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Chapter 176 Go Back
"Is it really going to rain?" He looked up at the sky and felt that it was getting lower, as if he was about to fall to the ground.

The howling cold wind blew on the face, and there was a cool feeling, and I reached out to touch it. "What is this? Rain?" He looked at the gloomy sky again, but did not see a drop of rain falling.His expression became a little silent, as sad and bleak as the autumn wind sweeping across the street and the yellow leaves scattered all over the ground.

The passing pedestrians disappeared like light smoke; the chaotic and noisy voices receded like the tide, getting farther and farther away.It seemed that he was the only one left in the whole world, dragging a heavy suitcase, walking alone in a deserted corner.

"One person's world, after this time, it will really be only one person's world." He couldn't help but feel a kind of pain in his heart.There is no more care from relatives, no more warmth from friendship, and even the dreamlike happiness of love, he thought he would never try to have it again.

Everything seems to have lost the dazzling and clear colors, but the monotonous and simple black and white two colors reveal a cold feeling.The cold world, the cold body, and the cold heart, this is also suitable!

He couldn't help but glanced behind him, but after all, he didn't see any trace of her. "How could it come?" There was a hint of sarcasm in the corner of his mouth subconsciously, and it seemed to be mocking the soft place deep in his heart, and he always liked to hold on to a little fantasy in despair, a little hope!

He turned around indifferently, but couldn't help showing a somewhat lonely look in his eyes.He clearly knew that there was still a trace of reluctance deep in his heart, maybe several traces, but so what?He bit his lip stubbornly and took heavy steps.Even if you make a mistake, don't look back once you make a mistake!

Looking at the intersection not far away, his pace slowed down unknowingly.On one side are the bustling streets and on the other side are quiet and peaceful alleys.One is a long way, while the other is a short way, which made him struggle a little in his heart.He clearly understood what his heart was longing for again!
With a hard heart, he made his gaze even firmer.Turning around, he took a shortcut and took the alley, but his body couldn't stop shaking. "In this way, she will not be able to catch up with herself, and she will never find herself again."

The sound of "da——da——" footsteps hit his heart again and again, making his tears slide down his cheeks again and again, in this alley where no one would notice.

Looking at the crowded station, pedestrians in a hurry have a clear direction whether they are coming back or going out, but what about me?Where is this going to wander?
Line up blankly, but when it's time to buy a ticket, you still don't know where you're going.He glanced at the platform indiscriminately, and said a place that he didn't know at all.

"Did I really just leave like this?" The noise in my ears, the tourists in a hurry, the siren of a car...all these things are like a dream, but they are so real!
"But, is this true? I really want to reach a place that no one knows? I really want to wander like this? I really want to die alone like this!" Ouyang couldn't help it A panic surged out, and at this moment he suddenly realized that he was not fully prepared at all!
"Then—what should I do? Are you going to take the initiative to go back and continue living like that? Are you still so indecisive? Are you really so cowardly and without the slightest courage to let go? Have you given it a go?" He scolded himself one after another in his heart, making himself miserable again sentence by sentence.

"Are you going to regret it before you start?" Wei Wei was in a trance for a while, his eyes were blank, as if his soul had been lost.What is the use of that soul henceforth?What is the use other than making yourself more sensitive and more likely to hurt?

He looked back in a daze, but still didn't see a trace of her.

He silently closed his eyes, and slowly opened them, his whole face became indifferent.At this moment, he seemed to have turned into a walking dead.

The car drove slowly to the platform, and there was a slight cold feeling from the corners of his eyes, and the warm feeling before was no longer there.

"Farewell!" He gripped the handle of the suitcase.He decided that he would never come back to this place, even if he had the ability to come back in the future, he would never come back.

The right hand exerted a little force, but did not pull.Looking back, he saw her standing behind him with an angry face.Before she could speak, she asked angrily, "Where are you going?"

where to goHe didn't know where he should go at all.Standing silently, with his left hand in his trouser pocket, he tightly held the ticket in his hand.

"Bring it!" She looked at him angrily.

He clenched his teeth tightly, still not wanting to say anything to her.

"Bring it!" she said angrily again.

Following her gaze, his left hand clenched even tighter.

"Give me the bus ticket!"

Seeing the angry face on her face, but also the persistence on her face.He finally stretched out his left hand and spread it out. A ticket lay there peacefully, but it was touched a little, and then it became a little wet.

She snatched it away, looked at it quickly, and finally breathed a sigh of relief.Remaining angry, he ordered him: "I'll go and refund the ticket, you stand here obediently, don't move!" After finishing speaking, he pulled his suitcase away worriedly.

Seeing her gradually disappearing into the crowd, and looking at the empty hands, an inexplicable feeling surged in my heart.He also looked at the cars that had parked on the platform and the bustling streets outside the station.If she wanted to go, she could run out of the station at will now, cross a few streets, and she would never find herself again; How can you drag that heavy suitcase and increase the burden in vain?If you want to escape as if you want to leave, then there is nothing that can stop you!
From time to time, he stopped and looked back, the reluctance in his heart scattered one after another, the coldness in the corners of his eyes, the pain in his heart...all of them were telling the longing in his heart.

It's not that I don't know, it's just that I don't want to admit it; I don't really want to leave, I just want to know if she will come, and whether she really cares about me.

If there is really no retention, then I have nothing to really be attached to, and everything will go in another direction.Even after a long, long time, when I think of it by chance, there will be pain, sadness, and tears, and there is nothing to regret!
No ifs, no fantasies, only now.Now Ouyang is waiting for her quietly, his heart is at peace, and he has no intention of leaving any more.Because he already knew what he wanted to know, although it was a bit painful, it was worth it.

"Follow me back." She pulled the suitcase and came to Ouyang again, ordering with anger still on her face.

"Let's go." He snatched back his suitcase and walked outside the station.

Her heart tightened slightly again, and she finally relaxed when she saw that he was walking in the direction of going back, but she still stared at him worriedly.

He knew what she was worried about, and let her stare at him from behind, not caring at all.He looked up at the sky again, still gloomy and unchanged.

The rainbow always comes after the storm.Looking at it, he seemed to see the sunny scenery after the rain, and an inexplicable color appeared on his face unconsciously, with a bright luster.

(End of this chapter)