Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

It's really lame and useless. In the same situation of death and coming to another world, Wei Erwei chose to go back to Jiang Cheng with all her might, while the self in the other world just lay there alone and autistic.

Although my own autism is obviously understandable, I can't stand even a little bit of that emotion. Not only does the part that comes out unconsciously make me feel that my memory is almost collapsing.

In any case, what has been done is what has been done, and no matter what the reason for the problem, it is a fact that I failed to protect that person.

This can indeed be understood as Wei Liwei's wishful thinking. She left things behind on her own and planned to entrust them without any communication.

You can't complain even if you ignore something like this that's thrown at you randomly.

There will be no problem if you abandon the responsibilities given to you by others.

--How can it be?!

It's as if even if she hadn't left any instructions and didn't make a plan for 'Ailishia', she shouldn't have gone to protect Jiang Cheng. Even if there were those not-so-nice experiences later and the relationship wasn't that good, they were still family members and must not be lost or hurt.

Do you need a reason to protect your loved ones?

Do I need an excuse to protect my brother?

Isn't it the case that people who can easily give up this kind of feeling have problems?

"Alicea," This is something that no fairy would ever do, and it is also natural and her innate responsibility.

There is no need to feel guilty or sad. This is just an act of help to help others better fulfill their responsibilities.

The self-abased girl was still the same as in the records, self-pitying and self-reproachful, something that even I had only heard of but had hardly seen in person.

I originally thought that the description of Vivi hating herself to the point of wanting to die was too much.

Now it seems that this statement is already very respectful.

Somewhat restrained, even too restrained.

How could Weiwei limit herself to hating herself?

Taking all the responsibilities on yourself so that others don't have to bear the costs will also take the other party's rights into consideration.

He neither believed that the other Alicia would help out of family affection, nor was he worried that Alicia and the boy were family, so he could not give her too much blame or punishment, which would only lead to conflicts between the two sides.

Emotions that cannot be relieved cannot be released either, so the final destination can only be vented towards her, making her the only person who did something wrong, and making her, the person who tried her best, the only one who needs to be punished.

It's really awkward.

No wonder experiments are conducted day and night.

Leaving Jiangcheng... must be more painful for her than death.

……

"Memory" Ellie could only take a deep breath in the end, give up the idea of ​​refutation for her other self, and could only accept the direction where the final bitter fruit would go. She bent down and helped pack the luggage.

The things have been delivered by the autonomous robotic arm, and all we need to do is install them. It is a trivial matter that can be solved without any intelligence at all.

It was essentially just manual labor, picking up the utensils with your hands and putting them in the box, a three-step structure as common as putting an elephant in the refrigerator.

At least this was the only thing she could do.

Since Velvet was mad at 'Aliceia'.

Then let the other Alicia lend a hand.

Everything that happens afterwards will not be something that a dead person can participate in. The conflict between the other self and Weiwei is definitely not that simple.

Perhaps it was because she was able to have some clarity as a bystander and had not been completely overwhelmed by her emotions, "memory" Ellie was able to make a relatively clear judgment about what was happening between her and Vilvi from another world.

These are all things that are more important than life, and in a sense they can even be called the only reason for being alive and continuing to live.

Jiangcheng...

What a sinful man.

Just one person can cause so much conflict.

It can cause conflicts and disputes between oneself and geniuses, and the resulting entanglement is a level of anger that cannot be extinguished even across the world.

Even compared to her other self, Wei Liwei's condition was relatively good. At least she could talk to people and pack her luggage normally.

It is really hard to imagine how much despair, crazy things and changes I must have gone through in another world to become like this.

Those things can't even be described as a simple outbreak of Honkai or the ugliness of human nature, because for 'Alishia', she has seen too many stories between humans and between humans and non-humans. Simple malice is not enough to make the self collapse to this extent.

Anything that can be thought of in memory, any combination of disasters could not reach such a desperate level. It is not that it will not collapse, but no matter how it collapses, it will never collapse to the point of being shattered into sand like this.

Even describing how dead, sad, and miserable I am is impossible and cannot be put into words.

However, as just a memory and not a person from the same world, "Memory" Ai Li feels that she cannot comment on anything.

After all, love was something she had never experienced before. It was a completely blue ocean, and she couldn't even stretch her feet out to splash in it.

Even the most basic and ordinary things were not touched upon, let alone the current love triangle - this was too advanced and too unimaginable for a fairy who had been solo in her mother's womb for 50,000 years.

"Memory" Ellie found it really hard to imagine herself competing with Vivi for a young boy, and falling into obsession over something called love.

They are even so shameless and shamelessly do such things. Normal lovers are not like this, right?

I can't even blame Jiang Cheng, I can't complain about my other self's poor vision, because most of the time it was the other self who took the initiative to transform himself into such a shameless pet and do those messy things.

This is clearly something that only pets would do. And what does it mean to use the back? What does it mean to use the whip? Isn't this used for punishment?

There are so many messy little props. How come all of them are prepared by me? Doesn't it hurt to be beaten? Why do I need more?

When she first received the information, the girl, who only knew about ordinary missionaries, was stunned for an instant. "Memory" Ellie even began to doubt whether her nature was a little bit perverted and M.

He is not good at getting close to people, can strike up a conversation quickly, and to outsiders he looks like a pervert who harasses people. He is a pervert in the truest sense of the word.

If it weren't for the lack of time and space, "Memory" Ellie really would not be able to resist joining the battle and take a few beatings to test it out.

After all, no matter if she looks evil or abnormal, that is the possibility that the existence called 'Alishia' possesses.

……

According to the understanding of the other Weilwei, the cute fairy has a wide range of hobbies - she knows every hero very well, not just any friend of her companions. In order to have a good chat with everyone, she will not add extra burden to others and will not just chat about anything casually.

Although one person was missing, Velvet, who was supposed to pack her luggage, stood there in a daze. Even if she moved, she was like a puppet. With the help of "memory" Ellie, the luggage was quickly packed.

After all, although the time spent here seems long, it is not that long in terms of human life, even shorter than that of some trial participants.

The self-abased lady who only wanted to return to her original world to find the boy had no intention of buying or making anything that had nothing to do with it.

After sorting out all the things that seemed possible to take with me, I found that I couldn't even fill a small suitcase. I didn't even have a change of clothes or toiletries, and other things to support daily life were completely non-existent.

If it were at any other time, the fairy lady who always pursued beauty and happiness would definitely reluctantly send over some of her commonly used daily necessities, but now after experiencing so much, even the fairy who seemed to never lose her smile felt tired.

She just casually took out some cosmetics that she thought were useful and acceptable from Paradise, and also took a few clothes that Eden had designed, and stuffed them in with the idea that Vivi wouldn't object anyway.

Just think of it as atonement for another self.

There is no involvement in the Shura field like in vulgar light novels.

Not only that, they don’t even have a physical body or the support to walk in the world.

Although it sounds a bit inexplicably sad, it seems that these representations of the dead, more like proof of tombs in a sense, have become a little better at this moment, not as bad as they seem.

At least for those who have died.

——I can really stay out of it.

The slender and soft fingers gently pressed on the chest, and the simulated heartbeat was extremely false for the fairy who longed for humans, longed for the happiness and beauty that belonged only to humans, and also fantasized about becoming a complete human being. No matter how open-minded she was in reality, the corners of her lips still looked a little lonely at this moment.

The story always has to end one day, and it is a kind of happiness that the story can end well, but after all, we can't see the beautiful people again~?

To be able to accept death so easily, to accept regrets, to no longer be able to see the people you protected, and to not know if your efforts will be rewarded.

In this regard, perhaps the self in another world, who is unreliable no matter how you look at it, and whose suffering and pain are unimaginable, is more like a human being than this god's attitude.

Next, he had to face the wrath of Velvet.

It would be normal even if I got slapped in the face.

Just like beating another self before.

Because.

I did something extremely excessive.

……

"——I want you to take another me with you to find Jiangcheng."

"Memory" Ellie calmly looked at the girl who was so close to her. Her gently blinking green eyes were filled with sadness, shame, reluctance and self-loathing, but she did not hesitate, not even a little bit of hesitation. She just calmly stated her request.

"If I can't see him again, 'Alishia' will definitely break down, rot from the bones and the depths of the soul."

"Please rest assured that I did not hide anything in our previous conversation just because I wanted you to do this. Everything I said was accurate."

Perhaps it was to get rid of the suspicion of deliberate request and to avoid being seen as concealing or deceiving in order to achieve this goal.

The fairy from another world pressed her plump hills, letting those eyes of different colors look at each other, conveying her inner emotions - truly flawless, and never corroded by stupidity and arrogance.

When she was born and adopted into an orphanage, she realized the meaning of existence through a book that was a gift. She continued to walk with this meaning in mind, never hesitating, never doubting, and never being interfered with by other higher-ups. She walked unswervingly on her own path until she died and turned into a new flower.

Although their essence remains the same and they will definitely behave in exactly the same way when experiencing the same thing, this is a fact that she has already recognized when she saw her other self, but when facing a fairy who has not done those wrong things at least for now, it is still difficult for Weiwei to continue to be serious and rude.

The only thing left is doubt, or rather, the thought that I had known it from the beginning and simply wanted to find a reason to convince myself still exists.

This urged the girl to look up into those eyes without hesitation, and to ask her question in an extremely cold voice without even a hint of emotion.

"I know that this is the only thing you won't do, but since you didn't fake it, why did you add an extra sentence? You should know that I only have one choice, and Wei Liwei has only had one choice since the beginning."

……

"Maybe... I'm thinking about myself." Her smile was a little bleak, perhaps she felt tortured in her heart even when she said these words.

"It's not a pun, but no matter what, we are essentially the same people. How could anyone in the world wish for themselves to have a bad life?"

"I know that my other self/Alicia made a big mistake and failed to protect the people I should protect, but you should also know the biggest test of Honkai, the existence of the Herrscher named the End, right?"

……

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Reality: When the thunder breaks the sky: 202. Please, forgive Alicia.

"I know that for that enemy that humans can never overcome, even though I am obsessed with meeting Jiang Cheng, it doesn't mean I won't study what we know about Honkai here. At least I have some ready-made information, so I won't have to rush around when facing the disaster of Honkai after I go back."

"As despair that is above the Herrscher, I have even thought about how I could possibly fight against the End."

She gently closed her eyes, recalling everything she had found in the database, as if she was thinking, but it only took a moment, and her silver-gray eyes, like misty fog, suddenly opened, with an uneasiness as heavy as a surging tide, accompanied by an answer that could almost be called despair.

“——It’s Zero.”

……

"This is simply not something a human can overcome, not even the Herrscher can do it. Even if I, as the Origin, were to go into battle, I would be easily defeated. The other me is definitely not giving up. She has become very strong."

"She really put in a lot of effort, and you can see that. Her strength is even much stronger than when I was at my strongest."

"The other me has reached the limit of the origin, and is the strongest power under the end of that person who can't even be called a Herrscher."

"Even if it's Kevin's form in theory, I'm afraid it's impossible for him to be stronger than the other me in terms of martial arts. This level can't even be achieved through ordinary training. Even the same me can't reach this strength."

"I didn't see many of her/my memories, so I don't know how much effort she put into this power, but I guess it must have been something I couldn't imagine, as it ended with just one dance."

It's not a false lie.

It is not a false statement.

Not to help another person tell a lie that he or she has made up.

In this matter, "Memory" Ellie would not do anything false, and now she is just telling the truth.

Whether it is the power, the insurmountable end, or even the seemingly exaggerated and unattainable power of another self, they are all real, and not even a single word of exaggeration has been added to the description.

As a result of the extreme involution of both humans and Honkai, even a random child has the strength to fight with or even defeat a higher-level Honkai beast.

The power held by an ordinary Herrscher would be almost unattainable in this world, like the end of time. A round of great destruction would be enough to destroy the world.

The Origin, who is already above ordinary Herrschers and the most special one under the End, possesses the highest authority besides the Master. Even if he does nothing, the power he holds will expand madly and infinitely.

What's more, it's not that Alicia does nothing. She hunts her own people and Honkai with weapons in hand. Countless killings have given her an understanding of the origin that is different from her own in other worlds.

He embraced his true self and essence early on, accepted his own depravity and incompetence, accepted himself as a disaster, and also identified with his status as a Herrscher through the mistakes he made over and over again.

Even for those of such a high standard, there will be differences due to the issue of proficiency. Those who choose to become a Herrscher at the last minute will never be able to be compared with a skilled Herrscher from the beginning.