Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Even to this gentle greeting there was no response.

The endless sound of the wind that still passed through the ruins outlined miserable notes, and as it passed through the broken walls, it sounded as sharp as the howling of ghosts and wolves.

Alicia just uttered the statement in a flat tone, without any unnecessary movements. She stood there, just standing there, without any emotion, looking at him with her dead and gray eyes.

"you……"

"You already know everything..."

"All the shameless lies I told."

——It doesn’t make sense.

Even the whole family has been omitted.

——It doesn’t make sense.

Even the act of apologizing was ignored.

——It’s meaningless anyway.

I just need to wait to die here. Even Jiang Cheng will not tolerate such an excessive thing. After hearing his words of hatred and disappointment in me, I will die completely in my heart.

In one step, fast forward to the numbness that the immortal person in the story will eventually reach, and not being able to die is equivalent to being truly dead.

As long as you are completely numb and have no hope, then staying where you are and giving up thinking can also achieve a silence and escape similar to death.

Faced with this despair that was so obvious that even an incompetent idiot could recognize it, the boy's face was a little dull, as if it was difficult for him to understand such a change for a moment, but then the corners of his mouth pursed into a serious expression.

"I'm very sorry. I broke my promise to you and did such a dangerous thing alone by running to the old base of the Fire Moth."

"I know that simply apologizing after doing something wrong is a very hollow thing, but if possible, I still hope that you can accept my apology."

"This is probably the first... no, the second time I've broken a promise to someone in my life. Can you please let it go just because you lied too?"

……

Jiang Cheng was actively changing the subject.

Avoid the part that would make Alicia feel painful.

She apologized before everyone else, pressing her palm against her chest with the dress, and her slightly bent waist was enough to prove her sincerity.

——It’s meaningless.

The cherry-pink pupils were still as beautiful as ever, and the prism in the middle seemed like cherry blossoms had fallen into them in spring, leaving behind a touch of brilliance that belonged to Xi. However, that familiarity concealed an incomprehensible look.

That was an emotion that Jiang Cheng could not understand or see at all, and it was impossible to analyze it simply based on the experience retained in his memory...

——The color of despair.

"You already know everything I have done. The girl I deliberately concealed from you, Wei Wei...she is actually your true partner."

"We didn't travel together for long, we didn't stay together all the time, and I lost you a long time ago because of my stupidity."

"I couldn't even give you a blessing, and I just escaped to the bathroom alone. Moreover, because of my incompetence, you lost Wei Wei and everything."

"Even now I am only imitating her, whether it is the whole ○ scholar sitting down or something else, it is just the most clumsy imitation."

"That is true love that runs in both directions. There is only each other in your eyes. Even the person who doesn't understand love will feel deeply warmed."

"I should have thought of this day a long time ago. I have never been worthy of living by your side since I made this choice. No matter what you are going to do next, I... have no right to deny it."

"I'm really sorry. As the heroine of the story, I messed up the world I love so much. I must be terrible for being like this."

"You don't need to care about anyone anymore. Please do what you want to do."

……

Her slender fingers pointed at the ruined spiral workshop in the distance. She said she gave up, but her pupils clearly reflected the young man who was so close to her. She was unwilling to move her eyes away even a little bit, and only pretended to be calm on her face. On the cross-section of the floor not far away, the newly born Breakthrough-class rested there, quietly watching the truth coming, chirping non-stop.

It seemed as if he had already imagined the end of everything in his mind, and now he was unwilling to even glance at the boy, as if he greedily wanted to see everything.

Anyway, what will happen in the end cannot be changed, so he might as well transform himself into a villain and stare at the boy fiercely.

There is no need to hide anything, to expose all one's sins nakedly, and there is no need to pretend to be the perfect girl like in the past.

This is Alicia.

A faded goblin after experiencing multiple despairs.

A villain who has impersonation etched into his instincts.

……

PS: It’s broken, it’s broken, completely broken—the girl’s heart declared so, as if a starling was circling around her, and from deep in her heart came a sound as if something was broken.

Although strictly speaking, the only wrong things that Alicia did were her indifference at the beginning and some perversion later on, the rest could not be considered complete mistakes.

Chapter of Stars and Moon: 129. Dead, Alicia is dying

"Dear Ellie, the reason you hid my past from me is because you didn't want me to be sad."

Jiang Cheng put his hand on his chest, and what came out of his lips were purely rational thoughts, reasons created based on the one-sided beauty of the past.

There was no change in the dark eyes as he watched the slight trembling of the slender fingertips, with that pretentious, false indifference.

"Please don't deny it. Lying is very difficult for you. A girl like you will feel uncomfortable just deceiving others."

"You don't need to suppress the pain in your heart and tell lies that will make you sad. I already know everything that happened in the past."

"It was Vivi's last words that entrusted me to you. The last plan that girl prepared was to keep me alive after her death."

"I have no feelings anymore, but I feel sad just by looking at the diary. If the past had not been concealed, I would have gone completely crazy facing the empty room and the lost lover."

"You really don't need to add any psychological burden to yourself. I'm not so angry that I would get frustrated even over some white lies, let alone a lie that was accepted by everyone from the beginning."

“There is indeed absolute black and white in this world, but after black and white are forced to be confused, some gray will inevitably appear.”

"You don't have to worry that I will hate you just because of such a small thing. Don't worry, even if this thing is a little worse, I will forgive it."

……

Unlimited forgiveness.

Unlimited tenderness.

Unlimited tolerance.

There was a sound of wind in Alicia's ears, and she turned around subconsciously. What was approaching was a bullet, the bullet that she had fired when she was stupid and ignorant.

Until now, the ridiculousness of covering one's ears and stealing the bell has once again been fully exposed.

what……

what……

what……

So this is ah……

So this is ah.

So this is ah!

So the biggest mistake I have ever made in my life, the greatest blasphemy against that gentle and ordinary boy, had been revealed from the very beginning?

No matter how slow she was, the girl should have realized the mistake that had been repeated countless times and appeared before her eyes in the most decisive manner.

--mistake.

This gentleness is the biggest mistake.

This morbid gentleness is the biggest problem.

Terrifyingly gentle.

The emotions in the eyes are just like the starry sky captured by a camera. Although still bright, the twinkling of the stars only stays for a moment. The empty beauty will never change and will never have any changes.

That young man has never been someone who would yield and tolerate without limits. If we must use some specific words to describe him, ordinary and commonplace would be more appropriate than perfect and gentle.

A not-so-remarkable heart, not-so-remarkable love, not-so-remarkable gentleness. He is neither that kind nor that evil. He just happens to have ordinary people's morals and ordinary people's possessiveness.

He would not simply be tolerant. Even for Wei Erwei, Jiang Cheng would sometimes punish her to make her remember it.

When Vilvi falls into excessive self-pity and cannot be awakened by comfort and verbal persuasion, some physical methods must be used.

Whether it is the contact between the palm and soft flesh, making the flawless white jade skin stained with a bit of hot red, or the use of some special props.

Jiang Cheng would never tolerate everything done by others and would not take any action to retaliate or punish them.

Although most of the time punishment is used instead of verbal reprimands, it is out of consideration for the girl's wishes and her inferiority complex and inner weakness. It does not mean that the boy is overly kind. It is just that there is no need to be so absolute and cause such great harm to his lover.

For people with a damaged and unhealthy mental state, mental denial and criticism far outweigh physical pain.

If one day Wei Liwei really did something that was excessive and irreparable and went against her inner feelings, even Jiang Cheng would be disappointed.

I will be punished.

I will definitely be punished.

This was something Alicia firmly believed in her heart until she took her first step.

The punishment resulting from this level of deception is no longer limited to being humorous, and will definitely be evaluated in a hateful way.

Unlike Vivi...

Jiang Cheng would not intentionally reverse the severity of the punishment.

Verbal criticism and actual punishment were the normal levels of severity. Even if possible, the girl longed to be severely beaten.

Negative comments and mental criticism are really too cruel. Even if I know I should bear them, I don’t want to bear them at all.

But it was not until this moment that the strong feeling of inhumanity really hit her, and the bullet that she had shot bravely, foolishly and fearlessly in the past hit the girl at this moment.

Things that had been cleverly avoided and unintentionally ignored all along, finally at this moment, there was no chance to close or cover my eyes anymore.

Can an individual who has lost his emotions, who has been stripped of his own emotions and can only rely on experience to act, really be called a complete individual?

Isn't the existence of a person itself composed of all past experiences, character, soul, and all the emotions deep in the heart?

——What on earth did I do!!!

Why can you still be so gentle?

Why can you still forgive yourself?

The tenderness shown by the boy made the girl even more painful.

Even if you have lost your feelings and your attitude towards the memories of the past is like that of a bystander, you will still be sad because of your own sadness, and because you don’t like your own sadness, you will ask how to make yourself happy.

This strong feeling of inhumanity is essentially the foreshadowing of everything in the past. Unlike the emotionless Herrscher, it is so gentle that it seems to be suffocating.

Even though it is filled with the inhumanity of a monster, this special nature is derived from the accumulation of everything in the past and the resentment it has never had before.

If Jiang Cheng had felt even a little bit of disgust or anger because of his behavior, it would be impossible for him to be so gentle now.

Such a perfect boy...

Such an outstanding young man...

How could she, because of such selfishness and shamelessness, hurt others again and again, destroy the other person's happiness again and again, even to death, even the eternal sleep that originally belonged to everyone was shamelessly disturbed.

This unlimited forgiveness and inhuman sense of alienation are in themselves the greatest insult to the boy, imprisoning his soul in this body.

What exactly should I do to make up for it?

What can I do to stop this pain? !

What can I do to repay all that I owe, because the initial stupidity has caused me to suffer grief that will last my entire life.

It is unacceptable, absolutely unacceptable.

Because this would break the last straw and destroy the last bit of shelter, and the last bit of rightness that the girl insisted on would be gone.

No matter how despicable the thing is, it is okay because it is Wei Wei's request, and it is for the purpose of resurrecting Jiang Cheng. Even if it is to deceive Jiang Cheng, even if it is to falsify information, this is something that has been accepted from the beginning.

Wei Liwei expected me to make Jiang Cheng forget her and the pain of the past. The emotion contained in that message was undoubtedly true.

Jiang Cheng definitely didn't want to die at the last moment.

It was only because I was a step late that I couldn't save it.

It is only because of my inability to change my dullness that I can only die in pain.