Love's Gone

With a calm face, Zhou Wei rubbed his eyebrows a few times. He said lightly: "let these boys move things in first. Liu duo'an, don't waste people's time."

Leaning to me, Zhou Wei gently pulled me: "Liu duo'an, stand aside and don't get in the way. It's not good where you're bumped later."

Even if Zhou Wei didn't pull me with great strength, my whole person seemed to be stuck in place by strong glue, but I couldn't touch it at a close distance. I could only watch those vigorous young people take in those shiny iron frames and nets, skillfully and busy in front of me to form such a large open iron cage.

In the end, a young man headed by him hung a big lock on the door. He took the order and asked Zhou Wei to sign. He smiled and said that the lock was an extra gift from the landlady.

The little dull noise made by the lock hitting the iron frame net pierced my heart like a sharp weapon. The boys retreated clean from home. I still couldn't get out of the mess stirred by them. I was in a trance for a long time before I could find the focus to Zhou Wei: "why do you buy an iron cage?"

Without much emotional change, Zhou Weisi said slowly: "well, my attending doctor judged that I was accompanied by manic and violent tendencies. His advice to me was to keep an appropriate distance from my family as much as possible. Liu Duoan, don't you want to divorce and separate from me? Then I just want to find a way to set up a barrier at home. In the future, in addition to eating and bathing, I will move freely outside, Whether I work or rest, or go to bed at night, I will stay alone in the cage. I'll give you the key later. In the future, as long as I enter the cage, you can help lock it. Let's not be afraid of trouble. It's better to prepare for rain than anything... "

Like my heart was thrown into the oil pan and fried, I subconsciously squeezed my fist: "don't open your mouth and shut up and mention your attending doctor. The more I listen, the more I think he is a quack. What? You have a tendency to be manic and violent. He farts! You're not always good. You've always been calm and considerate to me. You're obviously getting better, but the doctor can't see it at all! Really can't, Zhou Wei. Let's change a doctor and change a more reliable one. "

Zhou Wei squatted on the side of the big box next to the iron cage. He slowly took out the simple beds and pillows inside. He held them and tried to get into the cage to tidy up.

Before he got in, I stepped forward and grabbed his arm: "Zhou Wei, don't do this."

"You don't want to divorce and keep a proper distance from me for the time being. That's all I can do. Liu duo'an, or in your opinion, I've been crazy for a few times, which is almost negligible, but for me, it's a particularly long suffering. When I'm with you, I have to try my 100% patience to restrain myself. In addition, I also need to deliberately regulate my behavior. I don't dare to relax and relax too much, I even increased the dose of the medicine for fear that I might get out of control and hurt you. "

Looking back on me, Zhou Weidiao said coldly: "my doctor has warned me that if I continue in this state, my condition will not be effectively restrained, but it will become more and more serious. One day it will completely break out, it will completely destroy me like a tsunami without any signs. He thinks my state is not suitable for marriage. He thinks my sense of responsibility will destroy me. OK, Liu Duoan, you are for my good. You don't want to leave me at my most difficult time, but if you insist on being with me, we will destroy each other. Now that you have made a choice, let's do it. I don't care what future is not, whether it will be chased and beaten by Zhou Tianquan, or even if I will be picked up by Zhou Tianquan in the future. It doesn't matter. Now that you have chosen to live a vigorous and unrestrained life with me, Then let's go to the fire pit together. I won't toss anymore. I don't have the mental strength to toss. "

Stunned, biting my lips and eating the broken bloody smell, I can sort out half of my thoughts: "so, Zhou Wei, what do you mean, I'm so determined to be with you and I'm so stubborn to accompany you. Not only do I not help your condition, but do I indirectly harm you to become more serious? Is that what you mean? "

As soon as the strength in my hand relaxed, Zhou Wei took the opportunity to take out his arm. His body slipped forward and got into the cage. He turned his back to me and pulled to tidy up the quilt: "it's not you who hurt me, but I'm with you. I'll subconsciously tolerate and restrain more. Forget it, Liu duo'an, we won't mention this. I'll live in a cage for the time being. One day, my condition breaks out and I can't be restrained. I become unreasonable. You can send me to a mental hospital. "

My face turned to the windowsill. I stretched out my hand to wipe out the uncontrollable tears. I bit my broken lips and said, "divorce, leave now, go right away. Divorce, since leaving is the best for you, leave."

Without immediately picking up my words, Zhou Wei stopped and quiet for several minutes. He spoke slowly to the extreme: "Liu duo'an, I have failed you in my life. I will make up for you in my next life."

"I don't believe in the afterlife and this life."

Turning around, I went to the bedroom: "I'm afraid before half of my life in this life. I dare to have the next life. If there is a next life, let me reincarnate and be a pig. If I eat, sleep and eat, I will be killed and eat meat early, which is better than this long and variable life. "

I'm afraid that the longer I delay, the more vulnerable I will become. I change my clothes as soon as possible. I hold my ID card: "the marriage certificate is with you. Take it with you."

Well, Zhou Wei didn't look at me. He also went to the bedroom.

Not long after he came out, none of us spoke. We got on the car one by one, and then Zhou Wei drove the car fast.

It was almost time to get off work. At this time, the crowd of the Civil Affairs Bureau slowly dispersed, and the hall became more and more empty and deserted. The staff member may be in a hurry to get off work. She took our marriage certificate, asked a few simple questions about property and children, and after she had no objection, she just stamped the divorce book and handed it back to us.

Everyone has a book. This time it's my turn to walk in front. I keep walking and walking staring at the ground. I didn't stop until I couldn't hear Zhou Yiyi's footsteps. I looked back and he stopped at the door of the Civil Affairs Bureau.

I really want to continue to lift my feet and walk away, so that I can completely get out of this dilemma I can't solve, but my heart completely controls my thigh. Its intolerance and contradiction made me stop and walk back to Zhou Wei half a minute later.

I pretended that I didn't see through Zhou Wei. I pretended that I didn't see through him. He took so much pains to divorce me. He just wanted to leave me. I pretended to be naive and stupid: "Zhou Wei, what are you waiting for? Let's go home and quickly go home to discuss how we'll live in the future. For example, we sold this villa and changed it into two commercial houses next door or opposite, Or let's move back to Xixiang. You live in the house we lived in before and I live in the studio. In this way, we can not only maintain our own private space, but also take care of each other... "

However, Zhou Wei was so cruel that he didn't want to help me. He took great pains to disguise his stupidity. He condensed me: "Liu duo'an, you can continue to live in this house now. Later, I'll get an aunt for you to help take care of and take care of your three meals a day. As for me, I'll move back to the house where my father lived. "

I clenched my fist and said, "Oh."

"In fact, Liu duo'an, you are so smart that you should know without me. I lied to you about what I said before. When I'm ready, we'll have children again. I can't get better in my life. My problem is not acquired, but inherited. My grandmother fell ill in her prime. Her condition deteriorated to the point that her family didn't recognize her in just one year. I wouldn't be any better than her. People like me should not fall in love, get married or have children. I should put an end to all tragedies at the source. I'm sorry for you. I shouldn't have provoked you from the beginning. "

Standing straight, Zhou Wei sniffed, "well, if you're hypocritical, let's put it aside first. You should have a good rest today and tomorrow. You should eat, drink and sleep. You get up early the day after tomorrow. You go to wanmeng with me and I'll transfer the equity to you. This change still needs to be reported to the company. This also needs to be passed through the shareholders' resolution meeting and signed by the collective shareholders. As soon as I've arranged everything, you can go through a process. "

I raised my face high: "will I never see you again after the day after tomorrow?"

"No, I will accompany you when you decide to be a child one day. This is the only thing I can do for you. "

He spread out the divorce certificate in his hand. Zhou Wei rubbed it with his hand for a while. He tore off the title page. He moved very fast and tore it in pieces. He hurried to the trash can and threw it clean. He clapped his hands: "go, I'll take you back."

On the road, my tears couldn't stop running out. I erased them and soon made up for them. I had to accept my failure several times. I finally abandoned myself and let those mottled tears occupy my whole face.

When I cried, Zhou Wei sat upright. He kept staring at the front and looked serious driving from beginning to end.

Almost at the entrance of the community, he spoke slowly: "well, Liu Duoan, don't cry. I'll buy you a cup of milk tea. Don't cry, okay?"

I closed my mouth and said nothing.

The standoff lasted about half a minute. Zhou Wei slowed down his speed: "otherwise, you'll get off here. I have something to deal with. As for my luggage, I'll pick it up again when I'm free these days."

The pestle stood there motionless, and I held my breath for a while: "can you kiss me again?"

"Leave me and you'll meet better people."

After putting aside such an ambiguous sentence, Zhou Wei frowned: "Liu duo'an, the world is infinite. There are many good men in the world. You are a good girl. You will meet a better man in the future. There are countless possibilities in your life. You must untie yourself first, you know."

I insisted: "I just asked if you could kiss me again."

"Sorry, I can't."

Turning to the window, Zhou Wei added a few more words: "I'm just an ordinary person, you get off, I'm in a hurry."

It was a stalemate for only ten seconds. I finally couldn't hold it. I grabbed the door and slammed it open. After getting out of the car, I patted it hard.

Rolling down the window, Zhou Wei turned sideways to me: "the aunt I'm looking for should have arrived. If you need anything, just tell her to take good care of yourself and be good."

Then he disappeared.

Standing in the shadow of the whirling trees, I watched him shrink into a small shadow of the car. Then I looked at the traffic pouring up next to him. Without Zhou Wei, I didn't need to restrain all my real emotions to force a smile. I turned my mouth. I really wanted to laugh at myself. I really wanted to laugh at myself, but I failed, My tears ran out and spread all my sadness into an ocean.

I walked home crying all the way... Oh, I was wrong. I was in a cold house.

The so-called aunt Zhou Wei was looking for was already waiting at the door. She looked simple and honest and a little dull. As soon as she saw me, she timidly said that she was the aunt who came to report. She called my daughter, and I couldn't refuse to let her in.

Although she was timid, the aunt worked very quickly. She asked me for a key and went out to buy vegetables. After a while, she brushed and began to cook. The fireworks couldn't stop floating towards the bedroom, but I ignored and closed the door.

Later, the aunt insisted on patting my door. After she brought me the express sent by Zhang Xiaomei, she was very patient and gave me good words. I finally lost in her persuasion. I could only respond to end a tug of war. I reluctantly took a few mouthfuls of rice and drank a few mouthfuls of soup.

After eating, I shut myself into the bedroom again. I wandered around in several wardrobe rooms like a wandering soul until two o'clock in the morning. My psychological defense line completely collapsed in the increasingly strong night. I still couldn't bear to call Zhou Wei.

He hung up after the first sound.

I finally believed that he was determined to separate from me this time.

Sadness surged up from my heart. I recalled that since I knew that Zhou Wei was ill, I pretended to be calm, and all kinds of restraint and behaviors that he didn't treat him as a person in order to avoid hurting me. I suddenly got a short relief.

If my simply let go can give him a new sea and sky, even if my arms can no longer hug him, even if my lips can no longer stick to his lips for warmth, even if I toss and turn in the loneliness of my midnight dream, I will recognize it.

With a long sigh, I ended my wandering and returned to bed. I hugged a pillow and leaned against the head of the bed. Soon I fell asleep.

Or I subconsciously think that sleeping can let me escape all the troubles in the world. I feel dark. When the morning light comes in through the curtains, I turn around and continue to entangle with Duke Zhou.

I was awakened by the telephone.

It kept ringing again and again, which exhausted my patience to harden my head and ignore it. I had to take my cell phone and pick it up without looking: "who, this morning's noise."