Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

[Just now, when you experience the past with the boy, you find that all the troubles and pains have disappeared. ]

[It doesn’t matter…]

[Tomorrow doesn’t matter, the future doesn’t matter, whether there is hope or despair doesn’t matter, we can only stay at this moment. ]

[Compatibility or uncompatibility no longer exists in the mind. 】

[You are no longer qualified to have wild thoughts. ]

[You are never the one who can decide this question, so why think about something that you can't change no matter how hard you think about it? ]

[The only thought, the only thought left, is to go see more scenery with the boy, empty the mind, and experience the existence of a beautiful paradise. ]

……

……

PS: I suddenly discovered something. It seems that until now, Alicia has been truly with Jiang Cheng in her own way. She is not an imitator, nor does she wear a mask. She is truly with Jiang Cheng as Alicia.

It was not until now that I found my own unique happiness. Although it will end in two chapters, the only two years of peaceful time have been wasted by my own heart knot.

The inexplicable feeling is a bit too sad.

Is this a hell of a joke?

Chapter of Stars and Moon: 134. I am not the person you expected

[At the age of 33, your life has completely thrown off all the shackles, and all that remains is traveling together, to pursue the journey of your past. ]

[Any extra thoughts are meaningless, because you have clearly realized that you are never the one who can decide the choice. ]

[No matter what realization you have made, no matter what sacrifices you are determined to make, your courage will be drained away in a minute under the tenderness of the boy. ]

[Essentially, I am just an ordinary mortal, not much nobler than the ordinary people I see on the street. The feelings contained in my chest are the same as those of ordinary people, so how can they possibly compete with the warmth called the heart? ]

[If you really have no other way out, you would never think of the word sacrifice, and you would never choose to let go of the warmth you have now. ]

[As long as Jiang Cheng holds you in his arms, and the hot breath from his lips blows past your ears, your will and consciousness will melt away like bubbles meeting the sun, leaving only some seemingly gorgeous water marks.]

【Then don’t think too much about it. 】

[At least follow Jiang Cheng's idea. ]

【At least until your past catches up with you. 】

[You greet the dawn and sunset with him, as if you have returned to the warm and precious journey you once took.]

[We climbed the highest peaks, crossed the vastest oceans, hiked in the streams together, and stepped into the forests full of miasma, looking for each other's traces. We clearly have the power to find each other in an instant. ]

[But I don't need to do that. As an ordinary mortal, I pretend to be ignorant, and suddenly fly into the sky, penetrate the clouds, and look at the clear world. ]

[Even though some places have become ruins, that beautiful scenery has become a memory of the two of you, but, look, the sun is shining, the breeze is not dry, and after the harsh winter, new buds of hope are blooming on the scorched earth.]

[Even if the ground ravaged by the Honkai energy is so ravaged that even seeds cannot survive, you can still recreate the scenery of the past in the places you once knew. ]

[This power that has only brought disasters from the beginning seems to be able to truly help you and the young man at this moment.]

……

"It's really been destroyed beyond recognition."

"I remember that it was reduced to ashes by the eighth Herrscher who had the destructive power to burn everything. Even the clouds turned black."

Jiang Cheng stood there with his meaningless trekking pole, walking step by step in the simplest way along the edge of the scorching hillside that had been burned black.

Even if a long time has passed and there is not a breath of wind, when you step on this land you will still feel the heat piercing your shoes and burning the soles of your feet.

In my memory, there were countless roses growing here, and the intoxicating fragrance emitted by the wind could even spread for several miles around.

Even if it is a journey where you just walk and enjoy the scenery, it is definitely ranked among the top three. The only thing that can be compared to it is the Thousand Lakes Desert.

This beauty also made him and Alicia stay here for several days, just to appreciate the beauty of the roses all over the mountains under the influence of light at different time periods.

At noon, the sun was the hottest, even the bright red petals would be burned and wilt a little, and the slender branches with thorns were shaking, as if they would bend in the next second, and countless flowers were shaking.

It will be more wonderful if you come in the early morning or evening. Under the light, the rose bushes look like burning red clouds in the sky connecting the earth. The setting sun leaves long shadows. The distant sky is dotted with dim clouds. The afterglow of the setting sun reflects the mountains and waters, interweaving into a floating picture.

Unfortunately, too much time has passed, and now even the rose seeds and broken petals cannot be found here. The flowers have long been eroded by the Honkai energy and turned into mud, and it can't even nourish the soil.

It will not turn into spring mud to protect the flowers, because even the ground itself has been corroded by the Honkai energy and turned into wasteland, leaving no trace of life.

The collapse is indeed a complete disaster for this world, and a cruel and devastating blow to the planet itself that is almost irreparable.

This disaster doesn't even seem to be caused by humans, such as the pollution and damage caused by nuclear explosions, or storms and earthquakes caused by nature.

After all, these are just minor disturbances in the biosphere. As time goes by, everything will be smoothed out by time, and the planet will repair these scars.

The seemingly devastating damage is ultimately directed at the fragile human civilization. Even if the biosphere is completely destroyed, it will not be a big deal.

Collapse is the exact opposite. Once erosion occurs, it will take root underground. Unless the pollution is eliminated by other means, not even a trace of life can be nurtured. It cannot be eliminated by the so-called time.

"Sorry... just to the world."

"Is the Herrscher really just a big bad guy who brings disaster~?"

Alicia bit the corner of her lip gently. Just like the land that had lost its flowers, her heart, which had been scarred by time and the disaster called collapse, could no longer bloom with any brilliance or liveliness.

"It's just an insignificant sigh. Don't take it too seriously. After all, being alive is better than lying on the floor."

Jiang Cheng sighed softly and turned his head, suppressing the girl's apologetic tone and trying his best to dispel the sadness with the fairy smile in his memory.

"I understand. We are traveling now. We can't let these words disturb our mood~?"

No matter how big the gap is between the present and the past, it is not something that should be thought about now - Alicia, wearing a dress, gently stretched out her hand to block the strong wind that interfered with her vision. A hint of flesh-colored white socks could be seen through her dusty shoes, and her elf-like pointed ears were revealed in her pink hair lifted by the branches.

As if because the hair had been suffocating for too long, the earlobes were still warm and slightly red, as if one could vaguely see wisps of heat being emitted.

The small ornament that was originally clamped on the ear was removed, perhaps because it was too inconvenient, thus revealing the fair and rosy skin.

Although the roses are gone.

but……

Perhaps dusk will come.

Jiang Cheng raised his hand and just slightly raised his fingertips, and the sky covered by endless dark clouds was torn open directly, with stars twinkling and a Milky Way hanging down.

It is a force that is strong enough to swallow even the light, actively distorting this miracle that originally belongs only to nature, in order to give this miracle and beauty the name of man.

But in the flash of light, a sea similar to the filth of mucus flowed out, and just a few drops fell and shattered the continuous mountains.

It's just that these tall mountains are too small compared to the vast land. Until the light of dusk once again enveloped the land, covering it with golden brilliance, the disappearance of some beauty was hard to be seen.

The only thing left on the broken ground was a hazy filter cast by the light of dusk, covering up some of the burnt blackness. From the beginning, the ups and downs of the mountains did not exist to provide any exciting beauty.

“Several mountains collapsed…”

"If I release the restraints, I'm afraid this entire continent will be reduced to the dead souls of this blow. They won't even be able to escape this force."

"If I hadn't stopped attacking for some special reasons when I was just born, I'm afraid this continent would have been wiped off the map."

Jiang Cheng marveled at the miracle of nature and the power of the Herrscher, but there was sadness hidden in his eyes, which was a new emotion that came with retracing the past journey.

Possessing the qualifications for metamorphosis, even though the authority is almost never actively familiar with and has never been tried to use, it still has the power to change the world.

If only he really had this power.

If only this power really belonged to him.

The shackles of the Herrscher of the Stars, the constraints of the Quantum Sea, is the price to be paid for this power really so easy to break?

Perhaps what Alicia said that day was not just to disgust him, but there was some truth in it.

If you have to pay more to break the constraints, and lose love itself to gain emotions, is it really worth it?

Even what you already have will be lost.

What can be exchanged for?

Jiang Cheng silently withdrew his power, allowing the darkness covering the sky to gradually dissipate, creating a scene of being melted by the light.

As if enveloped by the brilliance of the starry sky, a few rays of sunlight pierced through the darkness like sharp swords, and once again shone their light on the devastated earth.

Removing all the coldness, clarity and mystery, the color of the sky became soft and hazy, as if all worries were swallowed up by the twilight.

The golden afterglow sprinkled on the earth. Even though it was polluted to the point where one could feel it was distorted just by looking at it, it was also hazy like a veil, as if casting a layer of afterglow on the whole world, and there was also a sense of the past.

The black clouds in the west were dyed a fiery red, and after several years, a faint breeze blew again, like countless roses swaying on the hillside.

Sometimes, simple sketches that are not taken very seriously can better correspond to the blurred past in memory, and can be made more beautiful through filters.

It seems like we have really returned to the time when we first stepped out of the house as teenagers. At that time, no one would have thought that future life would be so turbulent.

Even she never thought that she would become like this.

I guess.

Jiang Cheng turned his head and at the edge of his field of vision was a girl half-sitting in the air, her hands supporting her chubby face, bathed in the yellow of dusk, her long pink hair fluttering in the wind, illuminated by the shimmering brilliance.

The Herrscher's attire was not like the princess's gorgeous long skirt, but the long hem of her skirt did flutter in the wind, like a petal of cherry blossom swaying in the spring breeze.

The jade-like skin with distinct texture seemed to be glowing, and the white jade-like legs swayed in the direction of the wind. The small feet that emitted heat stepped on the descending dusk as a foot pad, twisted the waist and half leaned in the void, looking for a familiar posture.

Revisiting past experiences can even give the illusion that one can make amends for one's mistakes, and even for fairies, this can be a source of emotional excitement.

There seemed to be little reluctance and sadness in his eyes, they were burning to the extreme, with only a prismatic pupil left that at least could still retain love.

The gradient of blue and pink is just like the light of a shooting star reaching its peak, transforming into a dream that is almost impossible to happen normally in the world.

The brilliance of this moment hides the emotions hidden in her heart. Alicia... has changed a lot compared to the fairy in the past.

How can there be no sadness?

How is it possible to be completely absorbed in this?

Hidden beneath the brightness is actually a deeper sadness, which can only be seen at dusk when the light of the shooting stars and the ending are combined. It is covered with a layer of golden color, and the mask is removed, revealing a bit of sadness.

what……

Even if I look back at the past, is the only emotion that can make me angry the sadness of a sense of loss?

Now I am...

This isn't the person Alicia was expecting.

……

"If you die."

"I guess I won't be able to see the sunset."

Jiang Cheng sighed, raised his head, and bathed in the artificial light, allowing the burning morning and evening to shine through the torn clouds.

This beautiful scenery has never been witnessed before, has never been preserved, or at least has not left a vivid impression in memory.

Maybe I inadvertently overlooked it while traveling, maybe this beautiful scenery is just a bonus, or maybe I simply stayed in the studio without leaving.

In short, due to various reasons, he will never be able to see the sunset and feel the true beauty, even now it cannot be considered complete.

Because I am not complete.

Because I'm not whole.

Because I am not free.

The more I travel into the past, the more I can feel the emotions that my current body can convey. Even the sourness in my memories cannot be fully acted out. All that is left is cheering and sighing.

Not to mention living in this world like a normal person, he couldn't even satisfy Alicia.

That joy was just perfunctory.

That happiness was just forced.

She was clearly sad, and it was clearly still raining inside her.

Maybe I was not the person that Alicia expected from the beginning, but I didn't bring up this matter in the past, so I could cover my eyes and continue to deceive myself that I was him.

"what……"

He stretched out his hand and gently pressed it against the lips of the girl who was attracted. Her face suddenly became a little flustered, and her pink eyes revealed anxiety.

"Don't worry, I won't die."

"I was just overwhelmed by the beauty of this moment and sighed a little."