Qingqingzijin, miss my heart

Chapter 20 The Sunshine Is Here, You Are Not (2)
At a loss, she and her bewildered mother were silent together, but their eyes were fixed on Jiang Bei.

Jiang Bei lowered his head and began to recall in silence.

Jiang Bei's father was a prodigal son, and he was raised by his mother since he was a child, because his dissatisfaction with his father had been accumulated in his heart, Jiang Bei, who gradually became sensible, also gradually became very rebellious.

Seven years ago, because of a quarrel with his father, Jiang Bei ran away from home with a group of gangsters called brothers.

They didn't know where they were going, so they bought train tickets at will and went directly to Nanshan City.

For a few teenagers, this is a strange city. Apart from the strangeness, this place is even more interesting. They who advocate freedom feel that the strangeness here satisfies the freedom they hope for.

However, they did not expect that unfamiliar places also have unknown dangers for them.Therefore, on the first day after arriving in Nanshan City, they encountered pickpockets, and their money and mobile phones were taken away.They are in a foreign country, unaccompanied, and they don't know what to do.

At this time, a gangster suggested: "Let's pick other people's wallets too."

The fellow gangsters all agreed, and thought that since the city gave them such a "meeting gift", then no matter what they did, they could do nothing too much.Although Jiang Bei disagreed, he didn't object either. After all, they had nothing but steal and rob, so they really could only go begging.

After making up their minds, several people acted separately.

However, Jiang Bei's first shot was not smooth, and the object he chose was a man who seemed very honest.This man is Cen Nian's father.For Jiang Bei, Cen Nian's father was a difficult opponent. He never expected that within half a minute after the wallet was in his hands, the perceptive man had already discovered that the wallet had been stolen.Under the roar of the man, the guilty Jiang Bei's first reaction was to run away.But as soon as he ran away, Cen Nian's father became even more sure that he had the wallet in his hands, so he chased after him.

During the chase, they came to an abandoned medical building.

Because of being abandoned, there are few people here.

Jiang Bei ran up to the roof of the medical building panting. Cen Nian's father never let go of chasing him, which made him very nervous and frightened.

Seeing that the man was about to catch him, Jiang Bei's mind was instantly filled with the idea of ​​going to jail. He reacted violently when he was frightened, and ran to the guardrail of the rooftop.

Seeing this, Cen Nian's father stopped quickly, comforted Jiang Bei, and said, "Young man, don't be afraid, I won't arrest you to the police station."

"Why should I trust you?"

"Uh...you...be careful!"

"Don't come over, I'll jump off if you come over!"

"Young man, calm down, I... I just want my necklace back."

"Necklace? You chased me nine streets just for a broken necklace? You think I'm an idiot!"

"Young man, be careful! I'm serious, I didn't lie to you, I really just want my necklace back." Seeing Jiang Bei walking away excitedly, Cen Nian's father gasped. Liang Qi, "That necklace is very important to me. It is the first gift I gave to my wife. It is very commemorative. A few days ago, my wife said that the clasp of the necklace was loose, so I brought it out for repair today. Your wallet I'll give it to you if you want it, but please return the necklace to me, okay? I won't pursue it, let alone arrest you to the police station!"

"Are you serious?" Jiang Bei looked at Cen Nian's father warily.

"Really! I'm not kidding you, I just want the necklace back."

"But if I pass by, you will catch me and send me to the Public Security Bureau. What should I do? I don't want to go to jail, and I only have to be a pickpocket. I just arrived here, and I don't know the place well. With pickpockets, I don’t even have money to eat.”

"I understand, I won't send you to the Public Security Bureau, you can rest assured."

Cen Nian's father looked serious and anxious, and it didn't look like he was lying. Jiang Bei hesitated for a while, and finally chose to be convinced.

However, just as Jiang Bei was about to return the wallet to him, his foot suddenly slipped.

He lost his center of gravity and fell backwards. After hitting the guardrail, he still felt his body falling backwards and screamed instinctively, but suddenly felt a force pulling him up.

It was Cen Nian's father.

Then, Cen Nian's father passed by, and Jiang Bei staggered and sat on the floor of the roof, but heard a loud "bang", the falling sound that resounded through the sky hit his heart heavily, and it became a reality. his future nightmare.

Looking in panic at the vulnerable guardrail hanging in mid-air in front of him, Jiang Bei's heart couldn't settle down for a long time.

04
"sorry!"

After telling the past one by one, Jiang Bei seriously and apologetically bowed to Cen Nian and her mother.

Because he knew the truth, he couldn't forgive himself, let alone face Cen Nian, so he chose to leave, even taking advantage of Zou Yuqing.It turns out that there is really no sin in this world that cannot be hidden from the past. After all, he has to face Cen Nian, face the dark past, and finally clearly present the mistakes he committed to her.

After taking a deep breath, Jiang Bei said again: "I know, how many words of 'I'm sorry' can't make up for my mistakes, I don't expect you to forgive me..."

"Snapped!"

Before he finished speaking, Cen Nian slapped him.

The winter wind was blowing through the cemetery, whimpering and whimpering, Jiang Bei could feel the burning on his face, as if the anger in her heart was burning to the palm of her hand, and then engraved on his face through the palm of her hand. The temperature is hot enough to melt the fine snow this winter.

But the fine snow melted under the hot slap, but it stuck to Cen Nian's face as if being blown by the bitter wind.

No, that's not Snow's tears.

Those were Cen Nian's tears.

Jiang Bei looked at her with tears in her eyes and crying softly, and her heart ached like a tear.He really wanted to open his arms to hug her, but he couldn't, because his past mistakes had disqualified him from loving her.

Compared with Cen Nian, her mother was much calmer.

Although there were tears in her eyes, Cen's mother never said a word, but turned around and squatted down, laying out the flowers and cakes in honor of her husband.

Time seems to slow down, but the cold wind is still sharp.

However, no matter how cold the wind is, it is not as painful as the pain in my heart.

Jiang Bei fully understood how Cen Nian's heart was tormented, even though she remained silent.He once again recalled the accident seven years ago. At this moment, he wished that the person who died that year was himself.

After a long time, when Cen Nian and his mother finished worshiping, Jiang Bei hurried forward.

"I'll take you back."

As if he was afraid that they would refuse, Jiang Bei took the bag from Cen Nian's hand on his own.

Cen Nian glanced at his mother, she didn't seem to refuse, she just walked forward, so Cen Nian followed silently while supporting his mother.

……

Along the way, snowflakes are still dancing and the wind is still biting.

Jiang Bei walked behind Cen Nian, taking his time and keeping a distance of one meter.This one meter is like the distance between him and Cen Nian, as if beyond this distance, Cen Nian's heart will suffer a hundredfold pain, he is not willing to torture her heart like this.

He quietly fixed his eyes on her back, and at the same time carefully guessed her expression at this time in his heart.

There are no tears, but the eyes are red and distressing, and the eyes are empty and empty; there is no expression, but the sad clouds entangled between the brows are enough to cover the blue sky in midsummer.

When they lost their minds, they had already arrived at the downstairs of Cen Nian's house.

It's dusk, but the winter dusk here will never have the orange glow of summer, only black clouds, which are very depressing.

A few steps forward in time, it will be completely dark.

In winter, the sky always gets dark quickly, and the dawn of the next day comes very late, which is the season of short days and long nights.But no matter how cold, dark, hesitant, and long the night is, after all, there will be dawn after all.

Jiang Bei smiled bitterly, but there was no dawn between himself and Cen Nian.

At this moment, Cen Nian turned around, she didn't look at him, she snatched the bag as if telling him - we're home, you can go.

Jiang Bei understood, bowed to Cen's mother and said goodbye politely: "Auntie, then I will go first."

As soon as his voice fell, Cen's mother's voice followed.

"Wait." She turned around and looked at him carefully, "Jiang Bei, right?"

Jiang Bei raised his head in astonishment, and replied slowly, "Yes."

Mother Cen nodded, and suddenly invited him: "Come up and have a seat."

Hearing that Jiang Bei was in a state of astonishment, Cen Nian was a little bit dissatisfied and protested first, and called out as a reminder - "Mom!"

Jiang Bei understood Cen Nian's protest and said, "No, Auntie, I still have to catch the train."

"I see." Mother Cen sighed, "Actually, I have something to ask you."

"You ask."

"That's right. I wonder if Cen Nian's father told you anything before he died?"

Even though she knew in her heart that the accident happened so suddenly that year, maybe her husband didn't have time to leave a few last words, but she still couldn't help asking.

Over the years, she missed her husband all the time, and it took her a long time to accept the fact that he left so suddenly.She had already put it down, but Jiang Bei's appearance brought her memories back. She had a glimmer of hope, wondering if her husband had left any last words, even if it was just "take good care of my daughter".

"Back then..." Jiang Bei took a deep breath, and shook his head lightly after recalling, "The accident back then was too sudden, uncle didn't have time..."

It was clearly expected, but it was still lost.

Cen's mother sighed: "These years, you must have had a hard time."

Jiang Bei remained silent, he had indeed had a hard time these years, but in front of Cen Nian and her mother, his "difficulty" was simply too humble.

(End of this chapter)