Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

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"——Please kill me."

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Looking at the boy's pure, cold eyes without a trace of impurities, the girl's face, which had a perfect expression because of her memories, suddenly lost its color again, and her voice full of warmth and expectation could no longer be suppressed.

"you say……"

"what?"

——The girl lost her voice again.

The pink pupils shrank sharply.

The delicate lips were oozing blood.

The graceful tone was distorted almost instantly, as if even the throat was about to be damaged, and the already tattered emotions were about to be stirred up again.

But before the tragedy happened, a familiar warmth came from the head. As if the boy had anticipated that the girl might enter into another emotional entanglement and self-isolation, he directly used the maximum level of head patting.

"Then forget it."

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Jiang Cheng tilted his head, his expression still calm, as if what he just said was just as ordinary as what to eat tonight.

"I may have made some extreme requests. The main reason is that my current consciousness is simply a miracle. I am still a Herrscher in essence, a tool used by Honkai to destroy the world. Who knows when I will destroy the world."

"This world is still very beautiful. The mountains we once walked on together are full of roses, and the hillsides are covered with a layer of yellow halo at sunset."

"Although I have forgotten the person I probably love the most, I still have you, my last relative, the Doctor, and everything that Velvet and I have left behind."

"If it were destroyed like this, wouldn't it be a pity and terrible?"

"But..."

"It is something that has been forgotten after all."

"Now I seem to have more important tasks to accomplish."

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"what……"

"That's really cheating..."

It seemed that Alicia didn't even have the strength to refute. She just lowered her head and let her pink hair cover her fair face.

The wish was really well responded to. Even though she knew that the boy in front of her was a rag doll that had been ravaged by others, and even though she knew that this was not true love, the girl still felt a response to love in her heart.

This level of reasonableness is really too much of a rip-off.

How could anyone possibly reject such gentleness!

After being beaten by wind and rain, the tired traveler's shoes were covered with mud and sand. There was no clean place on his body when he met a kind person on the roadside. The person helped him make a pot of hot tea and rinsed his body with hot water.

When you are so tired that every muscle aches and your self may be disconnected at any time, you can sleep comfortably in the big bed.

You can even eat warm and delicious food the next day, have a cup of hot milk, and wear clothes that have been exposed to the sun all day.

what……

This is simply wonderful.

It's like a dream.

This may not mean much, just a little bit of help, a little bit of understanding of the other person's predicament, and then choosing empathy and tolerance.

For those who are born with this ability, they may just think it is a piece of cake.

It is this feeling that can wash away one's own fatigue, and make one feel understood and accepted, and that no matter how embarrassed, how bad, or how many complaints one has, others can listen to them seriously.

——It is a beauty that many people can never obtain in their entire lifetime.

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"Being gentle is not a bad thing."

"Why are you so violent and rude to others, or even insulting them?"

"In fact, there are not many people who I can show my tenderness to. You, Velvet, and Dr. Mobius, according to my vague instinctive feeling, I think they are not bad people in essence."

"Even a doctor who is called a demon scientist has humanity and emotions. At least I can feel that Mobius once gave him a gift."

"Um……"

"You may have a sharp tongue but a soft heart."

"I'm surrounded by people like this, so how can I be so bad?"

Jiang Cheng was still sitting on the ground, chatting to himself, speaking words that were almost incomprehensible and inexplicably emerging from his body.

It seems as if some parts were deliberately reserved to satisfy others.

——What a strange feeling.

Is this how Alicia feels?

From God to man.

Experience the poison called emotion.

It is indeed addictive. The warmth flowing through the body is hard to imagine. If Wei Wei were still alive, how would I feel?

It will be wonderful, really wonderful.

"so……"

"Since you have given up the idea of ​​dying."

The boy looked at the girl who had completely given up on herself and was kneeling in a lake of tears, and gently extended his fingertips.

"Dear Ellie~?"

"——Do you want to enter a new life with me?"

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【After seventeen years, you are invited again. 】

[Looking at the boy's right hand gently stretched out to you, the palm that was scarred by overwork and Honkai energy corrosion in the past is now like white jade, without a single scratch. In your memory, purple blood seeps out, and the lips that are so pale that you can't see the flesh color are smiling gently.]

[It’s like going back to the time when you lived in a small town isolated from the world, and it’s like going back to the time when you made your first choice.]

[This time…]

[——You made the right choice.]

[Option 1: Isn't this what you are chasing? ]

[Option 2: Isn’t this what you desire? ]

[Option 3: Isn’t this what you wish for? ]

This is another classic option that has no right to be chosen. There are clearly three options and it seems that there are three branches, but they only tell about one thing.

From the initial decision-making tension that determined a slight difference, to the lack of opportunity to choose later, they are essentially saying the same thing. Now the three options can even be merged into one choice.

It seemed that since that birthday party, the scope of the girl's decisions had become smaller and smaller.

Perhaps it’s because the emotions are becoming more and more extreme.

Options are essentially thoughts that you would come up with and possible choices you might make.

It is impossible that a completely kind and gentle person can choose to carry out a massacre, while a person who is extremely bad can choose to help others. These are essentially contrary to the inner wishes of that person.

The essence of options is just to make slight adjustments, which can determine the direction of progress, but not to decide to retreat or change track.

When the train reaches a dead end and cannot change direction any more, the joystick in your hand that determines the direction will become a meaningless toilet peg.

——Although it doesn’t matter in essence.

This same feeling...

what……

The girl pressed her chest gently, somewhat roughly, somewhat violently, as if punishing herself, forcing herself to feel her now beating heart, pressing her soft face close to the cold floor.

The plump thighs, which were somewhat mature and totally inconsistent with her age group, had been squeezed so hard in this awkward posture that white silk was about to ooze out of the soft flesh.

Complete physical sensation and empathy. Rather than calling it a so-called simulation, it is better to say that it is like personally participating in a different life.

If the plot in the simulation reaches a dead end, then the emotions of the simulated people must have reached the edge of the cliff, with an endless abyss ahead.

The so-called options...

Does it really make sense?

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[Faced with the boy's invitation, no matter how bad and fake it is, you can't refuse it while looking at that gentle eyes and that familiar face.]

[You are actually crazy now. Your previous enthusiasm was just a little bit of the last bit of inspiration after the boy's resurrection.]

[If you really gave up just because of this little bit of emotion, you would probably kneel down in front of the boy within two hours, dig out your heart, and beg him to give you another chance to choose.]

[As for whether this is a bit excessive, a bit humble? 】

【ah……】

[——Isn’t this suitable for you? ]

[You are essentially just a Herrscher, a complete piece of trash. ]

[Even someone like Wei Erwei, who is so self-abased, closed, and humble that she almost makes herself a pet, has countless shining points and can attract young people to embark on a two-way love.]

【And you? 】

[What else do you have besides this seemingly cute face and plump body that looks like a poisonous mushroom to attract others? ]

【--No.】

[There is absolutely nothing about you that would be worthy of the boy's attention.]

[Even the flawless girl who once lingered in the boy’s memory has long been stained with filth and dirt, no longer pure and beautiful.]

[People like you have the opportunity to realize their wishes, to monopolize Jiangcheng all the time like Wei Erwei did in the past. If you give up, you will tear yourself apart without hesitation.]

[It has already come to this. No matter how much you hesitate, struggle, persist, or think, nothing can be changed.]

[Anyway, you are a Herrscher, a natural born badass, so it must be normal for you to do things that a badass should do.]

[At least when you reach out your hand and gently touch the boy's fingertips, you can feel the warmth from the boy's body appear again.]

[——It doesn’t matter. ]

【At that moment, it seemed as if nothing mattered. 】

[Your mind suddenly becomes blank, as if everything else in the world has become a chaotic noise. You can feel the disharmony and displeasure just by looking at it. Your eyes can only accommodate the boy who is so close to you. ]

【ah……】

[How many years? ]

[How many years have passed? ]

[How long has it been since I last held a boy's hand openly? ]

【——Nine years.】

【Three thousand two hundred days.】

【Seventy-six thousand eight hundred and ninety-six hours.】

【Four million, six hundred and thirty-three thousand seven hundred and sixty seconds.】