle of the cooked and rotten thighs drove the jelly-like soft flesh, which could not be suppressed even by the tight wrapping of white silk, and instead some flesh color could be seen.

The slender fingertips had to loosen up in the end, and the flawless arms like white jade hung down weakly, leaving only the deep red mark on the swan's neck.

With such a strong desire to not care about life and even to die, her delicate skin has already turned purple, which is enough to make people feel pity.

Every rise and fall of the overly full chest seemed violent, eager to supply life-giving oxygen to the poor neck that was suffocating.

It was only on the surface. The life of the Herrscher would not be interrupted in the slightest by such behavior, and it would not cause anything that could be called harm.

When even death, the last and most absolute means of escape, is lost, what kind of endless disaster will life experience?

Alicia once heard a story about an immortal man who was poured into concrete and thrown into the ocean.

The concrete walls, which were so narrow that there was not even a shred of space for movement, made escape impossible. Drifting in the endless ocean meant there was absolutely no chance of being rescued, searched, or salvaged by anyone.

So for that person.

Immortal...

Instead, it became a painful thing.

Every moment of life is a moment of death, and death becomes the only peace. When you wake up again, the suffocation from lack of oxygen will come again. In a world where there is no hope, there is only endless pain and despair.

That person didn't even have a chance to escape, nor the possibility of dying completely. He could only live endlessly in the concrete without a trace of light, suffocating continuously and rushing towards death.

Until one day you become so numb that you regard this pain as the norm, until one day you completely lose your ability to think, and all the personality, thinking, and will accumulated in the past disappear without a trace.

This is an extremely long process. Before death in the personal sense, endless years of torture await the immortal person.

and so……

There is no choice anymore.

……

[Escape is meaningless, because except for choosing to die and sleep forever, all escapes in the world are just useless hide-and-seek. The thing called heart can never be deceived or escaped.]

[That delicate heart, the soul that has been broken and riddled with holes hidden under the gorgeous appearance, there is no way to hide it except to die completely. 】

[Death is an absolutely impossible luxury for you. Even if you rush into the core of the earth, you probably won't be able to die completely.]

[The over-expanded power reached a limit that even he himself did not know, and the indescribable nature crossed the critical point after the transaction was completed. ]

[You can't even kill yourself, Honkai Beasts may not even be able to touch you, and ordinary Herrschers can only cause some damage. ]

[You can only face the ending where you want to dig your heart out just thinking about the possibility of such a thing happening.]

[Option 1: Embrace your fate.]

[Option 2: Embrace your mistakes.]

[Option 3: Welcome your end.]

It's finished. ...

——The depths of my head were screaming in despair.

It was as if a talkative mynah bird was circling the girl, announcing an established fact, its dry and rough voice telling of the arrival of death in a harsh and ridiculous manner.

Thoughts, will, and even personality were suffocated by this sudden disaster. Everything that constituted 'Alishia' was so easily crushed.

click-

Something broke deep inside.

The slender fingers fell down weakly and hit the cold floor heavily. The sound of the knuckles was loud enough to echo throughout the room. On the swan-like white neck was the same horrific mark as on the other self.

The punishment for herself was to make her want to die completely, and the urgent breathing coming from those cherry-colored lips was the girl's sad and pitiful struggle.

Still struggling after all.

Still alive after all.

Long-term suffocation can only cause simple pain even for a girl walking in the world as a human being.

The pain of suffocation, the pain of brain lack of oxygen... Although all of this was not as severe as the fainting white spots and flashbacks that appeared in the pink eyes when seeing everything in front of it, as if the brain was almost completely dead.

what……

I can't die.

Even if you are not a Herrscher, you cannot die. Even if you do not embrace your own authority, you cannot die.

'Alishia' is a monster that will never end, will never die, and will always bring disaster to everything around it.

No matter what you do, you will never be able to accomplish it. No matter how hard you try or how strictly you guard yourself, things will always go wrong in incomprehensible ways.

The options no longer have any meaning.

From the third time on, there was no more.

There are almost no choices in daily life. Once you start to be given choices, it means that the beautiful and peaceful life is completely disrupted.

When this only thing left is broken, is there really any other choice?

Or……

From that day on.

Are there really any other options among the three given?

……

[You move forward step by step, having lost all feeling, your legs rise and fall like building blocks, without any vitality.]

[Every step seemed to fabricate space, accompanied by the blooming of flowers and the trajectory of stars and moons, but there was no spirit in the eyes. ]

[The original town, the peaceful people, the roads we once walked on, the journey we took together, those are all the bits and pieces of the past. ]

[The familiar mountains and rivers, although they have lost all signs of life, leaving behind only the spectacular scenery, will no longer be inhabited by life. ]

[You took one step at a time, streaking across the sky like a dazzling meteor, tearing apart the dark clouds suppressed by the endless collapse beasts, and walked towards the earth again with the light of the morning sun, until the place that recorded the second happiest time in your miserable life appeared at the end of your vision.]

[In the old base of the Fire Moth, which has been worn down by time to the point where no trace of its past can be seen, only that familiar building can still be distinguished at a glance no matter how devastating the damage it has experienced. ]

【Jiangcheng is right there.】

[Standing quietly, holding a torn diary. ]

[The clothes belonging to the Herrscher, with a slightly dark windbreaker swaying, a high-density sphere like a black hole rotates along the radius of his body. ]

[Like your stars, moons, and flowers, they symbolize the power that controls gravity, and the bright star-like decorations sway in the urgent wind. ]

[You know the posture of a Herrscher, a pattern that will only be unconsciously displayed when entering a combat state or when emotionally excited.]

[If necessary, it can also be used as daily wear, but except for the moment of birth, you have never seen this outfit on a boy. 】

[It is not enough for an individual to appear in such a short time to fight against the boy. The reason for this posture can only be the latter. 】

[Being deceived by the person you trust the most, even the kindest person will feel angry. 】

[Jiang Cheng... has never been a person of unlimited tolerance. ]

[It is different from everything you thought and imagined, and different from the disappointed faces or even angry rebukes you expected to see.]

[After a brief hesitation, the young man still raised his right hand slightly, his gentle smile seemed to have never changed, and even his dark eyes did not show any expected blame or disgust.]

"Alicia..."

"Good morning."

"You are still as beautiful today."

……

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