Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

I don't need to become a real villain. I can have it all if I become more like an ordinary person and a little more selfish.

Jiang Cheng's love, Jiang Cheng's forgiveness, a beautiful and happy life... these are the beautiful things that a person named Alicia longed for throughout her life when she came to this world.

The dream that this heart holds, the paradise that this name represents, only at this moment, the biggest dream has already been within reach.

The only thing that could be compared to this moment was before the birthday party. Now, I could just reach out and touch the boy standing in front of me.

I have already spent two years with Jiang Cheng and experienced the beauty of two years. Do I really want to let go of this happiness so easily?

I really……

Is it necessary to be so harsh on yourself?

At the last moment of making the decision, at the last moment of showing her strength, Alicia, who thought she had awakened, still hesitated, and her heart, which had long been immersed in a complete human being, showed weakness.

Unlike when he resurrected Wei Erwei, he was willing to give everything he had without hesitation, and even his fingertips holding the flowers were trembling slightly.

In the pink-blue eyes, the shooting star that seemed to have burned everything still retained some attachment to the world and the desire to be loved.

Unlike before when I was just the companion of my childhood sweetheart, I was now forced to stay away from him which I couldn’t even control, and could only watch from afar as a third party.

During these two years, the girl truly lived with her lover, experiencing the beauty of the world and the fragrance of flowers together.

This feeling is completely incomparable to the past life. A bystander separated by a layer of glass can never truly experience the beauty of the flowers.

Only by walking in a garden full of blooming flowers, stepping carefully on the fresh green leaves, and feeling a petal flying in the wind like a butterfly, can you truly realize the reality of this beauty from the bottom of your heart.

People can easily give up what they cannot get, by belittling and trampling on it, but they can never give up everything they already have.

Even if it is just a trivial thing, the instinctive possessiveness will still make every human being naturally have the desire to dominate everything.

That is why sharing is a virtue.

That is why sacrifice is noble.

Just like the seven deadly sins and the seven virtues.

The courage that is worth promoting is the ability to transcend human nature, to suppress one's own desires, and to become one's own enemy.

Alicia is already too close to being a human. Every beat of her heart is sometimes joyful, sometimes sad, sometimes lonely, and sometimes excited.

All emotions are no different from those of humans, all love is the same as that of ordinary people, including negative emotions that have long been mature.

Even such a stupid person, after experiencing a life of displacement and beatings, should have evolved some resistance and understanding to match it.

Even humans who have all emotions and desires from birth cannot control their desires, so what about fairies who learn them later in life?

Can someone who has never had it and has spent his entire life chasing after what he wants most really let it go so easily after getting it?

I have been looking at the flowers outside the greenhouse for so long, and I have been pressing my face against the cold glass to look at the gifts in the window. When the time comes, can I really give up everything I already have just by escaping?

Anyway, Jiang Cheng’s indifference is only part of it. The lack of emotion is only towards others. My own wish has been fulfilled intact.

Even if you will always forgive yourself, you can punish yourself in the name of love.

The Herrscher's body can explain the barbs on the whip.

At worst, I can just disguise myself as a tremor.

There are countless better options for solving the problem. There is no need to act in the most desperate manner. Jiang Cheng will definitely not be happy, right?

Having already experienced Wei Erwei's self-sacrifice, the gentle Jiang Cheng would absolutely not be able to accept or tolerate something like this happening again.

I have already experienced the pain of losing all the important people, so there is really no need to let the boy experience it for something insignificant.

Why……

Why hurt yourself like this?

In fact, no one would be so harsh on me.

Even Mebius had accepted all of this, even though she knew what was going on now.

Yes, everyone accepts it, and everyone will admit it. There is no one in this world who will deny this feeling.

Mebius always says that if I'm not capable, she will take over, but in fact, he has already accepted all this in his heart.

Even if they knew that I secretly harbored despicable wishes when I resurrected Jiang Cheng, there would be nothing you could do about the fact that the matter is irreversible, right?

Looking at the boy who, even though he had lost a lot of feelings and even forgot about her, still retained the last bit of feelings because of my wish and still had the essence of Jiang Cheng, the doctor, who was hard-mouthed but soft-hearted, could not be so cruel as to take away the last bit of Jiang Cheng.

No matter what, Jiang Cheng is still the same Jiang Cheng, the gentle boy who has never changed. Even if his gentleness is a bit false, the only thing that can prove it is that the person named Jiang Cheng has never had any resentment towards him in his life, so much so that even his memories cannot find the necessary material.

……

Isn't that why I do this?

It's not a very noble reason.

No noble motives are needed.

I just want to see the boy who brought me into this world.

The rosy lips unconsciously curled up, and the slightly powdered face was outlined with the splendor of blooming spring flowers, just like the first moment she came into the world.

There is no need to force yourself to laugh or to please others because of something else... To laugh, just think about happy things.

Velvet...

Is this what you were thinking when you left me your last words?

I can finally fully understand human beings.

……

All hesitation is shattered by being too close to human sins, and will eventually be completely eliminated by being too close to human virtues.

Just when the perfect flowers were blooming in that flawless light, a darker and deeper night sky suddenly descended, swallowing up all the light like a black hole. A hand gently pressed the flowers held in the girl's hands, with the fingertips tightly pressed against the back of her hand, forcing the blooming flowers to close.

why?

Wasn't there no order given?

Wasn't there any request for notification?

The boy's natural action without any prior signs caused the self-sacrifice that should have been smooth to be stuck for a moment, but before the fairy lady's mind was fully functioning, something more tense was imminent.

The power of origin is not something that can be simply terminated. Even if it is transformed into memory, it still has the ability to eliminate erosion in an instant.

In the original description, he was even born on the moon together with the End, possessing the power of guidance, and was an existence superior to ordinary Herrscher.

The flawless starlight was suppressed for only a moment, and then it had to resist the approaching pressure, tearing the heavy cosmic bodies apart with its hard power.

The gravitational force that can engulf light can also be limited by the difference in levels and sink to a higher power.

The reflection of the light even made the hand that the boy stretched out a little transparent, and the force of resistance had already climbed up along his fingertips.

But before that, the owner of the power stopped the counterattack in advance, and immediately put his slender fingertips together, trying to suppress the origin by force.

The moment Alicia realized the boy was approaching, she tried her best to stop her instinctive resistance and fought against herself together with the outsider.

No...

Jiang Cheng cannot be harmed.

There is not even a slight possibility.

There is no time to think about why Jiang Cheng has the initiative in this matter?

Forcefully recovering and interrupting the release of the original force, even if the body has to bear all the reaction force and lean back powerlessly, it is worth it.

Without any unnecessary thinking or wasting of time, all things that might bring danger were interrupted, causing the brilliance to disappear into the darkness.

The endless and deep darkness eventually swallowed up all the brilliance, and the slender fingertips were brought together and pressed against the white back of the hand that was steaming and cooked.

Alicia was forced to raise her face, and what she saw in her dreamy pink eyes, which already showed a bit of weakness and powerlessness, was the boy who was so close to her.

That overly calm face seemed to have a different charm, and the frivolous raised corners of the lips were the last scene that could be seen in the field of vision.

"Excuse me, could you please stop for a moment?"

"I am far from wanting to part ways with you now~?

……

The power was suddenly interrupted. The recoil was too much for the bruised and exhausted girl to bear. Her fleshy and rotten thighs went limp, and she felt the world spinning and she fell to the ground unconsciously.

His body, drained of all its strength, was in complete collapse. He couldn't even do something as simple as stretching out his hands to cover his face. He could only watch the dusty ground approaching him.

Not wanting to hurt the boy, he forcibly interrupted the energy as if every cell in his body was being cut with a saw.

I even...

Is there no way to do this?

It seemed that he had never thought of this possibility.

The girl bit her lips in self-blame, letting blood seep out from her white teeth, and her pink eyes almost formed circles that indicated she was fainting.

Subconsciously, the regret for not having done anything appeared in my heart again, turning into a sharp blade to hurt my fragile and bruised heart.

——It’s going to fail again.

There was no way to save Jiang Cheng, and the boy failed to regain his consciousness.

——It’s going to fail again!

He couldn't even give the young man freedom, and he couldn't even make up for his past mistakes, a wish that he shouldn't have had in the first place.

……

It was just a blink of an eye, and even the tail of the girl's thoughts had not completely dissipated from her mind. At that moment when the lingering sound turned into blankness, the coolness that had been deliberately removed came over with a bit of overly warm clothes.

Time seems to have stopped.

Just like the ground reflected in Feihua's eyes is no longer approaching.

Alicia could feel her falling hair almost reaching the ground, the ends of her hair lightly touching the smooth floor that had been scraped away by the Honkai energy.

But that’s all.

No longer downward.

Even a single cent.

The long pink hair stayed there without a trace of wind, and only the trembling of the body could prove that time had not stopped.

His sight turned slightly downward, and the established fact that he should have fallen to the ground in an almost straight line was suddenly rewritten by a force from the outside world.

The palm that was originally pressing lightly on the back of his hand turned over and caught the already suffocated and limp body steadily before it fell.

The broken petals about to fall changed the ending of being stuck in the mud.

"Eh?"

"Eh!"

In the brief moment when the girl was stunned, before she even had the chance to struggle, Jiang Cheng reached out and grabbed her knees. Alicia was completely lifted up, her feet off the ground, with no foothold left at all.

It's not that the girl has never experienced levitation before. As a Herrscher, she can fly and is not constrained by the earth's gravity. She can even do acrobatics in the air and perform actions that are unimaginable for normal people.

But even at this moment, when she was being dragged by someone with both hands and carried like a princess, the girl still felt dizzy.

This sudden large-scale physical contact, especially with the most important boy in her heart, was a very different kind of intimate contact from any other time point, and made Alicia almost faint.

The goblin was covered in wounds.

Even the personality is about to collapse.

But the feeling coming from the young boy was as mysterious and profound as the starry sky, as if it was billions of miles away and yet seemed extremely close at this moment, and as if the sun or the stars nearby were emitting their own light, which soothed the girl.

The instinctive tension of the body when suspended in the air and the sense of security of being so close intertwined made the girl even subconsciously call out in a cute voice.

"Ugh..."

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