Wanqingsi

Chapter 172

My body is getting better, but Yun Zheng is sick again.

Another month has passed in Yunzheng, and this night, everyone is worried, and the old man also made a special trip up the mountain with An Yuanxi.I didn't know Yunzheng's situation in the room, and I was even more anxious. Ming Yan was always with me in the room.After finally dawning, when Yunzheng returned to the room, he walked back by himself, not being pushed back in a wheelchair. I was so excited that I couldn’t control myself, and I hugged him and shed tears of joy. His poison was cured, and he The poison of Gu was finally cured.

The old man is also very happy.I see that Yunzheng is in good health, and my confinement is over, and I am going to pack up and go back to the Hou Mansion. I really miss the baby very much.But the old man said that I have just finished confinement and my body is still weak, and Yun Zheng's body has just recovered, so I should rest on the mountain for a while, so as not to go back to the Hou's mansion and be distracted by people coming and going.

Although I was a little unhappy in my heart, I didn't want to be too disobedient to the old man.Unexpectedly, the old man really confirmed it. Yun Zheng started to have a low-grade fever the next day and coughed all the time. This time, the affairs of the Hou Mansion were delayed.Mr. Fu said that Yunzheng has been suffering from Gu poison for many years, and the organs and spirit in the body are always on alert. If the Gu poison is relieved at once, those organs that have been in a period of high tension for many years will suddenly relax, and it is easy to get sick.I don’t think there is anything wrong with his explanation. When I think of my previous life, I often worked overtime at work, and I was in a state of tension for a long time. As a result, every time I went on a long vacation, my body and spirit relaxed, and I immediately caught a cold and a fever, as if I was hoarding my illness. It's like keeping them specially during the holidays.

Some time ago, it was Yun Zheng who took care of me, and now it's me who takes care of him.I am careful and take good care of everything, but Yunzheng's illness has come and gone. Today, I feel better. I don't have a fever or cough, and I wake up to walk around. Tomorrow, I will sleep groggyly again for a whole day.I was worried and anxious, but I had nothing to think about, so I had to take care of him carefully according to Mr. Fu's instructions.The old man sent someone to send a thousand-year-old ginseng, deer antler, Gastrodia elata, blood swallow and other tonic supplements. Even after Shen Wen went down the mountain, he also sent someone to Yunzheng to send some pills, saying that they were some tonic medicines made by him. Knowing that Yunzheng will get sick after undoing the Gu.

Yun Zheng took the medicine and fell asleep again.These days his appetite is also very poor, he eats very little, I asked the kitchen to change the food into medicinal food, although those are nourishing, but the taste is not very good.I want to see if I can make the taste as palatable as possible.Walking into the yard of the kitchen, I saw Yunze squatting by the well fetching water, there was a wooden basin on the ground, and he didn't know what he was washing.Taking a closer look, I saw Yunzheng's towel in the basin, which was stained with suspicious red stains. Yunze was shocked when he saw me when he fetched water. He quickly grabbed the towel in the basin, carried it behind his back, and said in a panic: "Young Madam..."

"What are you holding?" I looked at him quietly, "Show me."

"Young lady, you can't..." Yun Ze's face flushed red.I held out my hand: "Give it to me!"

He bit his lip, looked at me without moving for a long time, and I didn't shrink back, and stared at him, he mumbled uneasily: "Young madam, the young master said that I can't let you know..."

"Give it to me!" I interrupted him lightly, "Do you want me to come and get it myself?"

He hesitated, and stretched out his hand. I took the towel in his hand, unfolded it, and gasped, suddenly there was a red blood stain on the towel.An ominous premonition rose in my heart, and I looked up at Yunze with a cold look in my eyes: "How could there be blood on the young master's handkerchief? Did the young master cough? How dare you hide it from me!"

Frightened by my sharp gaze, he stammered: "Young Madam, yes, it was the Young Master who told us not to talk about it."

"When did the young master start coughing up blood?" My heart became more and more uneasy. No matter how bad Yun Zheng was, he had never coughed up blood. How could his health be worse than before after he got rid of the poison?

"I started coughing the day before yesterday. Every time, the young master told us to clean it up quickly, and told us not to be seen by you, young madam..." Seeing that my face was getting uglier, Yun Ze didn't dare to continue.I handed the towel to him, took a breath, and said, "Give it to the young master to wash, don't say I already know."

Turning around, I went straight to Mr. Fu's small courtyard, just turned out of a lush plum forest, and saw the old man hurried in with Yunde.The old man is here?Why didn't you go to see Yunzheng first, and instead came to Mr. Fu?I was full of doubts in my heart, so I quickly followed. The old man had already entered Mr. Fu's room. I stepped up the steps, stood outside the door, thought for a while, and put my ear close to the wooden door.

At first I couldn't quite hear what they were talking about. After a while to get used to it, I heard the old man say, "Is there really no way to cure it?"

"Fu is incompetent." Mr. Fu seemed to sigh, "If Master Zheng doesn't cough up blood, there is still hope, but he started coughing up blood the day before yesterday. Fu is really..., powerless..."

My head buzzed, what are they talking about?Are they talking about Yun Zheng?How could there be no cure for Yun Zheng's illness?The terrible Gu poison has been cured, how can it not cure his current illness?What nonsense are they talking about?What nonsense are you talking about?I couldn't listen anymore, I pushed open the door and stepped into the room.The three people in the room looked at me in astonishment, and when they saw that it was me, they took a breath, and the old man said angrily, "Ye girl, why are you..."

"Grandpa, what did you say just now?" I walked up to him, stared at him and said, "Are you saying that Yunzheng's illness has no cure? Are you?"

There was a trace of guilt on the old man's face, and his eyelashes drooped in silence.I looked at Mr. Fu and Yunde, they turned their faces away and remained silent.There was a fire in my heart, and I burst out suddenly, screaming: "Tell me quickly, all of you are hiding it from me, that is my husband, I have the right to know what happened to him, you, what do you do? What are you hiding from me?..."

Tears poured out, and I fell down on the chair, holding my face in my hands and crying bitterly.The old man sighed and said, "Mr. Fu, tell her."

I raised my face and wiped away the tears on my face, but I couldn't help sobbing. After a while, I waited for me to calm down a little.Mr. Fu said in a low voice: "Master Zheng's Gu poison has tortured him for more than 20 years, and his internal organs have long been unable to bear it. He just relies on a will to support him. Even if the Gu poison is cured, his body is already ruined Well, coughing up blood is a sign of exhaustion..."

I sat numbly, listening dumbfounded.Running out of oil?Running out of oil?He was saying that Yun Zheng was exhausted?He is not yet 22 years old, how could he run out of fuel?This is not true!This is not true!Why?Why did God do this to me?What am I doing wrong?Why every time I think I already have happiness?He wants to take it away without mercy?Why?
"Stop talking, I don't believe it, I don't believe it..." I interrupted him sharply, stood up abruptly, knelt down in front of the old man, and said incoherently and in a panic, "Grandpa, find a doctor for Yunzheng again, find the most Good doctor, I know you can do it, you can find it, I don’t believe it, I don’t believe that Yun Zheng’s illness can’t be cured... Yunde, go find Shen Fan, Shen Fan will definitely save Yun Zheng... , By the way, I will go to the palace to ask the queen mother to ask the imperial doctor to treat Yunzheng..."

"Ye girl!" The old man pressed my shoulder, "Calm down!"

"I'm calm, I'm calm..." I took his hand, "Grandpa, you save Yunzheng, you save him..."

"Girl!" The old man's eyes flashed with deep sorrow, "Zheng'er is my grandson, who I brought up and brought up with one hand. If I can save him, do you think I won't save him? Zheng'er's illness , has already reached the point of death!"

I sat on the ground weakly and stared at him blankly. The pain and sorrow in his eyes were real. The credibility of this pain and sorrow was better than Mr. Fu’s words just now. I felt that I was about to Suffocated.The old man said sadly: "Like Zheng'er, he has been poisoned by Gu since he was a child. Although someone tried his best to suppress his Gu poison, the Gu poison would still damage his internal organs and increase the burden. A year ago, Mr. Fu diagnosed that Zheng'er's body began to fail. Even if you get rid of the Gu, whether you can live or not depends on your luck. If Zhenger is lucky, there is a [-]% chance of surviving. But some time ago you fell asleep, he was too worried, sad and hurt his lungs. It’s powerless.”

It turned out to be me, and it turned out that Yun Zheng coughed up blood because of me.I smiled miserably, stood up from the ground, turned around, and walked out the door.It's because of me that Yun Zheng can't survive, who else can I blame?

Who am I to blame?Is Qiluo poisoned to make Yun Zheng like this?But when she died, she would have rotted into a handful of mud.Blame the old man for using it?But I am willing to marry Yun Zheng.Blame you for giving me hope and then making me despair?But you all said it was for my own good.Or is it because Yun Zheng is too beautiful and kind, that I can't help falling in love with him?Is it like being hollowed out by someone?Tears slid out from the corners of my eyes, I didn't realize it, and walked forward in a daze. "Sister, be careful!" A figure emerged from the plum grove and grabbed me violently. When I came back to my senses, I saw a thick plum branch lying in front of me, and I almost bumped into it. "Ming Yan!" I grabbed him, like grabbing a piece of driftwood for survival, "You save Yunzheng, you save Yunzheng, they can't save him, you must be able to, you are a god, you save him he……"

"Sister, what nonsense are you talking about?" Ming Yan's eyes widened, and I shook my head desperately: "I'm not talking nonsense, you are a god, how can you save him? How can you restore your memory? Do you want this black dragon jade?" ? Take it off quickly..." I pulled the black jade on my neck desperately, but I couldn't pull the rope. The rope tore my neck, but I couldn't feel the pain. Grab it hard: "Help me take it off..." My head was buzzing, Venus was flying around in front of my eyes, my head was heavy and heavy, I fell softly into Mingyan's arms, and before I fainted, I squeezed tightly. Grabbing Mingyan's arm: "Save him..."

When I woke up, I was already lying on the bed and found myself sleeping in Yun Zheng's arms.I raised my eyes to look at him, his eyes were originally closed, but he seemed to sense my gaze, and immediately opened his eyes: "Ye'er..."

I looked at him obsessively, and hugged his body tightly.The moment our eyes meet, we have understood that fact.The old man can't hide it from me, how can he hide it from the ice-snow smart Yun Zheng.He stared at me deeply, for a long time, and said softly: "Ye'er, I have suffered from illness since I was a child, and death is not something I fear..." I trembled and held him tighter, but my eyes Looking at him, he couldn't bear to move away for a second.He caressed my face with pity, and his voice seemed to come from nine days away: "Really, sometimes, death is also a new life. I used to think that if I die, I will turn into a breeze and travel around the world. It's a happy thing, but now, I can't bear to leave you behind."

"Then don't abandon me." I stared at his crystal pale face, "You turn into a breeze, and take me with you."

"Silly girl..." He gently kissed my forehead, and said softly, "Even if I turn into a breeze, I will not abandon you, I will be by your side, no matter when and where, as long as you feel When the wind blows across your face, you know that I am watching you and accompanying you..."

"I don't want you to look at me, stay with me, I want to be with you." Tears fell from her eyes one by one like broken beads.Yun Zheng's voice was unreal: "Silly girl, if I take you away, who will accompany our baby, our Nuo'er?"

"Nuoer?" I sobbed, not understanding.Yunzheng gently wiped away the tears on my cheeks, and said softly: "Yunnuo, it's the name I just thought of for the baby. Ye'er, even if I turn into the wind, I will always be by your side. This is my love for you." Promise of."

I cry like a child in grievance.Yunzheng, I understand what you mean, you want me to live well and take good care of the baby, you are afraid that I will be sad, you coax me that you will not leave me even if you die, I understand, I understand.I listen to you, I won't trouble you anymore, I won't make you worry anymore, I promise you, I will live a good life, I will love my baby well, and when he grows up, I will tell him that his father is the father of this world On, the best, the gentlest, the one who loves us the most.

In the days before you leave, I will love you desperately. I will accompany you to see the plum and snow in Yuxue Mountain. I will record every gentle smile and look in your eyes, and engrave your appearance in my heart. .Yunzheng, dear Yunzheng, I will not cry anymore, I will not be willful again, I will keep laughing until you quietly become the wind.

Yun Zheng became weaker day by day, and lingered on the sick bed all day long.Even though I knew that his illness was useless, I still made him take medicine on a regular basis every day, hoping to keep him longer, but we never mentioned his illness, his life and death, or his promise to turn into a breeze.I don't want to leave him even one step, and I can't tolerate other things in my eyes.When spring is about to come, Yuxue Mountain has the last heavy snow of this winter. I wake up in the morning sun, and there is no one beside me. Startled, I turned over and sat up: "Yunzheng..."

"Young Madam!" Ning'er hurried in, "Young Master went to the Bajiao Pavilion."

"Is he feeling better today?" I was a little pleasantly surprised, and quickly took the brocade fur that Xiner handed me, and ran out the door without thinking about grooming.From afar, I saw Yunzheng sitting in the Octagonal Pavilion playing the piano, just like the first time I met him in Lifang Courtyard, Cangdu. crystal clear.

I stopped running and walked towards him step by step.His slender fingertips leaked the simple and distant piano sound, as if it came from the barbaric years hundreds of millions of years ago, with the breath of the past life, it seemed familiar and made me calm down.Everything in the world peeled off layer by layer in his heart, and his piano sound was like holy snow water, washing away the troubles of the world and making life eternal.I suddenly understood that this is Yun Zheng, the last swan song in his life.

He raised his eyes, stretched out his hand, and smiled at me faintly, with picturesque eyebrows: "Ye'er."

I walked towards him piously, leaned against him, and looked at the snowy scenery outside the pavilion, and there was a round of warm sun in the sky far away.He held my hand tightly, frowning: "Hands are so cold." I smiled and closed his hand, and it was bitingly cold: "It's snowing again, this is probably the last snow of this year."

"It will snow again next year." He smiled and whispered, "Ye'er..."

"Huh?" I answered him softly, and he said gently, "I think every winter, you can see plums and snow in Yuxue Mountain."

Tears slowly moistened the eye sockets, I closed my eyes to prevent them from rolling down, I said, I will not cry again in front of Yun Zheng: "Yeah."

"Ye'er..." His body was getting colder and colder, "I haven't heard you sing for a long time, let me sing a song, okay?"

"Okay." I leaned my head lightly on his shoulder, felt his increasingly tired heartbeat, and opened my lips and sang softly:

If the heart is tired and the tears are dry, this affection is hard to let go.

I used to have it, it's been a long time, and I don't see you anymore, Mumu and Zhaozhao.

This love will always be difficult, and I hope to embrace again in the next life.

I don't know how to love someone, how to stay together till old age, how to face everything.

Recalling the past, I can't forget the painful lovesickness, why do you still come to stir my heartbeat.

How can I love you, you should understand tonight, fate is difficult, love is difficult.

His heartbeat was getting slower and slower in the soft singing.I turned my head to look at him, with a serene smile on his face, leaning against my side, and fell asleep quietly.The warm winter sun shines brightly in an instant, and Yun Zheng's body turns into a faint golden light under the bright sunlight, flickering and jumping, and after a long time, those dancing lights just disappear with the wind.I know that my beloved has turned into a breeze, traveling between heaven and earth.

A tear slipped from the corner of my eye, I smiled, raised my head, and looked into the distance.The sky is vast, and the snow-capped mountains in front of me are quiet and deep, as if they can contain the whole world.The breeze brushed against my face and messed up my hair. I faced the wind and murmured softly: "Goodbye, Yun Zheng!"

——2007, September, 3
Wanqingsi Volume Three Fenghua Chapter End (I know I will be smashed to death, so let’s smash it. I will take a few days off to write the fourth volume. Everyone, please take a few days off too.)
List of Lyrics Quoted in Volume [-] of "Wanqingsi"
Serial number/chapter/song name/lyricist/singer

1/Chapter 121/"My Hand Through Your Black Hair"/Luo Dayou/Luo Dayou

2/Chapter 129/"Write a Song"/Shun Zi/Shun Zi
3/Chapter 134/"Only you without him in my heart"/Chen Dieyi/Laura Fygi
4/Chapter 140/"The Game of Entangling Mian"/Lin Xi/Peng Ling
5/Chapter 149/"Laughing with Emotions"/Lu Zhiming/Fan Wenfang

6/Chapter 165/"New Love"/Huang Yu/Wan Fang
List of cited materials in the third volume of "Wanqingsi"

Serial number/book, article name/author & poster/source
1/ "Sui Shu·Zhi VI·Etiquette VI"/[Tang] Wei Zheng et al./"24 History"

2/ "Dali Temple", "Imperial Examination", "Obsidian"/? /Baidu Encyclopedia
3/"Wu Zhuangyuan in History"/Hu Xingjun/Original Ecological Website

4/ "Deciphering the Process of Lien Chan's Worship to Ancestors: Entering the Door to Drink Sweet Tea and Accompanied by Eight Sounds to Worship Ancestors" / Year Month / China News Network

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